Tag: Kirkwall

  • Chapter 22 – A Buried Secret

    16-17 Firstfall 9:33

    The next morning, as Ariana sat at the breakfast table with Isabel, the thought of Emma weighed heavily on her mind. Despite everything they’d discussed the night before, this unanswered question lingered. She had to know—was Isabel more than just a trusted confidant? Was she family? Was Emma her niece?

    Ariana took a deep breath, trying to steady her thoughts. “Isabel…” she began, her voice quieter than she intended. The hesitation in her tone was unmistakable.

    “Yes, child?” Isabel responded, turning to face her, the soft morning light catching the warmth in her expression. She noticed the way Ariana’s brow furrowed slightly, and her lips pressed into a thin line.

    “Is Emma…” Ariana paused, her words faltering as she searched for the right way to ask. “Is she… my niece? Is she a Trevelyan?”

    For a moment, Isabel’s expression didn’t change, but her body stiffened just slightly. It wasn’t enough to alarm most people, but Ariana noticed. She always noticed. Isabel took a measured breath before responding, her voice calm and even. “You need not concern yourself with such matters, my dear. You have enough to think about already.”

    “So, she is my niece,” Ariana replied, her voice sharper now, cutting through Isabel’s attempt at deflection.

    “I did not say that,” Isabel countered quickly, her tone still gentle but firm.

    “No,” Ariana said, narrowing her eyes at Isabel, her expression one of quiet determination. “But you didn’t say she wasn’t either.”

    Isabel held her gaze for a moment before sighing softly. “It changes nothing,” she said, her voice softer now, tinged with a note of resignation.

    “It changes everything,” Ariana shot back, her voice steady but with a clear edge of urgency. “Mark?”

    Isabel hesitated, her lips pressing together in a way that confirmed more than any words might have. Her silence was all the answer Ariana needed. The weight of her suspicions settling fully in her chest, Ariana leaned back slightly, her hazel-green eyes searching Isabel’s face.

    “You won’t say it outright,” Ariana said finally, her voice quieter now, “but I know. I know he’s the one.”

    Isabel’s gaze softened, her own heart heavy with the knowledge. “My child,” she began gently, reaching across the table to place her hand over Ariana’s. “It does not change the love I have for her—or for you. She is my daughter, but she will never be anything less than family to you.”

    Ariana held her gaze, emotions swirling in her chest—anger, sadness, and an odd sense of relief all vying for space. She nodded slowly, the corners of her lips twitching into the faintest smile. “Then we’ll make sure she grows up knowing that, too.”

    Ariana’s gaze shifted to Emma, who sat on the floor, quietly playing with her doll. The little girl’s laughter, soft and sweet, filled the room like the chiming of bells. Ariana couldn’t help but smile, a warmth spreading through her at the sight. The innocence in Emma’s tiny face, untouched by the weight of expectations or obligations, filled her with a renewed sense of purpose.

    She leaned back in her chair, watching as Emma gently tucked her doll under a scrap of fabric, mimicking what she’d seen of bedtime routines. The thought of helping raise another Trevelyan—one free of the burdens that had weighed so heavily on her own shoulders—felt like a quiet victory.

    Isabel noticed the soft expression on Ariana’s face and followed her gaze to the little girl. “She’s quite the joy, isn’t she?” Isabel said softly, her voice carrying the kind of pride only a mother could have.

    Ariana nodded, her smile growing. “She deserves to grow up free. Free to choose her own path, without anyone telling her who or what she has to be.” She glanced back at Isabel, determination flickering in her eyes. “I’ll make sure of it.”

    Isabel placed a hand on Ariana’s shoulder, her touch both comforting and affirming. “With you in her life, she’ll have all the freedom in the world, my dear.”

    ~~~

    After breakfast, Ariana sent word for Varric to join them. Isabel would need help managing the intricate logistics of her affairs, especially with the Silver Rangers. Varric, with his unparalleled network of contacts, was the perfect ally to facilitate communication, arrange shipments, and handle financial transfers. After all, he was the “Merchant Prince of Kirkwall.”

    When Varric arrived at the estate, he stepped into the entryway with his usual swagger. “Pup, seems like you’re moving up in the world!” he greeted, his tone warm with a teasing edge.

    Ariana chuckled, motioning for him to follow her toward the kitchen. “Thanks for coming, Varric. I’m going to need your help,” she said, leading him to where Isabel was waiting. Emma sat on the counter, happily making a mess with a bowl of flour.

    “Is Emma making today’s bread, then?” Ariana teased, walking up to her niece.

    “She has to start learning sometime,” Isabel replied with a soft laugh, dusting some flour off Emma’s nose.

    “Well, and who is this little doll?” Varric asked, stepping closer. Emma immediately became fixated on his necklace, tugging at it and holding her hands out for him to pick her up.

    “My niece,” Ariana said with a smile, her voice warm with pride.

    Isabel, noticing Emma’s quick attachment to Varric, smirked. “Seems like she likes you.”

    “It’s the chest hair. Women, of all ages, find it irresistible,” Varric replied with a perfectly straight face.

    Ariana and Isabel both laughed, shaking their heads.

    “I don’t believe you’ve been formally introduced,” Ariana said, gesturing toward Isabel. “Varric, this is Isabel.”

    “Ah, the famous Isabel. It’s a pleasure to finally meet you,” Varric said, giving her a respectful nod.

    “The pleasure’s mine,” Isabel replied warmly.

    “So, Varric…” Ariana said as she took a seat at the kitchen table, gesturing to the maps and papers spread out across its surface. “I need your help.”

    With Emma still perched comfortably in his arms, Varric strolled toward the table. “What’s all this?” he asked, eyeing the array of documents.

    Isabel brought over drinks and joined them at the table as Ariana began to explain. “This,” she said, pointing to the maps, “is the current position of Ranger forces and holdings throughout Ferelden. Isabel will be helping me with the administrative side of things, but this is where you come in.”

    Varric quirked an eyebrow, his curiosity piqued. “Well, this sounds interesting…”

    Ariana grinned. “I hope you keep feeling that way…”

    She went on to outline her plans. She needed someone to assist Isabel with managing communications to and from Ferelden until she could hire someone to handle it directly. On top of that, she required help transporting goods and moving money between Ferelden, Orlais, and the Free Marches.

    “That’s… a tall order,” Varric remarked, the shrewd merchant in him coming to the forefront. “How much money are we talking about moving?”

    “Haven’t sorted out the logistics entirely yet, but at least once a month, I’d estimate around one to two thousand sovereigns initially.”

    Varric choked on his drink, clearly caught off guard. “Two thousand sovereigns?” he sputtered.

    Ariana laughed at his reaction. “What can I say? It’s expensive to run a mercenary company, especially when you pay people well enough to prevent them from leaving—or taking bribes.”

    Varric recovered, slipping back into his Merchant Prince persona. “This is certainly a larger job than the small favors I’ve done for you before.”

    “Hence why this is a business arrangement, Varric.”

    “And communications?” he asked, his tone turning serious again.

    “If I’m going to spend more time in Kirkwall, I need a consistent way to stay in touch with the Rangers near Redcliffe. Weekly at most, but I need reliability.”

    “Weekly, huh? Regular schedules cost money, pup. Are you sure this is worth it? Because, honestly, it’d be cheaper to move the estate to Ferelden…” He let the implication hang in the air, clearly referring to her relationship with Cullen.

    Ariana met his gaze with a calm, unwavering resolve. “It is,” she said simply.

    Varric studied her for a moment before nodding. “Consider it done.”

    ~~~

    Ariana leaned back in her chair, satisfied with how the conversation had gone. Varric’s agreement brought her one step closer to balancing her responsibilities with the Rangers and her growing ties to Kirkwall. Isabel gave her an encouraging smile as she tidied up the table, clearly pleased with the progress they’d made.

    But Ariana wasn’t finished yet.

    There was still one task lingering in the back of her mind, the one she had been putting off for too long: Cullen. She needed to determine how much she could tell him about the Silver Rangers—if she could be honest with him about who she really was and what she’d built.

    The thought made her stomach tighten. She knew Cullen’s stance on mercenaries. In their conversations, it was clear he wasn’t particularly fond of them, seeing many as little better than opportunists who profited off chaos. Yet, she also knew that the Silver Rangers were different. She had worked tirelessly to make them a force for good—defending villages, assisting in rebuilding efforts, and operating with a code of honor that set them apart. If Cullen had heard the same rumors coming out of Ferelden, the ones that painted the Rangers as protectors rather than profiteers, maybe he would understand.

    But what if he didn’t? Would he see her efforts as noble, or would the word “mercenary” overshadow everything else? Would it change how he saw her, how he felt about her?

    It couldn’t wait forever. If she was going to be dividing her time between Kirkwall and Ferelden, she owed him the truth—or at least as much of it as she could share. But not today. She knew better than to try. Fridays were always consumed with Templar duties at the Gallows, and Cullen rarely had time to step away. She would wait for tomorrow, hoping to catch him after his afternoon prayers at the Chantry.

    Ariana let out a quiet sigh, rising from her chair and stretching. “One step at a time,” she muttered to herself, trying to steady the mix of anticipation and anxiety swirling inside her. She only hoped Cullen would see the Silver Rangers for what they truly were: a part of her she was proud of, and a part she desperately wanted him to understand.

    ~~~

    Isabel entered the sitting room, her arms weighed down with a basket of laundry, only to pause mid-step as she caught sight of Ariana. The younger woman was pacing near the writing desk, her hands fidgeting with the edges of a folded note. Her usually composed demeanor was notably absent, replaced by an almost palpable nervous energy.

    “And what, pray tell, would you like prepared for dinner?” Isabel asked, her tone light but teasing as she leaned against the doorframe, watching Ariana with quiet amusement.

    Ariana froze, her head snapping up as if she’d been caught doing something illicit. A faint blush crept up her neck. “I… have not given it much thought,” she admitted, the words tumbling out quickly. “Do you think the dish will truly change the outcome of this conversation?”

    Isabel raised an eyebrow, setting the laundry basket down on a nearby chair. “Perhaps not,” she said with a chuckle, “but it seems to be occupying your thoughts more than usual. Something tells me this conversation is important to you.”

    Ariana’s lips pressed into a thin line, and she gave a small, reluctant nod. Her fingers toyed with the edge of the note in her hand, folding and unfolding it absentmindedly. Isabel studied her for a moment, noting the subtle shift in Ariana’s posture. Though she was nervous, there was a determination beneath the surface, a quiet resolve that spoke volumes about how far she had come.

    “Something… Ferelden,” Ariana murmured, her voice hesitant, as though testing the idea aloud. Slowly, her expression brightened, and she looked up at Isabel with a flicker of inspiration. “You know, King Alistair makes this Lamb and Pea Stew that is quite good. I do not have the exact recipe, but I could tell you what I remember.”

    Isabel blinked, momentarily caught off guard. A wry smile tugged at her lips. “You’ve met the King, then?”

    Ariana’s expression shifted from nervous to momentarily perplexed before she gave a small laugh. “Hmm? Oh, yes, a couple of times. First when he hired the Rangers and handed me a stack of reports asking us to ‘fix all the things.’ I mostly worked with his aides and Bann Teagan, but one day, I found myself in the kitchen discussing logistics, and in walked King Alistair himself to cook.”

    Isabel’s eyebrows climbed higher as she listened, her curiosity piqued. Ariana’s voice softened as she continued, a smile curving her lips at the memory. “Apparently, it is a ritual he and the Hero of Ferelden maintain to remind them of their travels. Something Queen Anora, of course, disapproves of.”

    A ripple of laughter escaped Isabel before she could stop it. She shook her head, marveling at the casual way Ariana recounted the tale. It wasn’t boastful or self-important; it was simply another story, another moment in the life of the woman Isabel had raised.

    “You truly met the King? And the Hero who ended the Blight?” Isabel asked, though her tone was more curious than incredulous.

    Ariana nodded, though her expression turned modest. “Lyna I only met the one time,” she clarified, giving a small shrug. “I cannot claim much of a personal relationship with either. But they are both very kind. Very… normal. King Alistair is quite charming and funny, and Lyna—she’s definitely a match for him. They make an adorable couple.”

    Isabel couldn’t help but smile at Ariana’s description. “Yet here you are, pulling recipes from royalty to impress another,” she said, her voice tinged with amusement.

    The blush that spread across Ariana’s cheeks was almost comical. She gave Isabel a playful glare, though it lacked any real heat. “Anyroad, stew. Yes, I think a stew will suffice.”

    Isabel’s smirk softened into something more genuine as she nodded. “Very well. Write down what you can recall, and I’ll make it happen.”

    Ariana quickly grabbed a scrap of parchment and began scribbling down the details, her brow furrowed in concentration. Isabel watched her for a moment, her heart swelling with a mixture of affection and pride. There was something remarkable about Ariana, about the way she carried herself despite everything she’d been through. She had endured so much darkness, yet here she was, fretting over a dinner and pulling inspiration from a king’s kitchen. It was a testament to her resilience, to the light that refused to be snuffed out.

    As Ariana handed over the parchment, her gaze briefly met Isabel’s. There was a flicker of vulnerability there, a hint of uncertainty that she tried to mask with a confident smile. Isabel took the parchment with a nod, determined to make this dinner perfect. If anyone deserved a moment of peace and happiness, it was Ariana.

    ~~~

    Ariana must have changed clothes no fewer than six times that day, growing increasingly frustrated with each choice. Then she went shopping, as though something new would magically feel right. Over the past week, while her father was still in Kirkwall, they had restocked her wardrobe with elegant dresses, finely tailored travel clothes, and practical armor. Yet somehow, none of it seemed to fit her mood—or the weight of tonight’s conversation.

    Finally, she settled on something practical yet undeniably elegant. She donned a sleek, fitted leather bodice and trousers in rich shades of deep blue, reminiscent of twilight skies, accented with fine silver stitching and Elven-inspired patterns that ran along the seams. The outfit flattered her slender, athletic build, hugging her form in a way that was both commanding and graceful. The long flowing sash at her hip softened the ensemble, a perfect balance of utility and sophistication. Her hair fell in soft waves over her shoulders, the hazel-green of her eyes striking even more vibrantly against the blue tones of her attire.

    As she looked at herself in the mirror, Ariana’s mind raced. Tonight felt monumental, and she could not shake the nerves that had settled in her chest like a restless bird. The practical outfit had been the right choice; anything more formal would have felt like a costume. She needed to feel like herself, grounded and confident. Yet, even as she resolved that thought, a part of her whispered doubt. Would it be enough?

    When she stepped into the courtyard, the cool breeze touched her face, carrying with it a sense of calm that she desperately needed. The fading light painted the stones in soft golds and purples, and Ariana tilted her gaze skyward. The stars began to peek through the expanse above, and she felt her shoulders relax ever so slightly. She thought back to all the nights she and Cullen had spent stargazing, his quiet presence steadying her as the world spun on. Those moments had been simple yet profound, and she clung to them now, letting the memory anchor her.

    As she stretched out on the bench, staring up at the sky, she replayed fragments of memories—his laugh, the way his hand felt in hers, the softness in his voice when he said her name. She allowed herself a small, private smile. Whatever tonight brought, she would face it.

    The sound of approaching footsteps broke her reverie, and she turned her head just in time to see Cullen enter the courtyard. He paused, his eyes finding her immediately, and for a moment, neither of them moved. His gaze was warm, admiring, and it sent a soft flutter through her chest.

    “See anything interesting?” he asked, his voice teasing yet gentle.

    Ariana sat up, brushing her hair back as she smiled at him. “Perhaps,” she replied lightly, a glint of mischief in her eyes. “But I imagine you already know the best view tonight is standing right in front of me.”

    The faint blush that crept up Cullen’s cheeks was endearing, and Ariana felt a flicker of amusement at having caught him off guard. For all his composure and confidence, she loved these moments when he seemed just a little unsure of himself.

    “Well,” he said, clearing his throat as he regained his composure, “I could say the same about you. Though I I’m beginning to think I should have worn armor if I’ll be deflecting such flattery tonight.”

    Ariana laughed softly, the sound warming the cool air. “Oh, I’ll keep that in mind, Knight-Captain,” she said, rising from the bench with an easy grace. She brushed an imaginary speck of dust from her sash. “But I might enjoy watching you waver just a little.”

    Cullen chuckled, rubbing the back of his neck as he stepped closer. “Is that so? I’ll have to stay on my guard then.” His tone was light, but his gaze softened as it lingered on her. “You look… incredible tonight, Ari.”

    Her breath hitched slightly at the sincerity in his voice. There was no teasing now, just quiet admiration that made her heart ache in the best way. “Thank you,” she said softly, her confidence flickering back as she met his gaze.

    She motioned toward the table set up in the courtyard, needing to redirect her focus before the warmth in her face betrayed her entirely. “Dinner is ready,” she said lightly. “I hope you are hungry.”

    “Starving,” Cullen replied with a smile, offering her his arm. “Lead the way.”

    Ariana took his arm, her earlier nerves now a distant hum beneath the steady rhythm of her heartbeat. As they walked toward the table, she couldn’t help but feel a quiet confidence settle over her. Whatever tonight held, she would face it with him by her side.

    ~~~

    As the first course was served, Ariana couldn’t help but notice the way Cullen’s presence grounded the room. There was a quiet strength to him, an unspoken steadiness that had always drawn her to him. And yet, tonight, as she carefully navigated the conversation toward the topic she’d been avoiding for a while now, she couldn’t shake the unease settling in her chest.

    “Have you… heard much about the Silver Rangers in Ferelden?” she asked, her voice carefully even as she set her wine glass down. She met his gaze, trying to gauge his reaction, though her heart was already beating faster than she liked.

    When he answered, his voice was measured but firm, the familiar conviction of a Templar in his tone. “I’ve heard the rumors. But they’re mercenaries. At the end of the day, their loyalty lies with coin, not principles. Trusting a group like that…” He shook his head. “The kind of work they’re doing should be left to governments, the Chantry, or other established organizations—not those who could be bought out the moment a better offer comes along.”

    The words struck harder than she’d expected, like a slap disguised as reason. Ariana straightened in her chair, her eyes narrowing. “Why only governments or the Chantry?” she shot back, her voice sharper than she intended. “Do you really think they’re always the answer? That they never fail?”

    Cullen leaned back slightly, his expression hardening. “Because those institutions are accountable, Ariana. Even when they falter, they are built to serve the greater good. Mercenaries…” He exhaled, shaking his head. “They are free agents. No oversight. No accountability. How can you trust their motives?”

    Her chest tightened, anger flaring alongside the sting of his words. “Then explain why they’re known for helping people who have no coin to give,” she countered, her voice rising. “Why so many of the people they protect are the ones governments and the Chantry have ignored—farmers, refugees, the forgotten. If it’s all about money, why do they risk their lives for those who have nothing to offer?”

    Cullen frowned, her words clearly unsettling him, but he stood firm. “Even if that’s true, it doesn’t change the fact that they answer to no one. There’s no way to guarantee their good intentions last.”

    Her words came out faster than she’d intended, the frustration bubbling over. She could see the conflict in his eyes, the way his principles clashed with the points she was making. Before he could respond, she pressed on, her voice tinged with a mix of hurt and determination. “The Rangers answer to the White Wolf,” she said firmly. “A leader who risks everything to save those in need, who goes where they’re needed most without asking for anything in return. Isn’t that the kind of leadership worth trusting?”

    Cullen’s expression darkened. “The White Wolf is the perfect example of why they can’t be trusted,” he said evenly. “If their leader isn’t even willing to show their face, how can anyone trust their motives? Hiding behind a name, operating in the shadows… that doesn’t inspire confidence. It raises questions.”

    Ariana’s hands curled into fists in her lap. The sting of his words cut deeper than he could know. *He doesn’t understand. He doesn’t know what I’ve sacrificed, what I’ve done.* Her voice wavered as she replied, “Why are you so quick to dismiss them? Maybe they’re motivated by something more than coin. Maybe they’re trying to help because no one else will.”

    Cullen’s brow furrowed, confusion flickering across his face. “Why do you care so much, Ari? You’re defending them like your life depends on it.”

    She froze, his words cutting through her like a blade. Her gaze dropped to the table as she took a steadying breath. When she looked back up, her voice was quieter but filled with raw emotion. “Because my life did depend on them,” she said. “When I was alone, when I had nothing, they were the ones who saved me. They took me in, protected me when no one else could.”

    The words left her lips, ringing with conviction—but almost immediately, a shadow of doubt crept into her mind. *That’s not entirely true, is it?* she thought. Her heart twisted as the image of Krieger surfaced, unbidden and unwelcome. *It wasn’t the Rangers who saved me—not at first. It was him. And he didn’t protect me; he used me. He manipulated me. He…*

    The realization hit her like a cold wind, making her grip her glass tighter. Her pulse quickened, shame and frustration bubbling under the surface. She had spoken of the Rangers as though they were her saviors—and in many ways, they were. Riley, the Vanguard, the people she now trusted with her life—they were good, they were hers. But while they had been there in the beginning, it had been Krieger who chose to save her. And he had expected a payment. She shoved the memories aside, forcing herself to focus on the present.

    Ariana raised her head, her expression calm, though the storm inside her raged. She wouldn’t take back what she’d said; it wasn’t entirely a lie. The people who became the Rangers had been there, even if their foundation had been built on the ashes of betrayal.

    The room fell silent. Cullen’s rigid posture softened, his expression flickering with something between guilt and understanding. “Ari…” he began, his voice gentler now. “I’m sorry. For what you went through. For how it shaped your view of this.”

    Ariana’s lips pressed into a thin line, her anger ebbing but not her frustration. “Maybe the White Wolf doesn’t care about inspiring confidence in organizations like the Chantry or the Templars,” she said after a long pause. “Maybe they only care about doing what needs to be done while others sit back and debate whether it’s worth the risk.”

    Her words hung in the air, sharp and unyielding. Cullen’s gaze lingered on her, his thoughts a storm of conflict. She could see it in his eyes—the struggle between his principles and the truth she had laid bare.

    “I’m not asking you to change your mind,” she said finally, her voice softer now. “But I am asking you to understand. Not all mercenaries are selfish or corrupt. Some of them… some of them save lives when no one else will.”

    Cullen nodded slowly, though his expression remained troubled. “I’ll… try,” he said, his tone hesitant but sincere.

    The silence that followed was heavy, the weight of their unspoken truths settling between them. Ariana looked away first, her hands gripping the edge of the table as she tried to steady herself. She had said too much, but at the same time, she hadn’t said enough.

    The rest of the meal passed in a strained quiet, the earlier tension refusing to dissipate. As Ariana stole glances at Cullen, she wondered if he would ever truly see things as she did—or if this divide between them was one that could never be bridged.

    ~~~

    After dinner, Cullen couldn’t shake the lingering tension from their conversation about the Rangers. The weight of Ariana’s words pressed against his mind, a mix of frustration and confusion churning in his chest. He stood in the courtyard, debating whether he should leave and give her space, but before he could make a decision, Ariana’s voice broke through his thoughts.

    “Come with me,” she said softly, reaching for his hand. Her touch was gentle but firm, her tone leaving no room for argument.

    Cullen followed her, curiosity flickering in his golden eyes as she led him toward the manor. “Where are we going?” he asked, his voice quieter than usual.

    “You’ll see,” Ariana replied with a faint smile, though he could sense the resolve behind her words. Despite the tension between them, her invitation felt like an olive branch, and he wasn’t about to refuse it.

    They entered the library, its warm, golden glow from the hearth instantly softening the room’s edges. Cullen’s gaze shifted to the firelight dancing along the shelves of books before landing on the small figure seated on the rug. Emma sat cross-legged, her tiny hands flipping through the pages of a picture book, her soft giggles filling the space.

    Ariana’s expression softened as she noticed the child, and Cullen felt his own tension begin to ease. “Ah, I see you’ve found the library,” Ariana said, her tone lighter now. “Perfect. Isabel, would you mind grabbing a bottle of wine for us?”

    Isabel turned, arching a brow at the request before giving a small, knowing smile. “Of course, my lady. Let me take Emma back to the kitchen with me.”

    Ariana stopped her with a gentle hand. “No need. She’s happy here, and we’ll watch her while you finish up.”

    Isabel hesitated, her gaze flicking between them before settling on Ariana. “If you’re sure,” she said, her voice carrying a quiet fondness. “But no climbing the furniture. She has no fear, much like someone else I raised.”

    Cullen chuckled softly, earning a playful glare from Ariana. “Understood. She’ll stay firmly on the ground—or my lap,” she promised, lifting Emma into her arms as she settled into an armchair. Emma giggled, her small hands reaching for the book again, and Cullen found himself smiling despite the heaviness still lingering in his mind.

    Cullen watched as Ariana scooped Emma into her arms, settling into an armchair by the fire. The sight of her holding the little girl, her posture relaxed and her smile gentle, sent a warmth spreading through him. It was a side of Ariana he rarely saw—unburdened, natural, at ease—and it stirred something deep within him.

    “Are you just going to stand there, or are you going to join us?” Ariana asked, her teasing tone drawing his attention.

    He chuckled, shaking his head as he moved to sit in the chair beside hers. “I suppose I’ll join you, though I’m not sure I’ll be much competition for her,” he said, nodding toward Emma, who was babbling happily as she pointed to the book’s illustrations.

    The warmth of the fire and the simplicity of the moment began to chip away at Cullen’s earlier frustration. As they sat there, the tension from dinner slowly dissipated, replaced by an unspoken understanding. He found himself watching Emma’s tiny fingers trace the pages, her giggles blending seamlessly with the crackling fire.

    When Isabel returned with the wine and glasses, Cullen accepted them with a nod, noticing the way she looked at Ariana—a quiet pride in her eyes. He couldn’t help but feel the same. Despite the hardships she had faced, Ariana had built a life here, one that extended beyond herself to include Isabel, Emma, and perhaps even him.

    “Thank you for staying,” Ariana said softly, her gaze meeting his.

    “Always,” he replied, the weight of the word settling between them. He meant it—more than she probably realized.

    As the minutes passed, Cullen found his eyes drawn back to Emma. She was so small, her laughter so innocent, and yet she carried the weight of a story he didn’t fully understand. His curiosity grew, his protective instincts sharpening as he remembered the tightness in Ariana’s voice when she had mentioned her brother.

    “Is she… Isabel’s daughter?” he asked, his voice careful.

    Ariana nodded, her hand brushing lightly over Emma’s hair. “Yes,” she said softly. “And my niece.”

    Her answer gave him pause. He studied her face, searching for the emotions beneath her steady exterior. There was a tension in her shoulders, a heaviness in her gaze as she looked down at Emma. Slowly, pieces of their earlier conversations began to click together in his mind.

    “You said there was something you needed to be sure of,” he said gently. “Something about your brother.”

    Ariana’s lips pressed into a thin line, her gaze fixed on Emma as she spoke. “This… was it,” she admitted, her voice quiet but laced with frustration. “Mark… being the entitled bastard that he is, is her father.”

    Cullen’s chest tightened at her words. He didn’t need to ask for details—the bitterness in her tone, the tightness in her expression, told him enough. His jaw clenched, anger flaring briefly at the thought of her brother’s actions. But more than that, he felt a surge of protectiveness, not just for Ariana, but for Emma and Isabel as well. The thought of anyone hurting them was unbearable.

    “Ari…” he began, his voice soft, unsure of what to say.

    “I know what you’re thinking,” she interrupted, finally looking up at him. Her hazel-green eyes held a mix of defiance and vulnerability. “And no, you don’t need to say anything. Isabel has made it clear that Emma will never know him, and my father made sure she’s safe here. That’s all that matters.”

    He nodded, though the weight of her words lingered. She was strong—stronger than anyone he had ever known—but even the strongest carried scars. And he couldn’t help but wonder how deeply hers ran.

    “If there’s anything you need,” he said after a moment, his voice steady, “anything at all, you only have to ask.”

    Ariana’s lips twitched into a small, wry smile. “Can you send Templars to drag him to the Gallows?” she quipped, her tone light but edged with a lingering bitterness.

    Cullen’s brow arched slightly, a glint of steel in his eyes. “If that’s your wish,” he replied evenly, “I’ll see it done.”

    She laughed softly, shaking her head. “No, I think Isabel and I have it handled,” she said, her tone lighter now, though a flicker of gratitude lingered in her gaze.

    Almost as if on cue, Emma’s attention shifted to the Halla pendant hanging around Cullen’s neck. Her tiny hands reached out, her gurgles of curiosity drawing his focus, her curiosity bringing a soft smile to his face. He gently lifted her from Ariana’s lap, holding her carefully as she examined it. “She has good taste,” he said, glancing at Ariana, whose eyes lingered on him with a quiet fondness.

    For a moment, Cullen let himself imagine a different life—a life where scenes like this weren’t so fleeting. He wondered what it might be like to have a family of his own, to share in moments of simple joy and quiet togetherness. The thought of Ariana as the mother of his children surfaced unbidden, and he quickly pushed it aside, chastising himself. It was far too soon to entertain such notions, and yet the warmth of the thought lingered.

    When his eyes met Ariana’s, he saw something in her expression—something tender and knowing that made his heart race. It was as if she, too, had entertained a similar thought, though neither of them dared to voice it.

    “Seems like she’s a good judge of character,” Cullen said softly, his words meant for Emma but carrying a deeper weight as his gaze remained on Ariana.

    As Emma babbled and pointed to the pendant hanging around his neck, Cullen’s thoughts drifted. The Halla pendant was a reminder of the life Ariana had lived before coming to Kirkwall, of the burdens she carried. He felt a deep protectiveness, not just for her but for Isabel and Emma as well. He thought of her earlier words about her brother, Mark, and the pain hidden beneath them. Learning that Emma’s father was a man who had hurt her only deepened Cullen’s resolve. Ariana might not ask for help, but he would offer it all the same.

    She laughed lightly, her cheeks tinged with warmth. “She is, though I think it’s just the pendant,” she teased, her smile softening as she watched Emma’s tiny fingers tug at the charm.

    Isabel returned then, her gaze sweeping over the scene with quiet approval. She placed a hand on Ariana’s shoulder, giving it a gentle squeeze as she said, “You two make quite the pair. And Emma clearly approves.”

    Cullen’s heart swelled at the words, a mixture of pride and longing settling in his chest. For now, this was enough—a quiet moment, a shared smile, and the unspoken promise of something more.

  • Chapter 21 – The Whole Truth

    11 – 15 Firstfall 9:33

    A couple of nights later, Cullen was summoned to the Trevelyan estate. Though the note had been simple and polite, he couldn’t shake the faint unease that had lingered since he read it. Charles’s request seemed innocuous enough, but Cullen’s mind churned with possibilities. Perhaps this was just an invitation for dinner, he reasoned. Yet as he approached the grand estate, he found his thoughts drifting back to Ariana, to the way she smiled when she spoke of her father, to the quiet strength that seemed to run in her family. Would Charles approve of him? Would he see a simple Templar as someone unworthy of his daughter?

    By the time Isabel led him into the library, Cullen had managed to steel himself—mostly. Still, the room’s quiet atmosphere and Charles’s composed demeanor as he turned to greet him did little to settle his nerves.

    “Ah, Knight-Captain, thank you for coming,” Charles said, his voice friendly yet carrying an undertone of seriousness that made Cullen straighten instinctively.

    “Of course, my lord,” Cullen replied, his tone guarded as his gaze flickered briefly around the room. Ariana wasn’t here. That detail alone made his heart sink slightly. He had half-expected her presence to soften whatever this meeting was meant to be, but the absence only heightened his worry. Some part of him had anticipated this—the moment a noble father would look him over and find him lacking.

    “My daughter seems quite taken with you,” Charles began, his words carefully measured. Cullen stood at attention, his hands clasped behind his back as Charles continued. “I’m aware you met her in Ferelden before the Blight. I imagine you’ve never experienced what being involved with a noble family might entail.”

    Cullen’s jaw tightened ever so slightly. The statement wasn’t entirely inaccurate, but it grated against his pride nonetheless. “Not directly, my lord,” he replied, keeping his words neutral and concise.

    “Please, just Charles is fine,” the older man said, his tone taking on a more reassuring note. “You’ve likely noticed that every noble is afforded their dalliances, but we do our best to keep such matters quiet—shadows and whispers, nothing more. However, if the rumors circulating Kirkwall are anything to go by…” His gaze flicked to Cullen, his smirk faint but pointed. “Your relationship with my daughter appears to be far more public. And, if I may say, rather vividly imagined.”

    Cullen felt his breath hitch for a moment, a mix of emotions stirring within him. That Charles was aware of the rumors was one thing. That he’d grouped what Cullen shared with Ariana among “dalliances” was another entirely. Cullen’s hands tightened at his sides, but he forced himself to stay composed. Still, his voice carried an edge when he responded.

    “Tell me, Knight-Captain,” Charles continued, leaning forward slightly, “what are your intentions with my daughter?”

    The question hung in the air, more curious than accusatory, yet it bore a weight Cullen couldn’t ignore. He held Charles’s gaze for a long moment before answering, his voice steady but filled with conviction.

    “She is no dalliance, Charles,” Cullen said firmly. “Ariana deserves more than I can ever give her—I know that. But I will give her everything I have, for as long as I am able. I will stand with her against anything and anyone who would threaten her, her freedom, or her happiness.”

    Charles regarded him silently for a moment, his expression unreadable. Then, slowly, he smiled—a genuine, warm expression that took Cullen slightly by surprise.

    “Well said,” Charles remarked, rising from his chair with a satisfied air. He picked up a folded letter from the desk and extended it to Cullen. “Then you have my blessing. I’ll be content knowing she has someone like you by her side.”

    Cullen stared at him, momentarily stunned, before reaching out to take the letter. Charles placed a hand on his shoulder, his grip firm but not heavy. “Goodnight, Knight-Captain,” he said simply before making his way out of the library, leaving Cullen alone.

    For a moment, Cullen remained where he was, the weight of the letter in his hand grounding him as his emotions churned. Relief, gratitude, and a faint sense of disbelief swirled within him. Slowly, he unfolded the letter, his breath catching as he recognized Ariana’s handwriting:

    Father,

    I’m sorry. Please don’t be disappointed. I couldn’t bear it, but I also can’t bear to remain here.

    I don’t yet know where I belong, but I know it’s not as Frederick’s wife, as the next Duchess of Markham.

    I know life isn’t a fairy tale, but I think that there’s still more to it than this. I need to find the adventure that I know is somewhere out there waiting for me. With any luck, maybe I’ll even find my knight in shining armor who will come to my rescue when I need him…

    You have always supported me in the past, and I’m sorry I have to do this, but I know you can’t support me this time even if you were willing.

    I hope you can forgive me, Father.

    I love you. 

    Ariana

    Cullen’s lips curved into a soft smile as he read the words, his chest tightening at the line that stood out above all the rest: “Maybe I’ll even find my knight in shining armor who will come to my rescue when I need him…”

    He let out a quiet chuckle, shaking his head as a wave of warmth spread through him. Her knight in shining armor… The thought was almost too much to believe, yet here he was. Whatever twists of fate had brought them together, he would ensure that nothing—not rumors, not titles, not the expectations of others—would ever take her from him again.

    Still holding the letter, Cullen leaned back in his chair, a quiet resolve settling over him. He would defend her against anything and anyone. Because she wasn’t just anyone. She was his, and he would be hers for as long as she allowed it.

    ~~~

    The rest of the week passed quietly, with Ariana splitting her time between her father, Cullen, and the familiar comfort of the Hanged Man.

    Much of her time at the estate was spent alongside Isabel and Charles, assessing the state of the house. They worked to determine which furniture needed replacing, organizing cleaning efforts, and ensuring the house was properly stocked. Ariana had one specific request that she made clear to both her father and Isabel: “Please, hire as many of the staff as you can from the Alienage. Elves aren’t treated well in Kirkwall, and… we can’t fix that for everyone, but…” Her voice trailed off, the weight of her words lingering in the air.

    Charles smiled, pride evident in his eyes as he nodded in agreement. “Of course, my dear. It’s a fine idea.”

    Isabel, already jotting down a list of tasks, gave a supportive nod. “We’ve enough room in the servants’ quarters to make that work easily.”

    Ariana felt a sense of relief, knowing her home could provide even a small haven in a city as harsh as Kirkwall.

    When her father’s time in the city came to an end, Ariana found it harder than she expected to see him go. She thanked him profusely for everything he had done, but guilt lingered in her voice as she apologized again for the rift her departure had caused with her mother.

    Charles, however, shook his head, placing a reassuring hand on her shoulder. “Ariana, that rift was there long before you ever left. Your mother and I… we’ve always seen the world differently. You bear no blame for that.”

    His words were comforting, though she couldn’t entirely quiet her lingering guilt.

    Cullen had started visiting the estate whenever his duties allowed, and Ariana found herself looking forward to those moments more and more each time. She had the courtyard arranged with comfortable seating, transforming it into an ideal place for their stargazing escapades. No more moonlit trysts in Hightown, she teased herself. The thought made her smile. It was a subtle way of creating a space for them, one that felt uniquely theirs.

    Despite everything seeming to fall into place, Ariana couldn’t shake a growing unease. It had been over a month since she’d left Ferelden, and she was honestly surprised Riley hadn’t sent a search party after her. She knew she’d need to return soon, at least temporarily, but the thought of explaining her absence weighed heavily on her.

    No one but Varric knew about the Silver Rangers. How would she explain such an extended disappearance, especially to Cullen? He had made his thoughts on mercenaries clear that first night. Yet the idea of keeping such a secret from him felt wrong, but the risk of revealing it loomed large in her mind. What if he changed his mind about her, what if he couldn’t respect her for who she was now.

    Maybe… I need to find out how he’d feel about it, without revealing too much just yet, she thought, considering her next steps carefully. Then I can decide what to do.

    ~~~

    After her father left, the estate felt quieter, heavier somehow, even with Isabel and Emma filling the space. That night, after Isabel prepared dinner, Ariana asked her to sit with her. She couldn’t keep carrying everything alone. If Isabel was managing her life in so many other ways, it only made sense to confide in her. And not just about the logistics of running the estate—about everything. Ariana needed someone to know, someone to share the weight of her past, the truth about the blight, Krieger… all of it.

    As happy as she often felt now—here, with friends, with Cullen—the darkness still lingered. The nightmares were unrelenting. She needed someone to see her fully and not turn away.

    “Isabel…” Ariana began, her voice soft, trailing off as she watched Isabel holding Emma on her lap, gently brushing the little girl’s hair. The sight was grounding, comforting, yet it made her own hesitation even harder to push past. “I… can I trust you?”

    Isabel’s brow furrowed slightly as she looked up, her kind eyes meeting Ariana’s. “Of course,” she said simply, but her tone carried an undercurrent of concern. She set Emma on her feet with a small kiss on the head and motioned for her to fetch her doll from the corner.

    Ariana hesitated, her hands fidgeting in her lap. “Do you… work for me, or my father?” she asked softly. There was no accusation in her tone, only an earnest need to know where Isabel’s ultimate loyalty lay. She wouldn’t blame her if it was with Charles—he was the one who brought her here, after all.

    Isabel tilted her head, a knowing smile forming on her lips. She reached across the table to gently place her hand over Ariana’s. “My loyalty is first and foremost to you, my Lady. Always.” Her voice was steady and warm, filled with maternal affection. “To you, my child.”

    Ariana’s lip quivered slightly, the tension she’d been holding in her shoulders easing at Isabel’s reassurance. “I need someone to know… everything,” she admitted, her voice breaking slightly on the last word. “Someone who understands the whole story. I—I can’t keep it all inside anymore.”

    Isabel’s gaze softened, and she squeezed Ariana’s hand, her own resolve clear. She could see how much Ariana had been carrying. “Then you’ll tell me, my lady,” she said gently. “But not tonight on an empty stomach. Finish your dinner. I’ll make you some tea—and perhaps fetch a bottle of wine from the cellar.” Her voice had a calming rhythm, her practical nature shining through as she rose to her feet, Emma now dozing against her shoulder.

    Isabel’s touch was light as she passed Ariana, her presence so steady that Ariana already felt a small weight lift, knowing she wouldn’t have to do this alone anymore. As she watched Isabel leave to tuck Emma into bed, Ariana allowed herself a breath she hadn’t realized she’d been holding.

    This was right. Isabel had been there at the start, helping her escape when no one else would have dared. If anyone could handle the full truth of who she had become—and who she used to be—it was Isabel. She wouldn’t judge, wouldn’t pity. She would understand.

    ~~~

    Isabel wasn’t gone long. When she returned, she carried two bottles of wine and a pair of glasses. She moved with a calm deliberation, placing the glasses on the table and pouring a glass for Ariana first before filling her own. Her presence alone was steadying, grounding in a way Ariana hadn’t realized she needed.

    “Now, my child,” Isabel said softly, sitting beside her and covering Ariana’s hand with her own. “Why don’t you start from the beginning? What happened when you left the manor?”

    Her tone was gentle, free of judgment, but her words made it clear—she wanted to know everything. Ariana smiled faintly, despite the heaviness of the conversation she was about to have. She felt a flicker of relief knowing someone finally wanted to understand.

    Taking a slow sip of wine, Ariana began. She detailed her first steps away from the manor—the naive realization that leaving on foot wouldn’t get her far, and the desperate decision to board the first boat she could find. She spoke of finding Berthold and how pure luck had brought her to him. His ship had been her salvation in more ways than one.

    Isabel listened intently, her only interruptions coming as slight nods or a squeeze of Ariana’s hand. Her attention never wavered, her eyes focused entirely on Ariana as she unfolded her story.

    Ariana continued, recounting her arrival in Kirkwall and meeting Varric. She described the months spent learning from him, unraveling the tangled web of his dealings and the intricacies of his spy network. When she reached the part about seeing her father in Kirkwall and his urging her to run further, she hesitated, unsure if Isabel already knew.

    Isabel nodded knowingly. “Your father told me.” She said. “When he came back to Ostwick, I could see how torn he was, but he was certain it was the best choice for you.”

    Encouraged by Isabel’s understanding, Ariana pressed on, describing her flight to Ferelden. Her voice softened as she spoke of meeting Cullen, her words growing lighter as she recounted the night at the Spoiled Princess. Isabel laughed at the awkward charm of their first conversation, clearly amused.

    “Seems like a good man, that one,” Isabel said when Ariana mentioned Cullen helping her escape her brother. “And it sounds like he’s cared for you for a very long time.”

    Ariana’s face softened, a rare, unguarded smile touching her lips. “And I for him…”

    Eventually, the story turned darker again. She spoke of the letter from Varric about the Blight, how she and Cullen had tried to warn people. She described the chaos in the aftermath of the Battle of Ostagar and how it marked the beginning of the end for them—for that version of them, at least. Barely a month later, they were separated, and she lost him.

    Her voice faltered as she described the months she spent running, alone, trying to stay a step ahead of the Blight and the darkspawn while still searching for Cullen. The tension in her words grew, and Isabel could see the weight of those months pressing down on her even now.

    Finally, Ariana paused, her grip tightening around her wine glass. “I was cornered,” she said, her voice quieter, her gaze distant. “I was certain it was the end. I’d been fighting for hours, endless waves of darkspawn, and I was so exhausted. Then suddenly, a group of warriors charged in… They saved my life.” Her lips pressed into a thin line. “It was the Crimson Blades.”

    At first, the words seemed a relief—salvation in the form of a mercenary company. But Isabel didn’t miss the hesitation, the way Ariana’s tone shifted. It was subtle, but unmistakable. Whatever had happened with the Crimson Blades was not the blessing it initially appeared to be.

    Isabel leaned forward slightly, her hand still resting over Ariana’s, steady and encouraging. She didn’t push, waiting for Ariana to find the words. But in her heart, she knew—this was where Ariana’s story would take a much darker turn, darker than even the Blight.

    ~~~

    Ariana took another sip of wine before setting the glass down, her fingers tracing its rim absentmindedly. “I traveled with them for a little over a year. It seemed like the smart thing to do,” she began, her voice measured but distant. “They weren’t a large company—about forty of them, including… Krieger… their leader.” Her words faltered, the name catching in her throat. Isabel’s hand tightened around hers, sensing the storm beneath her calm facade.

    She went on to explain how Krieger had an unprecendented mastery with blades. How his motions were so effortless and fluid. She spoke about him with a quiet yet hesitant admiration. She spoke of how Krieger had believed in her, believed that she could be more than she was. That with the right training she would become unstoppable. She spoked of how she wouldn’t have survived or become who she is today without him.

    “Not many people know what I’m about to tell you. At least not many still around.” Ariana’s gaze fell to the wine in her glass, her eyes hollowing as though she could see the memories swirling in its depths. She paused, taking a deep breath, her lips pressing into a thin line as if she needed to force the words free.

    Isabel didn’t rush her. She sat still, her hand unwavering, but her own heart began to race. Whatever Ariana was about to reveal was something Isabel knew she had carried alone for far too long.

    Slowly, Ariana began to recount the story. She spoke of how it started, the insidious way Krieger’s manipulations had crept into her life. The way his obsession slowly manifested itself until it finally snapped. She described what it felt like to endure it, the suffocating powerlessness, the helplessness that had once made her believe she’d never escape. Her words were clinical, dispassionate, almost detached, as though she were narrating someone else’s story. But Isabel could feel the weight behind each word, the pain Ariana refused to let herself feel. When she mentioned Riley and the others—how, without their intervention, she wasn’t sure she’d be here—her voice cracked for the first time, though she swallowed it down quickly.

    Isabel’s hand flew to her mouth, unable to stifle the sobs that threatened to spill. Her eyes shimmered with unshed tears, the anguish of hearing such a story from someone she cared for so deeply slicing through her. She felt an angry, helpless rage simmering beneath her grief, but she didn’t interrupt, letting Ariana continue.

    Ariana kept her eyes fixed on the glass in front of her, her voice bitter and distant. “He didn’t leave significant marks. No significant scars.” Her hand brushed over her forearm as though tracing invisible wounds. “He knew exactly how to make it hurt without showing a single sign.”

    Isabel rose abruptly, her body trembling with the effort to contain her emotions. She couldn’t stay seated—couldn’t sit idle after hearing what she had. Her voice was cold, sharp as a blade. “Is he dead?”

    Ariana’s lips twisted into a grim smile. “I didn’t kill him myself,” she said, her tone carrying a dark satisfaction. “But I did leave him crippled. Figured I’d let the darkspawn or anything else do the rest. I hope he suffered.” The edge in her voice made it clear she meant every word.

    For a moment, Isabel couldn’t speak. She turned away, taking a deep breath before looking back at Ariana. She walked back to the table and knelt beside Ariana, pulling her into an embrace.

    Ariana stiffened at first, unused to such vulnerability, but Isabel didn’t let go. “You’ve been holding this in for too long, my child,” she murmured, stroking her hair gently. “You don’t have to carry this alone anymore.”

    Ariana remained silent, her head resting against Isabel’s shoulder. The warmth of Isabel’s embrace and the quiet understanding in her words began to chip away at the wall Ariana had built around her pain. For the first time in years, she allowed herself to relax, to lean into the care of someone else. She didn’t cry, not yet, but Isabel knew it was only a matter of time. Ariana’s armor had finally begun to crack.

    ~~~

    Ariana wasn’t sure how long she sat there, letting Isabel’s arms encircle her in quiet comfort. She understood what Isabel meant, what she was gently urging her toward. But Ariana knew there would be no tears for this—not now, not ever. In her mind, crying over what Krieger had done would mean giving him power over her, a victory she refused to allow.

    As Isabel slowly released her, Ariana exhaled softly, straightening in her seat. “I’m sorry, Isabel,” she said, her voice steady but tinged with guilt. “I’m sorry you have to carry this with me. But don’t feel sorry for me. I made my mistakes, and I own them.”

    Isabel’s heart ached at her words, a sorrow she wished Ariana would let herself share. “You should never have had to pay that price, my child. None of this was your fault—it was the fault of a madman.”

    Ariana motioned for Isabel to return to her seat at the table, determination flickering in her hazel-green eyes. “Come. Sit,” she urged. “It’s time to finish the story.”

    She offered Isabel a faint smile as they settled back into their chairs. “I promise, that’s the worst of it. After that point…” Ariana hesitated, her smile firming with resolve. “I haven’t regretted a thing.”

    She began detailing how the fifteen who left with her that night became the foundation of the Silver Rangers, a company born from necessity but forged with purpose. Ariana’s voice grew lighter as she recounted their growth, their victories, and their mission to do good in a world so often weighed down by darkness. How they began helping Ferelden rebuild. They might be mercenaries by definition, but she was proud of what they had built—of the hope they carried with them wherever they went.

    When Ariana explained the origins of the “White Wolf” moniker, Isabel’s eyes lit with amusement. The story, equal parts accidental and endearing, brought the first genuine smile to her face since the night began.

    Isabel leaned back in her chair, shaking her head with a warm laugh. “Riley’s right about you—you are a softie.”

    Ariana shrugged, her lips curling in a mischievous grin. “It made that boy happy,” she said, her tone light but fond. “That’s all that mattered.”

    As the tale neared its conclusion, Isabel’s curiosity deepened. She leaned forward, her questions flowing naturally. “And the Rangers—how do you keep it all running? The funding, the contracts? You’re here in Kirkwall now—how do you manage everything?”

    Ariana tilted her head, her hazel-green eyes narrowing with a meaningful glance that said more than words could. It didn’t take Isabel long to piece it together.

    “Oh,” Isabel said, realization dawning in her expression. She paused, thinking through the implications of what Ariana’s subtle request might mean. “I see.”

    “I can’t stay in Kirkwall permanently,” Ariana admitted, her voice softening with regret. “I’ll need to travel between Ferelden, Kirkwall, and Orlais more often now. Riley is good—great, even—at managing the tactical side of things. She’s a brilliant leader in the field. But contracts? Finances? The day-to-day operation?” Ariana shook her head. “That’s not her. And she shouldn’t have to carry that burden.”

    Isabel chuckled, the sound light and reassuring. For the first time that evening, the weight in the air seemed to lift. “Very well,” she said, her tone practical but warm. “Get some rest tonight. In the morning, we’ll go over everything. You’ll tell me exactly what I need to know to help.”

    Standing, Isabel reached over to give Ariana’s hand a firm squeeze before bending to kiss her forehead, an unmistakably maternal gesture. “Goodnight, my child.”

    Ariana smiled up at her, the warmth of the moment settling into her chest. She finally felt as though she could feel her past and her present were coming back together. As if both sides of her could maybe become one now.

  • Chapter 20 – A New Freedom

    9 Firstfall 9:33

    Ariana’s gaze wandered, distant as they walked the docks that morning, her thoughts lost in the events of the previous day. The feel of Cullen’s arms around her, the warmth of his touch, and the kiss—Maker, the kisses—played on a loop in her mind. She had always known she cared for him deeply, even from the earliest days they had spent together. There had always been something unspoken between them, something more than friendship, even if she hadn’t known how to name it back then.

    “So… we’re still going with ‘just friends,’ then?” Varric’s teasing tone broke through her reverie.

    Ariana turned, giving him a mock glare, though a smile tugged at her lips. “We’re going with… we’re just us, whatever that is.” Her voice softened as her thoughts drifted again, her smile fading into something more thoughtful.

    Varric chuckled, shaking his head. “I’d tell you this is trouble, but…” He sighed, his expression softening. “The person he is with you isn’t the same Knight-Captain I’ve seen or heard about the past few years. Not that I’d admit that to anyone, mind you.”

    Ariana’s smile brightened as she placed a hand on his shoulder. “Thanks, Varric.”

    Before he could respond, a familiar voice interrupted, one that made her heart leap. “Ari!”

    She turned to find Cullen striding toward her, a smile breaking across his face. She couldn’t help but smile back, her thoughts scattering as he approached. “Cullen? What are you doing here? I didn’t think I’d see you today.”

    As he reached her, Cullen wrapped his arms around her and lifted her off her feet. “I needed to check on something,” he said, his voice warm and steady. “But then I saw you.” Ariana returned the embrace, her arms looping around his neck as her heart swelled.

    “You know… I’m pretty sure most of Lowtown and the docks can see us right now,” she said, her tone amused but tinged with embarrassment.

    “I don’t care,” he replied simply, pulling her closer before pressing a kiss to her lips.

    Varric sighed dramatically from a few paces away, shaking his head like a father who didn’t need to see his daughter’s love life unfold in front of him—but the small, fond smile tugging at his lips betrayed his true feelings.

    “Ariana! What is the meaning of this?” The sharp, angry voice cut through the moment, freezing them both mid-embrace.

    “Maker… not again,” Ariana muttered under her breath as Cullen lowered her to the ground but kept one arm protectively around her.

    Turning, Ariana found her mother, Lady Elara Trevelyan, storming toward them, flanked by the same guards who had escorted her the day before. Her expression was a storm of fury, though Ariana could see cracks of frustration and desperation beneath it.

    “Mother,” Ariana said flatly, her voice exasperated but steady. “I assume you’re leaving for Ostwick?”

    Elara’s gaze flickered to Cullen, and her expression soured further. “What is the meaning of this? It’s disgraceful for you to associate with such… commoners.”

    Ariana couldn’t help but laugh at Varric’s whispered, “Oh, this should end well.”

    Shaking her head, Ariana turned back to her mother. “Well, mother, I was raised by a ‘commoner’ as you would say” she began, her tone calm but edged with unyielding defiance. “We both know Isabel was more of a mother to me than you ever were, so maybe we don’t see things the same way.” Ariana’s tone hardened. “Also, did you forget you’re a Trevelyan mother? You know, the same Trevelyans that take their ties to the Chantry very seriously. I’m not sure father would approve of you treating the Knight-Captain of Kirkwall with such disrespect.”

    Cullen stiffened slightly at the mention, but he didn’t interrupt. Instead, he tightened his arm around Ariana’s waist, silently supporting her.

    Elara’s expression twisted with fury, but before she could retort, Ariana raised her hand to silence her. “I’m not done. Do you even care that I’m alive for any reason other than to make Duchess Evelyn feel better? Do you even want to know what it was like to survive the Blight… alone?”

    Elara faltered, her defiant mask cracking for the first time, but she didn’t concede. “You are a child,” she said coldly, “and you don’t understand the burden of responsibility.”

    Ariana scoffed, her voice low and laced with pain. “I wish I could understand why you cared for me the least out of all your children. Was I just a trophy to trade away? Would you have been happier if I had been the one to manifest magic—if I could have been sent away?”

    Before Elara could respond, Ariana motioned to the guards. “Escort her to the docks. I’m done with this conversation.”

    Turning fully into Cullen, she laid her head against his chest, his hand moving instinctively to cradle the back of her head. “Are you alright?” he asked softly, his voice steady and full of concern.

    Ariana took a deep breath, pulling away just enough to meet his eyes. “I will be,” she said with a faint smile.

    She glanced at Varric, offering a weak shrug. “It’s not really news that my mother has never cared for me. I just… I guess I thought she cared enough to want me alive.”

    Varric’s expression softened. “I’m sorry, pup.”

    Cullen leaned down, pressing a kiss to her forehead. “I’m here if you need me.”

    Ariana waved a dismissive hand, forcing a brighter smile. “Really, both of you. I’m fine,” she insisted. Looking up at Cullen, she added, “Go. I’m sure you have duties to attend to. I’m going to see my father.”

    “Are you sure?” Cullen asked, his hand lingering in hers.

    She nodded, her smile growing more genuine. “I’ll see you later.”

    He stepped back slowly, his fingers brushing hers one last time before he turned toward the Gallows.

    Varric tilted his head, watching her carefully. “You sure you’re alright, Pup?” he asked, his fatherly tone unmistakable.

    Ariana sighed, her voice quieter now. “I am. She never really was much of a mother to me. Isabel was.” Her eyes glistened briefly with unshed tears, which she quickly blinked away. “I wish I could see her now. I miss her.”

    Varric, sensing her need for distraction, clapped his hands together. “Well then, let’s get this over with. Information doesn’t pick itself up, you know.”

    Ariana laughed softly, grateful for his timing. “Let’s go.”

    ~~~

    After finishing her rounds with Varric, Ariana made her way to Hightown, her thoughts swirling with the events of the past two days. Cullen’s steadfast presence at her side, standing between her and her mother’s hired mercenaries, had been a calming force in a storm she hadn’t realized was still raging. Though she knew she could have handled the situation herself, it had been a relief not to, to feel for once like someone was standing with her rather than against her.

    And then there was her father—the man she had grown up seeing as reserved and composed, suddenly blending seamlessly into the Hanged Man’s rough-and-tumble charm. The memory of his banter with Isabela and Hawke brought a small smile to her face as curiosity bubbled up unbidden. She had so many questions now, questions she’d never thought to ask before. Perhaps he wasn’t as simple as she had always thought.

    When she reached the Trevelyan estate, she paused briefly at the door, taking in the sight of the stately yet modest building. Unlike her previous visit, she didn’t sneak through servant passages or keep to the shadows. Today, she walked through the front door, her steps confident.

    The air inside felt different—lighter, perhaps, or maybe it was just her. The sunlight streaming through the windows gave the house an unfamiliar warmth, a far cry from the tension-filled halls she had once crept through. She followed the faint sound of voices to the kitchen, where she found her father seated at the table, a cup of tea in his hands.

    But he wasn’t alone.

    At the sound of her footsteps, both heads turned toward her. Ariana froze, her heart leaping as she recognized the familiar figure sitting across from her father. Her breath caught in her throat, tears springing to her eyes before she could stop them.

    “Isabel?” she whispered, her voice trembling with emotion as a smile broke across her face.

    Isabel’s face lit up, and in an instant, she was on her feet, crossing the room to pull Ariana into a warm embrace. “Oh, my dear girl!” Isabel exclaimed, her voice thick with emotion. “It’s good to see you safe and sound. I knew you had to be alive—I prayed for you every day.”

    Ariana clung to her, the tears she had been holding back finally spilling over. “Maker, I’ve missed you,” she managed, her voice breaking. “I’m so sorry I worried you…”

    “Shhh, my child,” Isabel murmured, holding her close. “You have nothing to be sorry for.” She pulled back just enough to cradle Ariana’s face in her hands, wiping away her tears with gentle fingers. “I’m just so happy to see you safe, my dear. That’s all that matters.”

    Watching the exchange, Charles rose from his seat, his brow furrowing as he took in Ariana’s expression. Though she looked relieved, he could see the deeper pain lingering just beneath the surface.

    “My darling, whatever is the matter?” he asked softly, his voice full of concern.

    Isabel gave Ariana’s shoulders a reassuring squeeze before stepping aside, allowing her to turn toward her father. Without hesitation, Ariana wrapped her arms around him, burying her face against his chest as if seeking refuge.

    “I was at the docks when Mother was leaving…” Ariana began, her voice unsteady. “I always knew she didn’t care much for me, but…” She hesitated, her voice breaking slightly. “She doesn’t even care that I’m alive. Was she ever truly concerned, or was I just an embarrassment to her?”

    Charles let out a heavy sigh, holding her tightly as he rested his chin against the top of her head. “Oh, my darling girl,” he said, his voice low and soothing. “In truth, I believe your mother was concerned. I think she may even care for you. But…” He paused, searching for the right words. “I don’t know if she knows how to be your mother.”

    Ariana pulled back slightly, looking up at him, her brows furrowed in confusion. “What do you mean?” she asked, her voice quiet.

    Charles cupped her cheek gently, his expression filled with a mix of sorrow and understanding. “Your mother has always been so focused on responsibility and decorum, on upholding the image of the Trevelyan name, that I fear she has forgotten how to show her love. She… she has buried herself in duty for so long that I think she doesn’t know how to let herself feel, let alone express it.”

    Ariana’s eyes glistened, her heart aching at his words. She wanted to be angry, to hold on to the resentment that had fueled her for so long. But now, hearing this, all she felt was a deep sadness—for her mother, for herself, for the relationship they would never have.

    Isabel, sensing the moment’s heaviness, stepped forward and rested a comforting hand on Ariana’s arm. “Come now, my dear,” she said gently. “Why don’t you sit down? I’ll make you some tea and fetch some fresh hearth cakes.”

    Ariana managed a small smile, nodding as Isabel guided her to the table. Charles sat beside her, his hand resting lightly on hers as Isabel busied herself preparing the tea. The familiar sounds of the kitchen—the clink of dishes, the hiss of the kettle—were soothing, grounding her in the present.

    When Isabel returned, she placed a steaming cup of tea and a plate of golden hearth cakes in front of Ariana, the scent instantly bringing back memories of simpler times. Ariana took a sip of the tea, the warmth spreading through her, and for the first time that morning, she felt a sense of calm settle over her.

    “Thank you,” she murmured, looking up at Isabel with gratitude.

    “You’re welcome, my child,” Isabel said softly, her voice filled with a love that needed no words.

    Charles reached for her hand with a warm smile, and, with Isabel bustling around the kitchen, it felt like those mornings of her childhood, only now there was something deeper—an understanding, a hard-won bond between them that only time and distance had revealed. This was the most “normal” a morning had felt in a very long time.

    ~~~

    As they ate, the conversation settled comfortably between them, the air filled with the warmth of shared laughter and familiar voices. Isabel moved about the kitchen with her usual graceful efficiency, preparing what seemed like a feast. Her father, Charles, leaned back in his chair, casting Ariana a gentle look. Away from the bustling crowd of the Hanged Man, his expression was softer, more open. After a pause, he hesitated, then ventured the question he had clearly been carrying.

    “And… the Blight, Ariana. How did you… manage to get through it all?”

    Ariana held his gaze for a moment, a slight hesitation in her own eyes before she answered. She had no intention of sharing the darker parts of her journey. Her father would never know about Krieger. That was a burden she refused to place on his shoulders, something she would carry alone. He would never forgive himself if he thought he had, even indirectly, been part of the reason for her suffering. So, she skirted around the worst parts, carefully shaping the story as she went.

    “I was lucky,” she said, offering a slight smile. “A group of mercenaries found me, and I stayed with them for nearly a year, mostly keeping to the roads and dodging darkspawn. They were… good people.”

    While Ariana told her story, Isabel watched, her perceptive gaze catching every nuance of Ariana’s tone and expression. It was her job to see the unspoken, to catch what others might miss. And she knew that Ariana was holding something back, something dark. She made a mental note to ask her someday when the moment was right, knowing that bottling up memories like that rarely ended well.

    Suddenly, a sharp, plaintive cry rang out from another room, breaking through their conversation. Ariana looked around, momentarily bewildered. She hadn’t expected anyone else here, much less…a child?

    Isabel paused, glancing over at Charles with a subtle question in her eyes. “By your leave, my lord?” she asked, her tone gentle but firm.

    Charles nodded, waving a hand in acknowledgment. “Of course,” he replied, a small smile hinting at something unspoken.

    Ariana watched Isabel disappear down the hall, eyebrows raised as she turned to her father, silently asking the question he had already anticipated.

    Charles chuckled softly. “Before you get carried away with any wild theories,” he began, his voice low and warm, “it’s Isabel’s daughter. A little girl of about two years.”

    Ariana’s eyes widened slightly, then softened. “Isabel… has a daughter?” She shook her head in mild amazement. After all these years, Isabel, the ever-reliable and devoted servant she had known since childhood, had a whole new life of her own—a daughter. She smiled, more to herself than to him, feeling an unexpected joy for her friend.

    “Yes,” her father replied with an unnerving calmness, as though he were merely discussing household matters. “Probably your niece.” He said it as a matter of fact, though his certainty left only the slightest possibility of doubt.

    Ariana choked on her tea, her mind stumbling over the implication. “What?” Her voice held a sharp edge. She knew exactly what that meant. Her oldest brother—her arrogant, entitled brother—was likely responsible, and worse still, she would probably never know if his so-called advances had been wanted.

    Charles’s gaze softened, and he spoke as though prepared for her reaction. “Isabel will be staying here in Kirkwall to manage the estate.”

    Ariana blinked, caught off guard, still processing the fact that Isabel might be family. “She…she will?”

    “She will handle anything you need,” her father continued, his tone comforting but resolute. “Manage the household, oversee any necessities, and support you however you require. She has been fully entrusted with the management of your affairs here—including financial matters. All the paperwork is complete.”

    Ariana sat there in stunned silence, struggling to fully absorb what he was saying. “The Kirkwall estate is now yours, Ariana,” he added, a smile spreading across his face. “The family will only visit if you want them to. This house is yours alone.”

    Her father’s words filled her with a quiet astonishment. She had fought so hard for this freedom, but she hadn’t expected it to come with such finality and certainty.

    “Mother will not disturb you again,” he assured her. “And the Duke and Duchess of Markham—consider that engagement dissolved. I had to call in a few favors, but it’s done. The Duke and Duchess will bother you no longer.”

    Ariana could hardly breathe, let alone speak. The magnitude of her father’s efforts left her overwhelmed with gratitude. He had given her more than just an estate; he had given her back her life, her own future.

    She finally managed to find her voice, her eyes meeting his, brimming with unspoken thanks. “Father… I don’t even know how to…thank you.”

    He reached across the table, resting his hand gently over hers. “You don’t have to. All I’ve ever wanted was for you to live freely, Ariana.” He gave her hand a reassuring squeeze, a hint of emotion filling his usually steady gaze.

    ~~~

    Ariana’s heart felt lighter as she sat across from her father at the kitchen table, the scent of tea and hearth cakes filling the warm, sunlit space. The day had started with the sting of old wounds reopened, but here, with Charles and Isabel, the pain felt distant, soothed by the love and reassurance she hadn’t realized she still craved. Her father’s steady presence grounded her, a reminder of a life she had cherished and hadn’t wanted to lose.

    Charles leaned back in his chair, his expression soft but tinged with a mischievous glint. “Actually,” he began, his tone turning playful, “there is a way you can thank me.”

    Ariana raised an eyebrow, the corners of her mouth quirking up in curiosity. “Oh?”

    “Why don’t you tell me a bit more about these… rumors I’ve been hearing?” His smirk widened slightly, and there was a teasing gleam in his eyes. “Something about a marriage proposal, perhaps?”

    Ariana groaned, letting her head drop onto the table in mock surrender. “Ugh,” she muttered. Her voice muffled against the wood, she added, “I told him kneeling was a terrible idea…”

    Charles’s laughter was warm and unrestrained. “Ah, so there was kneeling involved?” he teased, leaning forward, clearly enjoying himself. “And here I thought the rumors were exaggerating.”

    Ariana sat up abruptly, her cheeks flushed, glaring at him. “Father…” she began, exasperated, but he was already speaking again.

    “He seems like a good man,” Charles said, his tone turning reassuring. “And if the two of you found your way back to each other after all you’ve been through, then… that’s something worth holding on to.”

    His words caught her off guard, a warmth spreading through her chest. She smiled softly, the weight of his approval settling over her like a comforting blanket. Whatever this was between her and Cullen, it felt like a step toward something unspoken but undeniable, and knowing her father saw it too made it feel even more real.

    “And,” Charles added, his smirk returning, “you could do worse than marrying a Templar. A Knight-Captain at that. Probably Knight-Commander soon enough…”

    Ariana groaned again, burying her face in her hands this time. “Maker help me…”

    Charles laughed, clearly enjoying his ability to fluster her. After a moment, Ariana lifted her head, determined to change the subject. “Father… is Frederick truly still not married? Was there really an engagement to return to after all these years?”

    Charles sighed, his smile fading slightly. “There was not… mostly,” he admitted. “You’d be correct in assuming Frederick remains unmarried.” His tone held a note of resignation, though there was also a hint of concern. “I know not the content of your letter to him when you left, but whatever you told him seems to have shifted his stance. He has refused every arrangement his mother has attempted since.”

    Ariana chuckled softly, recalling the letter she’d written before fleeing Ostwick. “I simply told him he deserved to find someone who loved him, someone to share his burdens and lighten them…”

    Charles’s expression softened, a hint of pride flickering in his eyes. “Well, it seems he took your advice to heart,” he said, though his tone carried a note of caution. “Or… he’s still in love with you and hasn’t looked elsewhere.”

    Ariana blinked, startled. “You knew?”

    “Everyone knew, my dear,” Charles replied, his voice gentle but matter-of-fact. “Just as everyone knew you didn’t feel the same.”

    Ariana’s smile turned wistful, tinged with sadness. “There are times I wish I could have cared for him that way. He was my best friend.” She paused, her gaze distant. “It certainly would have made things easier for everyone…” She trailed off, her thoughts drifting to Cullen. The idea of a life without him felt unthinkable now, and she realized with certainty that whatever she’d felt for Frederick, it had never come close to the depth of what she felt for Cullen. He filled a part of her she hadn’t even known was missing.

    Charles seemed to read her thoughts, his own smile turning knowing. “But then you wouldn’t have met your Knight-Captain,” he said softly. “I know it wasn’t an easy path, Ariana, but I do believe it was yours to walk.”

    Ariana nodded, her smile growing. “Would you take a letter back to Frederick for me?” she asked tentatively. A part of her hoped there was still a friendship to rekindle.

    “Of course,” Charles said with a nod, his voice steady. “I think he’d be glad to hear from you.”

    “Come now,” Charles said, standing and offering her his arm, his tone light but tinged with affection. “Let’s go see if we left this library sufficiently stocked. And if not, what do you say to a little shopping, hmm?”

    Ariana smiled, feeling a surge of gratitude for him. “Shopping for books?” she asked, her tone mockingly reluctant. “I suppose I can endure that,” she teased, slipping her arm through his.

    “Endure it?” Charles scoffed, his eyebrow raising as they strolled toward the library. “I’ve never known you to ‘endure’ a bookstore. You practically take up residence.”

    She laughed, the weight of the morning lifting with each step. “That sounds like a dangerous invitation. You might regret this when I fill the entire estate.”

    Charles gave her an amused glance. “And why not? Fill the shelves, the walls if you like. Let’s make sure this place feels just as it should for you.”

    The thought filled her with a simple joy. “Well then, let’s make sure we have room for every story worth telling,” she said, her smile softening. “And if we don’t…”

    Charles chuckled, his eyes twinkling. “Then I say we do something about it.”

    ~~~

    Charles couldn’t help but marvel at how much his daughter had grown. Walking arm in arm with her through Hightown, he felt a mix of pride and quiet sadness. She’d faced trials he could only imagine, surviving a Blight, forging her own path, and returning to Kirkwall not as the young girl he remembered but as a woman of remarkable strength and independence. Yet, as she excitedly pointed out a small bookshop she wanted to visit, there was a lightness to her, a trace of the curious and adventurous child she’d once been.

    They spent the morning moving from one shop to another, Ariana’s enthusiasm contagious as she scanned the shelves, thumbing through worn pages and exclaiming over rare finds. Charles watched her with an indulgent smile, silently marveling at her resilience. She had faced more in her young life than most ever would, yet here she was, filled with curiosity and a renewed sense of joy. She had always been strong, he realized, but he doubted anyone—including himself—had ever truly appreciated the depth of it.

    Their aide, laden with a cart of books, trailed behind them. Charles chuckled to himself, realizing Ariana had already collected enough to fill a small library. Yet he didn’t mind. These simple moments were what he’d missed most in her absence—the ease of their conversations, the way she brightened at the smallest discoveries, the quiet bond they shared.

    As they neared the Chantry, the familiar figure of Cullen emerged from the heavy doors. Ariana’s hand tightened ever so slightly on his arm, and Charles glanced down to see the warm smile spreading across her face. It wasn’t the kind of smile she gave anyone else. It was softer, unguarded, filled with a happiness that made her glow.

    Cullen, clad in full armor that gleamed in the fading light, looked every bit the knight of noble tales. Charles noted Ariana’s expression. He could see now at least in some small part the reason this man had captured his daughter’s heart.

    “Knight-Captain,” Charles greeted him warmly as Cullen approached. “We were just on our way to Café d’Or. I’d be glad if you’d join us for dinner.”

    Cullen hesitated, glancing at Ariana as though seeking her approval. “I wouldn’t want to intrude…” he began, but Charles waved the concern away with a smile.

    “Nonsense. I insist.” His tone left no room for refusal, and Cullen nodded, his expression softening as he looked back at Ariana.

    “Then I would be honored to join you,” Cullen said, his voice steady but warm.

    Charles turned to their aide, giving a small wave of dismissal. “Please see to it that these books are taken to Isabel. She’ll know what to do with them,” he instructed.

    As they strolled down the cobblestone street, Charles kept a close eye on the interaction between Cullen and his daughter. He noted the way Cullen’s gaze lingered on Ariana when she wasn’t looking, how he seemed attuned to her every movement. It was clear to Charles that Cullen cared deeply for her—just as she did for him.

    “So… some light shopping today, then?” Cullen teased, glancing at the aide trailing behind them with a cart full of books.

    Ariana laughed, her eyes sparkling with amusement. “Just ensuring the library of my estate is properly stocked,” she said with mock seriousness, though her pride was evident.

    As they continued, something seemed to strike her, and she suddenly dashed toward the aide. “Oh, Branar, wait!” she called, rifling through the stack of books until she pulled one free. She hurried back, holding it out to Cullen with an almost childlike excitement.

    “I found this on Tevinter ruins,” she said, her words tumbling out as she flipped through the pages. “I think some of these markings match the ones near the cliffs. We have to go back and take a closer look!”

    Cullen accepted the book, his smile growing as he watched her animatedly point to various illustrations. He didn’t even glance at the pages; his focus was entirely on her. Charles noticed it too, the way Cullen’s expression softened, full of warmth and admiration. It wasn’t hard to see why the whispers had started. She’s found her knight, Charles thought with quiet satisfaction. And the night before he had witnessed Cullen standing with her. Protecting her. He couldn’t ask for anything else.

    Once they reached Café d’Or and settled at a table, Ariana launched into an enthusiastic recounting of the ruins they’d explored. She turned to her father, her eyes bright with excitement as she shared her theories, weaving connections between the Tevinter markings she’d just read about and the elven ruins Cullen had shown her near Lake Calenhad.

    Charles leaned back in his chair, a fond smile on his face as he listened. It had been years since he had been able to spend an afternoon like this with his daughter. The weight she had carried for so long seemed lighter now, and he couldn’t help but marvel at her resilience. She had endured so much—far more than he ever should have allowed—and yet here she was, stronger and happier than he’d ever imagined.

    Cullen, for his part, seemed captivated by her words, nodding thoughtfully and asking questions that encouraged her to continue. Charles noted how easily they complemented each other, their conversation flowing effortlessly. It was a comfort to him, knowing Ariana had found someone who not only supported her but celebrated her for exactly who she was.

    As the evening went on, Charles found himself at peace for the first time in years. His daughter was home, happy, and surrounded by people who truly cared for her. And though he would always carry the guilt of the years she’d been forced to fend for herself, he couldn’t help but feel a quiet pride. Ariana had not only survived—she had thrived. She was stronger than anyone had ever given her credit for, and she had found her own path, one he was proud to walk alongside her.

    ~~~

    After dinner, the three of them made their way back to the Trevelyan estate, strolling through Hightown under the soft glow of the street lanterns. Though the house loomed elegantly in the evening light, not all of it was ready to be lived in. Much of the furniture remained covered, and several rooms were still bare or in need of care, lending the grand estate an oddly incomplete feeling.

    Wishing goodnight to her father, Ariana hesitated briefly, taking in the half-prepared halls. She wasn’t quite ready to make this place her home—not yet. Turning back to Cullen, she fell into step beside him, and together they continued down toward the Docks and the Hanged Man. She still had to gather her belongings from the tavern, though part of her wondered if she would miss the comfort of its noise and simplicity.

    “So,” Cullen broke the quiet with a teasing lilt in his voice, his gaze flicking toward her as they strolled through the softly lit streets. “An estate, in Hightown?” His eyebrows raised, amusement dancing in his expression. “Care to tell me how that came to be?”

    Ariana chuckled lightly, feigning a casual shrug. “Oh, you know… my father thought I needed a place to stay.”

    Cullen tilted his head, clearly not buying her nonchalance. “Sounds more like he thought you needed a castle of your own.”

    “Castle might be pushing it,” she replied, a faint smile tugging at her lips. “It’s small compared to our manor in Ostwick. That’ll go to my idiot eldest brother as the ‘future head of the family.’” Her tone soured slightly, her annoyance slipping through as her thoughts briefly turned darker. She frowned, her mind snagging on the likelihood of what Mark might have done. No… she shouldn’t think about it now. She would need to talk to Isabel at some point, but not yet.

    “Want to tell me about it?” Cullen asked gently, his concern genuine. Seemingly noticing the way her smile faded and her steps slowed ever so slightly.

    Ariana sighed heavily, the weight of her thoughts clear in the sound. “Yes,” she admitted, though her voice was quieter now. “But not quite yet… not until I’m sure. Wouldn’t want to go starting rumors myself…” She trailed off, shaking her head as if to physically dismiss the lingering unease.

    Deciding to shift the mood, she glanced up at him with a mischievous glint in her eye, a teasing grin replacing her earlier frown. “Speaking of rumors…”

    Cullen laughed softly “Yes…?”

    “My father heard an… interesting rumor…” she said, her grin widening as she let the sentence hang in the air, her eyes searching his for a reaction.

    Cullen’s amusement flickered into something more guarded, though he chuckled “Is that so?” he asked, his voice calm but betraying a hint of hesitation

    Ariana’s smiled, noticing that despite trying to hide it she had managed to make Cullen slightly uncomfortable.

    “There was apparently a marriage proposal in the middle of Hightown yesterday…” Ariana said, her tone laced with mock indignation. Her feigned annoyance was betrayed by the faint smirk tugging at her lips, amused by how right she had been about the rumors.

    Cullen chuckled softly, shaking his head as they continued walking. “Someone is always watching,” he replied, his voice carrying a hint of resigned humor. He shrugged, the motion casual, but the smile he gave her was warm and unbothered. “Let them.”

  • Chapter 19 – A Family Reunion

    8 Firstfall 9:33

    As they neared the Hanged Man, Cullen’s thoughts lingered on the evening they’d just shared. He could still feel the warmth of her lips against his, the way her hand had fit so perfectly in his as they walked. But now, something seemed different. Ariana had grown quiet, her expression distant, as if lost in a maze of thoughts she couldn’t—or wouldn’t—voice.

    “Ari,” he said softly, his voice gentle but edged with concern. She startled, blinking up at him as though pulled from some far-off place. “You still with me?” he teased lightly, hoping to draw her back to the present.

    But before she could respond, a sharp voice cut through the noise of Lowtown like a blade. “Ariana, my dear.”

    The sound of it sent a shiver down Cullen’s spine. He felt her hand still in his, not tensing in fear but shifting slightly, her fingers loosening as though preparing for something. She turned her head, and Cullen followed her gaze to the source of the voice. A woman, tall and poised, her elegance almost foreign in the gritty streets of Lowtown, stood flanked by a handful of mercenaries. Her air of authority was unmistakable, as was the resemblance between her and Ariana.

    Cullen’s jaw tightened as he registered the look on Ariana’s face. Surprise, yes, but only for an instant. It was quickly replaced by something colder, sharper. Her eyes darted briefly to the mercenaries, then to the street behind them, and finally back to the woman. It wasn’t fear—it was calculation. Cullen realized she wasn’t just looking; she was assessing. Gauging the distance between her and the mercenaries. Calculating their movements, their potential weaknesses.

    “Mother,” Ariana said, her voice flat and cool, though there was a distinct edge to it. She stood straighter, stepping slightly in front of Cullen, not so much to shield him but to position herself in a way that gave her a clearer view of the mercenaries. Her stance was relaxed but deliberate, and Cullen couldn’t help but notice the subtle way her weight shifted onto the balls of her feet.

    Her mother smiled with a sweetness so artificial it felt like an insult. “My dear,” she said, her tone dripping with condescension, “we were so worried. Imagine my surprise when I began hearing tales of a Trevelyan running around Kirkwall. The Duke and Duchess are simply overjoyed to know their future daughter-in-law has been found.”

    Cullen felt a faint flicker of tension in the air between them, though Ariana’s expression didn’t waver. She tilted her head slightly, her lips curving into a faint smile that didn’t reach her eyes. “They were still looking? That seems like a waste of time…and money.” she replied, her tone light but laced with an undercurrent of defiance.

    Lady Trevelyan’s eyes flicked to Cullen, sweeping over him as though he were little more than an afterthought. “And who might this be?” she said, her tone dismissive. “A hired escort? Or perhaps just a friend.”

    Cullen straightened, meeting her gaze with an unyielding calm. He knew he didn’t look like much without his armor, just another man in simple clothes. But he also knew that if her mercenaries so much as twitched toward Ariana, he could put them down before they realized their mistake.

    “Mother,” Ariana interjected smoothly, stepping forward with a deliberate grace. “This isn’t going to work out the way you think it is. I suggest you give up on this.”

    The older woman’s smile faltered ever so slightly, and Cullen saw a flicker of irritation cross her face. “You’ve made quite a mess of things, my dear. Running off, shirking your responsibilities. But it’s time to stop this nonsense. These gentlemen will escort you back to Ostwick, where you belong.”

    The mercenaries began to move, stepping closer to encircle them. Cullen instinctively positioned himself between Ariana and the advancing men, his muscles coiled like a spring, ready to strike. But then he noticed something—Ariana didn’t move. She didn’t step back, didn’t flinch. Instead, she shifted slightly to the side, her body angled just enough to give her a clear line of sight to the mercenaries. Her hands hung loosely at her sides, fingers twitching subtly as if anticipating the feel of a weapon that wasn’t there.

    Cullen’s pulse quickened. She wasn’t afraid. She was confident—too confident. Her eyes darted back and forth between the mercenaries, not out of fear but precision, cataloging their positions, their weapons, their weaknesses. It was the look of someone who had fought her way out of worse odds and was already plotting how to do it again.

    He leaned closer to her, his voice low and urgent. “Ari, what do you want to do?”

    She finally glanced at him, her eyes steady and calm. “I’m not going back to Ostwick,” she said simply, her tone unyielding. There was no hesitation, no doubt. She had already made her decision.

    Cullen nodded, her words solidifying his resolve. His gaze shifted to the patrol of Templars in the distance, and as if sensing his intent, Ariana followed his line of sight. She looked back at him, and to his surprise, she smiled and gave a slight nod.

    That was all the confirmation he needed. Turning toward the patrol, Cullen called out, his voice ringing with authority. “You there! Templars!”

    The patrol stopped and quickly approached, their armor clinking as they drew closer. The leader, a burly man with a scar across his cheek, inclined his head respectfully. “Knight-Captain?”

    “These mercenaries,” Cullen said, gesturing to the group flanking Lady Trevelyan, “are harassing a citizen of Kirkwall. See to it they’re escorted to the city guard.”

    The mercenaries exchanged uneasy glances, clearly weighing their chances against a patrol of Templars. Lady Trevelyan’s expression twisted into fury as she realized Cullen wasn’t just anyone. He turned back to her, his hand still protectively on Ariana’s, and said evenly, “It’s Knight-Captain Cullen, my lady.”

    Her face flushed with indignation, and she stepped forward, her voice rising with anger. “You have no right! This is a family matter, and I—”

    “Elara! What is the meaning of this?”

    The commanding voice cut through the growing tension like a knife. Ariana’s head snapped toward the sound, and her face lit up as she saw her father, Lord Charles Trevelyan, striding toward them with his own guards in tow. His presence was imposing, his expression a mix of anger and incredulity as he approached.

    Lady Trevelyan’s fury faltered, her expression shifting to shock and then something closer to dread. “Charles,” she began, her voice faltering, “I was simply—”

    “You were simply causing a scene,” he interrupted, his tone sharp as his eyes swept over the group. His gaze softened slightly when he saw Ariana, his relief evident. “Ariana,” he said warmly, his voice lowering, “thank the Maker you’re safe.”

    “Father,” Ariana said, her voice thick with emotion as she stepped toward him, the tension in her shoulders easing. But then, unable to hold back, she broke into a run, throwing herself into his arms.

    Lord Trevelyan caught her easily, holding her tightly against him. His hand cradled the back of her head as if she might disappear if he let go. “Ariana,” he murmured, his voice low and filled with relief. “You’re safe.”

    Still holding her close, he straightened and turned his sharp gaze on Elara. “Take her,” he ordered his guards, his tone commanding and unyielding. Lady Trevelyan’s protests began anew, but his grip on Ariana never wavered.

    “This is not over, Charles!” Elara shouted as the guards firmly took her arms.

    “No,” he said coldly, his eyes hard as he looked at her. “It is not. We will talk about this when I return.” He nodded toward the guards. “Take her away.”

    The guards obeyed, guiding Lady Trevelyan down the street as she struggled against their hold. Her shouts faded into the background, drowned out by the thud of mercenaries’ boots as the Templars escorted them toward the city guard.

    Lord Trevelyan held on to Ariana, his hand steadying her even as the chaos subsided. Slowly, he looked up, his eyes landing on Cullen with an intensity that felt both probing and grateful.

    “Knight-Captain,” he began, his voice steady but carrying the weight of a father’s gratitude. “I owe you my thanks for protecting my daughter.”

    Cullen straightened almost instinctively. “No thanks are necessary, my lord,” he said, his tone even, though his gaze flicked to Ariana in her father’s arms. He felt a mix of pride and longing, the sight of her safe softening the edges of his tension.

    ~~~

    Cullen, seemingly satisfied that Ariana was safe, gave her a small nod and turned toward the Hanged Man. His departure felt deliberate, as if he understood this moment wasn’t his to share. She watched him for a moment, warmth lingering in her chest before turning back to her father.

    Ariana’s voice softened as she addressed him, a mix of relief and lingering tension threading through her words. “You got my message?”

    “I did,” Charles replied, his arms still wrapped around protectively. His voice carried the weight of a thousand unspoken fears, now eased by her presence. “I’m sorry it took me so long, my darling. I was away on business when it arrived, but Isabel found me as soon as she could—quiet as a shadow, that one.” He smiled faintly, pride and gratitude in his tone.

    She felt the familiar sting of guilt bubble up. Her voice dropped to a whisper, barely audible. “I…am sorry, Father. For all the trouble, and the worry.”

    His hands tightened slightly on her shoulders, his grip grounding her as his expression hardened—not in anger, but in firm conviction. “You have nothing to be sorry for, Ariana,” he said, his tone resolute. “I told you that years ago, and I mean it just as much now. You did what you had to do. You survived.”

    The words, simple but unwavering, stirred something in her. For the first time in years, the crushing weight of guilt she carried began to lift. She met his gaze, a flicker of hope shining through her uncertainty. “Will you be staying in Kirkwall?” she asked, clutching his arm almost instinctively. They had lost so much time, and though she wouldn’t admit it outright, she wasn’t ready to let him go again.

    His smile softened as he cupped her cheek briefly, the gesture both comforting and protective. “I’ll be here for the week,” he assured her. “There are things to settle with your mother before she returns to Ostwick, but yes, I’ll stay.” A knowing glint appeared in his eyes. “And there’s someone else eager to see you later.”

    Ariana tilted her head, curiosity sparking in her expression. “Who?” she asked cautiously.

    Charles chuckled, shaking his head. “You’ll find out soon enough.” The reassurance in his tone eased her nerves, though she was still puzzling over who it might be.

    Her gaze drifted toward the Hanged Man, and she hesitated before speaking again. “Father… will you come inside with me?” she asked, her voice quieter now, almost hesitant. “There are… a few people I’d like you to meet.”

    Charles raised an eyebrow, intrigued by her demeanor. “Lead the way,” he said simply, his smile steady and encouraging.

    As they entered the Hanged Man, Ariana felt her father’s hand resting lightly on her back. The familiar din of the tavern surrounded them—the laughter, the clinking of mugs, and the hum of conversations. Her eyes immediately found Cullen, seated with Varric, Hawke, and Isabela at a table near the back. They were trying their best to appear casual, but it was clear they had been watching for her return.

    Cullen’s posture straightened as his gaze settled on them, his eyes flicking briefly to Charles before returning to Ariana. She could see the tension in his jaw, though he masked it well, his hand brushing absently at his side where his sword would usually rest.

    Charles, for his part, moved through the bustling tavern with an ease that surprised her. There was no hesitation in his step, no trace of discomfort at the rougher edges of the Hanged Man’s atmosphere. When they reached Corff at the bar, Charles ordered an ale and a plate of bread and cheese with casual confidence, making Ariana pause. Apparently, her father had more layers than she’d given him credit for.

    She couldn’t help the small smile that tugged at her lips, the tension of the past hour finally melting into something warmer. Guiding him toward the table, she felt her heart lift at the sight of Cullen standing as they approached.

    “Father,” she said, gesturing toward Cullen. “This is Knight-Captain Cullen Rutherford.”

    Charles extended his hand to Cullen, his expression unreadable but polite. “I believe I’ve heard of you,” he said thoughtfully. “You’re the one Ariana mentioned in her letters from Ferelden, before the Blight.”

    Ariana froze, heat rushing to her cheeks. Letters? Did I mention him in letters? she thought frantically, casting a quick glance at Cullen.

    Cullen, however, seemed composed, shaking Charles’s hand with a firm grip and steady voice. “It’s an honor to meet you, my lord.”

    “Please, just Charles,” her father corrected, his tone warming slightly.

    Then Cullen turned to Ariana, his lips quirking into a teasing grin. “Letters?”

    Her face burned brighter, and she quickly looked away, muttering, “I… might’ve mentioned you once or twice.”

    Charles, observing the exchange, smiled knowingly but refrained from commenting further. Instead, he nodded toward the table. “Shall we?”

    As they settled in, Ariana couldn’t shake the feeling of relief that came with having her father here, his presence a quiet anchor. Cullen’s steady gaze met hers briefly, and in that moment, she felt something she hadn’t in a long time—hope.

    ~~~

    Varric straightened in his seat, giving a slight bow of his head as he began, “My lord, I am V—”

    But Charles, with an easy smile and a glint of amusement in his eyes, smoothly cut him off. “Varric Tethras, Merchant Prince of Kirkwall. Yes, I am well aware.”

    There was no coldness or arrogance in his tone, just a calm assurance that he didn’t miss a detail. The effect was immediate—Varric’s mouth quirked into a grin, clearly amused at being preempted. Ariana, stifling a laugh, glanced at Hawke, who raised her eyebrows with a smirk.

    Charles moved to the head of the table at Varric’s insistence, his presence naturally commanding yet approachable. Cullen quietly took the seat beside Ariana, his arm brushing against hers in a way that sent a subtle warmth through her. She tried to focus on the conversation, but her father’s ease in this setting struck her as both comforting and utterly surprising.

    Conversation and laughter filled the suite as the group settled in. Charles seemed to melt into the camaraderie, as comfortable here in the bustling chaos of the Hanged Man as he would be at an ostentatious noble’s banquet. Ariana couldn’t help but marvel at him. Had he always been this adaptable? This charming? She’d grown up knowing him as a reserved but warm presence in their home, but here, he was something else entirely.

    “Careful there,” Isabela teased, leaning forward, her dark eyes gleaming with mischief. “You’ll fit in too well, my lord. And the Hanged Man has a way of making you forget any decorum.”

    Charles leaned back with an amused smile, unfazed by her boldness. “My dear, if I didn’t know how to leave decorum at the door, I wouldn’t be here,” he replied smoothly.

    The table burst into laughter, and Isabela, clearly delighted, tilted her head with a smirk. “Is that so? Perhaps you’d care to show me just how far that lack of decorum goes, my lord.”

    Ariana groaned inwardly, her face heating as she realized where this was heading. She brought a hand to her temple, trying not to think about the implications of Isabela flirting with her father. Maker, no, she thought, please, no.

    Charles, however, was enjoying himself far too much. “Careful, Captain,” he replied with mock seriousness, though his tone carried just enough genuine charm to make Ariana wince. “Keep this up, and I may very well consider your offer.”

    “Father!” Ariana groaned aloud this time, her voice muffled as she dropped her head to the table, her hair spilling over her arms. She desperately wished the floor would open up and swallow her whole. 

    The table roared with laughter again, and Cullen, his shoulders shaking with amusement, leaned over and pressed a soft kiss to the crown of her head. “If it makes you feel better,” he murmured just loud enough for her to hear, “my siblings and I endured far worse from my parents.” 

    Ariana peeked out from her arms, her curiosity momentarily overriding her embarrassment. “Worse?” she asked, though her voice was still muffled. 

    Cullen chuckled. “Let’s just say they were affectionate. Very affectionate. And not shy about it. Sometimes my sister and I wondered if they forgot we were in the same room.” His tone carried a mix of warmth and exasperation, and the table burst into laughter once again. 

    Ariana lifted her head slightly, her expression incredulous. “Not in noble circles, they don’t. Parents are supposed to be the picture of decorum—graceful, stoic, above reproach.” She sighed dramatically, gesturing toward her father with an exaggerated flourish. “Clearly, someone missed that lesson.”

    Charles chuckled, entirely unfazed. “Decorum is overrated. I prefer honesty—and having a bit of fun at my daughter’s expense.”

    Ariana groaned, dropping her head back onto the table as the group dissolved into laughter once again.

    Hawke smirked. “That’s just what parents do best.” 

    “Especially when it’s deserved,” Isabela added with a wink, earning another round of laughter. 

    The teasing settled after a moment, but the warmth of Cullen’s kiss lingered. Ariana tilted her head to glance up at him, noticing the way his eyes glimmered with quiet affection. Before she could say anything, her father’s voice cut through the room, redirecting the attention. 

    “So, Knight-Captain Cullen,” Charles began, his tone polite but curious. “Tell me about your family. What were they like?” 

    Cullen straightened slightly, smiling as he met Charles’ gaze. “They were… good people. Kind. My parents loved each other deeply—probably more than their children should have been aware of.” His grin turned sheepish as laughter erupted around the table. 

    Hawke raised her glass, her eyes gleaming with mischief. “To embarrassing parents everywhere,” she toasted, eliciting more laughter and a half-hearted groan from Ariana. 

    As the conversation drifted to lighter topics, Ariana leaned closer to Cullen, her shoulder brushing his. “Thank you,” she murmured, her voice soft. 

    “For what?” he asked, tilting his head toward her. 

    “For moving the conversation along,” she said, her tone wry but grateful. “I really don’t need to know what my parents do when I’m not around.” 

    Cullen chuckled quietly, his laughter sending a warmth through her. “Fair enough,” he replied, leaning in to press another kiss to her forehead. 

    The simple gesture made her heart flutter, and for a moment, she forgot about their surroundings. She turned toward him, her hand brushing against his cheek as she leaned in and kissed him softly. 

    The world seemed to fade away, the noise of the tavern blurring into the background. Cullen responded without hesitation, his hand finding hers and squeezing gently. 

    When she pulled back, reality crashed back in as she realized the table had fallen silent. Ariana’s cheeks flushed a deep red as she glanced around, noticing the smirks, knowing glances, and suppressed laughter of their friends. 

    The teasing erupted again, but this time, Ariana didn’t care. She glanced at Cullen, her embarrassment melting under the warmth of his gaze. Whatever teasing or gossip might come, she knew they’d face it together. 

  • Chapter 18 – A New Routine

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    The days had settled into an easy rhythm, a new chapter in their lives that felt both familiar and uncharted. Ariana could barely recognize herself in this new freedom. Gone were the shadows she had once cloaked herself in, the constant vigilance, the fear of being dragged back to Ostwick, into another life she didn’t choose. Whatever chains had once bound her to the past had long since rusted and broken. She was finally free to breathe, to explore, to live—and with Cullen beside her, she felt more alive than ever.

    Cullen, too, seemed changed. The rigid schedule that had once defined his life had fallen by the wayside. His visits to the Chantry grew less frequent, his time instead devoted to their shared exploration of Kirkwall and its surroundings. His armor, once a second skin, now seemed more like a relic. When they were together, he shed it as often as duty allowed, preferring the closeness it afforded them. In these moments, she could see the Cullen she had always known—the man beneath the weight of his title and the shadows of the Gallows.

    Today was one of those rare days when they ventured far from the city, and Ariana couldn’t help the spark of excitement in her voice as she proposed their destination. “So, I heard there’s an ancient altar to Mythal atop Sundermount…” Her playful smile turned inviting. “Care to join me?”

    Cullen chuckled, a warmth in his expression she never tired of seeing. “Sundermount? I believe there’s a Dalish clan settled nearby.”

    “Even better,” she replied, her eyes sparkling with anticipation as she slipped her hand into his. Together, they began the climb.

    At the base of the mountain, the path led them directly into the Dalish camp, where they were soon approached by a tall, older elf with silvery-white hair. She carried herself with calm authority, her gaze assessing. “Andaran atish’an,” the woman greeted, her tone polite but cautious. “I am Keeper Marethari. What brings you to our camp?”

    Ariana immediately noted the subtle movements of the Dalish rangers, positioning themselves with quiet precision. Their bows were lowered but ready, their loyalty to the Keeper evident. She inclined her head respectfully. “En’an’sal’en sul mar arla,” she replied in careful Elvish, her tone reverent. “I do not mean to intrude, Keeper. I seek only passage to the mountain’s summit.”

    Marethari’s eyes narrowed slightly, surprise flickering across her face. “You speak our tongue,” she observed. “You know our ways?”

    “I have crossed paths with other Dalish clans in my travels,” Ariana replied earnestly. “I have learned much from them, and I hope to learn more still. I mean no harm to you or your people.”

    The Keeper’s expression softened, though her curiosity remained. “What is it you seek at the summit?”

    “Knowledge and understanding of the Elvhen,” Ariana answered, her voice clear. “I wish to preserve what remains of the old ways, for the good of all who walk this world.”

    Marethari’s gaze lingered on her, measuring her sincerity. “And if we were to deny you this passage?”

    Ariana’s response was immediate, her tone steady. “Then we shall leave without disturbing you further.”

    The Keeper studied her for a long moment, then nodded, a faint smile gracing her lips. She raised a hand, signaling her rangers to stand down. “You are not what I expected, child,” she said with quiet approval. “Very well. You have our blessing to continue. May Mythal watch over you.”

    “Ma serannas, Keeper,” Ariana replied, bowing her head deeply before taking Cullen’s hand again. As they left the camp, she felt the weight of the rangers’ watchful eyes ease from her shoulders.

    They had walked some distance before Cullen broke the silence. “That was… remarkable,” he began, his voice filled with admiration. “How did you…?” He trailed off, shaking his head as though at a loss for words. “You’re incredible.”

    Ariana’s cheeks flushed faintly, and she laughed softly. “I didn’t do anything special. They just needed reassurance that we meant no harm.”

    Cullen’s gaze lingered on her, a mixture of pride and wonder in his eyes. “Where did you learn Elvish?”

    “Books. And from a few Dalish I met in Ferelden and Orlais,” she replied casually, though a flicker of pride danced in her voice.

    When they reached the summit, the ancient altar rose before them, weathered but majestic. Ariana’s breath caught as she stepped closer, her hands brushing over the intricate carvings. Symbols of Mythal intertwined with depictions of natural beauty—branches, rivers, and stars. She traced the markings, speaking aloud her interpretations, losing herself in the discovery. Cullen, as always, watched her, captivated.

    The dark, unyielding look he’d carried in his eyes days ago seemed far away now. As he stood there, the weight he had borne for so long felt lighter. She had brought him back to this—to wonder, to joy, to himself.

    When she turned toward the sea, her silhouette framed by the glowing horizon, she looked back at him, her eyes warm and full of gratitude. “Thank you for bringing me here,” she said softly.

    “You brought me here,” he replied, his voice quiet but steady, “in more ways than one.”

    As they sat among the ruins, sharing a simple meal and watching the stars, Cullen felt the peace of the moment settle deep within him.

    ~~~

    Late that evening, Ariana returned to the Hanged Man, the familiar haze of tavern smoke and clamor settling around her like an old, worn cloak. The noise was almost comforting, a chaotic rhythm she could navigate without effort. As she made her way through the crowd, her gaze landed on the door to Varric’s suite, which was firmly shut.

    Pausing, she turned to Corff at the bar. “Is Varric in?”

    Corff opened his mouth to answer, but before he could, a smooth, sultry voice cut through the din, sharp as a blade. “Who’s asking?”

    Ariana turned, eyebrow arching as she took in the woman standing a few feet away. She looked like she’d raided a treasure chest and decided to wear half of it as armor—but only half. Ariana resisted the urge to roll her eyes. She really should have used the other half too. The woman’s posture was loose, casual, but there was something sharp coiled beneath it, like a dagger hidden in silk.

    “And you are?” Ariana asked, her tone calm but edged with challenge.

    The woman’s lips curved into a grin, though her eyes gleamed with a hint of warning. “Someone who makes it her business to know who’s sniffing around my friends.” In one fluid motion, she pulled a dagger from her belt and drove it into the counter between them, the blade wobbling slightly as it settled into the wood.

    Ariana’s gaze flicked to the dagger, unimpressed. She brushed it aside with the back of her hand, not even sparing it a proper glance. “Is this butter knife supposed to intimidate me?” Her voice was dry, her smirk faint but sharp. “Because after everything I’ve been through, this hardly even registers.”

    Her words hung in the air for a moment, drawing a ripple of amusement from the barkeep and a few nearby patrons. The woman’s grin widened, but the glint in her eyes turned more dangerous.

    “You’ve got a sharp tongue,” she said, her tone deceptively light. “Careful you don’t cut yourself with it.”

    Ariana leaned in slightly, her smirk never faltering. “And you’ve got an overinflated sense of authority,” she shot back. “Careful you don’t choke on it.”

    Corff cleared his throat, clearly wanting to intervene, but before he could, the woman grabbed for Ariana’s arm. Ariana reacted instantly, sidestepping the attempt and shoving her attacker back against the bar with enough force to rattle the bottles behind it.

    “Looking for a fight, sweetheart?” the woman asked, her tone dangerous now, her stance shifting from playful to poised.

    Ariana sighed, brushing imaginary dust from her sleeve. “Not particularly,” she said coolly. “But I’d be happy to put you in your place if that’s what it’ll take for you to let me through.”

    The woman lunged, her dagger flashing in a quick, calculated jab. Ariana sidestepped smoothly, her movements as fluid as water, and caught the woman’s wrist with practiced ease. Twisting sharply, she forced the blade to clatter to the floor and used the momentum to throw her off balance.

    “Maybe keep your toys to yourself,” Ariana muttered, shoving her opponent back and stepping toward the stairs.

    The woman recovered quickly, her grin wild with newfound respect. “Not just a pretty face—fast too,” she said, retrieving her blade with a flourish.

    Ariana turned just in time to see the woman rush toward her again. Bracing herself, she caught her wrist mid-swing and pinned it behind her with a growl. “Enough,” she said, her tone low and commanding. With a shove, she sent the woman stumbling back—straight through the door to Varric’s suite.

    Inside, Varric and Hawke looked up from their conversation, both raising their eyebrows at the sight of Isabela sprawled on the floor.

    “Mind telling me why I’m getting ambushed on my way here?” Ariana asked, crossing her arms and glaring at Varric.

    Hawke let out a laugh, glancing at Varric with amusement. “Well, looks like you’ve got quite the skilled friend here.”

    Varric chuckled, leaning back in his chair. “Pup, meet Isabela. She has this habit of… vetting strangers.” His grin widened. “You passed, by the way.”

    Dusting herself off, Isabela rose to her feet with a wicked grin, her gaze lingering on Ariana. “Just doing my due diligence,” she said, her tone smooth and unapologetic. “And I have to say, you’re full of surprises.”

    Ariana shot Varric a tired look. “Next time, maybe warn me about your ‘vetting’ process. Or at least tell her to leave the butter knives at home.”

    “I’ll take it under advisement,” Varric replied, his tone utterly unapologetic. “You’ve been gone a few years, Pup. There are bound to be some new faces.”

    Isabela held up her hands in mock surrender. “Alright, truce.” She turned back to Ariana, her grin mischievous. “But we’ll have to spar properly sometime—without the surprise element.”

    Ariana smirked, tilting her head. “Anytime,” she replied, her voice calm but laced with quiet confidence.

    Hawke raised her glass, her laughter bubbling over again. “Oh, this should be fun.”

    Isabela’s eyes narrowed slightly, curiosity sparking behind them. “Alright, I’ve got to know—who is she?”

    Without missing a beat, Hawke replied, her grin playful, “Varric’s adopted daughter.”

    Varric groaned, burying his face in his hands. “Really, Hawke? Do you have to?”

    Isabela’s grin widened, her amusement unmistakable. “Oh, this just got interesting. Varric has a daughter?”

    Ariana chuckled softly, shaking her head. “Adopted,” she said, her voice teasing.

    “Oh, now this I need details of,” Isabela purred, tossing her dagger into the air and catching it effortlessly.

    ~~~

    Ariana stretched her shoulders and neck, then gave Varric and Hawke an amused look. “Well, I was just coming to see if there was anything interesting I should know… other than a vetting process you forgot to tell me about.”

    Varric and Hawke exchanged glances, an unspoken agreement passing between them, and Ariana knew immediately that she was walking into a trap.

    Hawke grinned, leaning back. “Well, from the looks of it, your days have been far more interesting than ours. Rumors swirling all around about you and a certain Templar—exploring the Wounded Coast, sneaking around ruins, stargazing in Hightown…” She cast an innocent glance at Varric. “Quite the adventures, don’t you think?”

    Varric sighed, casting an exasperated glance between Hawke and Ariana, like a father watching his daughter get into mischief he wished he hadn’t overheard “I’m too sober for this.”

    Ariana shook her head, stifling a laugh, and was just about to retort when Isabela joined them, eyes sparkling with her usual intrigue.

    “You and a Templar? Darling, that’s prime gossip material.” She leaned forward, her eyes sparkling. “Which Templar? Do tell.” Isabela said, sliding into a chair next to Ariana with a grin.

    Ariana laughed, brushing them off. “Nothing to say—sounds like Hawke already knows everything.” She raised an eyebrow at Varric, as if daring him to disagree, but he only huffed, looking put-upon.

    The group, however, wasn’t so easily deterred. They leaned in, and Isabela in particular seemed especially eager, her grin widening. “Oh, come on, which Templar?” she pressed, feigning innocent curiosity.

    Ariana shook her head, laughing softly. “It’s not what you think—”

    “Knight-Captain Cullen,” Varric said begrudgingly, cutting her off. “She’s been gallivanting around Kirkwall with him for days.”

    Isabela’s eyebrows shot up, her grin widening. “Oh, this just keeps getting better. Gorgeous man, that one. Can’t believe I never managed to bed him…yet. So, you’re the one…” She winked, clearly relishing the moment, drawing laughter from Hawke and a slightly deeper sigh from Varric, who looked like he was struggling not to cover his ears.

    Varric groaned audibly, covering his face with one hand. “I don’t need to hear this.”

    Hawke, however, looked thoroughly entertained. Raising her glass, she grinned. “So, Varric, how does it feel knowing your daughter has caught the eye of Kirkwall’s most brooding Templar?”

    Ariana choked on a laugh, throwing her hands up in mock protest. “We’re just friends.” though her tone lacked the necessary conviction

    Varric rolled his eyes but couldn’t help the faint smile tugging at his mouth. “If I had known bringing her to Kirkwall would lead to… this, I might have thought twice.”

    “You didn’t bring me here,” Ariana corrected, feigning offense. “I brought myself—twice, I’ll remind you.”

    “Right, my mistake,” Varric said dryly, lowering his hand to reveal a faint smirk. “Maybe I should send you back to Ferelden…”

    Hawke and Isabela laughed, clearly enjoying the banter. Isabela leaned forward again, her grin downright predatory. “So, Ariana, tell me—what’s it like being the infamous noble who’s got the Gallows’ golden boy wrapped around her finger?”

    Ariana froze, something in their words finally clicking. “Wait… you mean to say these are rumors outside this room?” she asked, brows furrowing in confusion. “What exactly are people saying?”

    The room fell quiet for a moment before the trio exchanged glances. Varric raised an eyebrow, his expression equal parts amused and incredulous. “You mean to tell me you haven’t heard? You two are practically the talk of Kirkwall.”

    “What?” Ariana’s voice rose slightly, her eyes wide. “Why? What are people saying?”

    Hawke leaned in, grinning like a cat with cream. “Oh, let’s see… everything from ‘the Knight-Captain’s mysterious lady friend’ to whispers about ‘moonlit trysts’ and ‘clandestine meetings in Hightown gardens.’” She paused, clearly savoring the moment before delivering the final blow. “And, of course, the real kicker: ‘The black sheep of the Trevelyan family stealing the heart of the Gallows’ finest.’” She punctuated the list with a playful waggle of her eyebrows.

    Isabela nearly doubled over with laughter, adding, “And don’t forget ‘the lady rogue who’s secretly been taming the Templar lion.’ Of course, that’s nothing compared to the Lowtown whispers. They’re far more vivid. Word is, the Knight-Captain sneaks into your room nightly for… let’s call it ‘vigorous strategy sessions.’” She paused, her grin turning wicked. “Apparently, they think you’ve got him so enchanted that he’s ready to toss his vows for you. Some say you’re even plotting to run away together. Dramatic, right?”

    Ariana’s cheeks flushed a deep red, half in embarrassment, half in disbelief. “Maker’s breath…all we did was walk around Kirkwall! And…wait…” Her voice faltered as realization struck. “Black sheep?”

    Varric smirked, leaning back in his chair. “Oh, yeah. That part’s been particularly popular. Apparently, Trevelyan’s missing daughter has resurfaced—but instead of gracefully rejoining noble society, she’s out gallivanting with Templars and lurking in Lowtown. Scandalous, really.”

    “I…” Ariana’s words failed her as she buried her face in her hands, groaning. “This can’t be happening.”

    Hawke patted her shoulder with mock sympathy. “Oh, it’s happening. And honestly, it’s one of the more entertaining scandals Kirkwall’s had in a while. You’re famous, Ariana.”

    “Infamous, more like,” Isabela teased, grinning. “I mean, ‘black sheep,’ Ariana? That’s practically poetic.”

    Ariana peeked through her fingers, glaring at the trio. “Wasn’t it your job to make sure people didn’t find ‘Ariana Trevelyan’?”

    Varric chuckled, his tone more serious but no less amused. “Don’t look at me, Pup.” Varric spread his hands in mock innocence. “Only so much I can do when you’re gallivanting around with a certain Knight-Captain.”

    Ariana groaned, rubbing her temples. “And here I thought we’d been discreet.” Her mind raced, a storm of emotions swirling within. The idea of being labeled the ‘black sheep’ of her family stung more than she wanted to admit. She’d worked so hard to carve out her own path, but the thought of being dismissed as some scandalous footnote in noble gossip made her chest tighten.

    “Darling,” Isabela purred, her grin practically glowing. “It’s not about what you’ve done—it’s about what people think you’ve done. And let’s just say the rumors have some very good material this time.”

    Ariana let out a resigned laugh, shaking her head. “Just… here’s hoping no one is looking for me anymore…”

    Isabela leaned closer, her grin softening slightly. “Hey, look at it this way. At least they’re saying you’re the one taming him. Not the other way around.”

    Ariana groaned again, her hands covering her face as the others burst into laughter. Deep down, though, a small part of her couldn’t help but find the absurdity of it all somewhat… amusing. Yet, another part of her worried. What if these rumors reached Ostwick? Her family had likely heard enough whispers by now to know she hadn’t disappeared entirely. What if they came looking for her? What if the wrong people started digging? The idea made her stomach churn, though she forced herself to push the thought aside. And yet, despite her embarrassment, another part of her felt a certain flush at the thought of him sneaking into her room at night. She couldn’t deny the warmth that thought brought, or how it stirred memories of their quiet moments together—moments where his presence had felt grounding, safe. She shook her head, trying to suppress a smile as she wondered just how far these rumors might go.

    ~~~

    The next evening, when Ariana met Cullen in Hightown, she couldn’t stop glancing around, eyes flitting from one passerby to another as if searching for something—or someone. This new restlessness didn’t escape Cullen’s notice.

    “Ari, is everything alright?” he asked, giving her a curious look.

    “What? Yes…no…well maybe, probably…it’s fine,” she stammered, clearly struggling to find her words.

    Cullen wasn’t sure he had ever seen her like this. He’d seen her afraid, he’d seen her panic even, but this? This was new. Sensing her tension, he gently took her arm and guided her off to the side. “You seem… a little high-strung,” he said, his tone kind but firm. “And that answer? It told me nothing… and yet everything.”

    She gave him a look he hadn’t quite seen before—something between embarrassment, concern, and perhaps even a hint of…was that bashfulness? He wasn’t sure he knew this expression on her. It was almost endearing.

    “Ari…” he said, his voice softening as he guided her to sit on a nearby bench. He knelt down in front of her, reaching out for her hands. “Talk to me.”

    But she suddenly leaped up from the bench, looking genuinely alarmed. “You… you really should get up, maybe right now.”

    Cullen blinked in surprise, torn between worry and a strong urge to laugh at her sudden outburst. “Alright,” he said, trying to keep his voice steady, “either you need to sit down, or I’ll need to hold you here myself. I’m just warning you.”

    She sighed, exasperated, then plopped back down on the bench. “Fine, fine, I’ll sit. But you need to sit too. Or stand. Anything, just… please, no more kneeling.”

    Amused and a little bewildered, he sat down beside her, watching her eyes fixate on the ground. “Alright, I’m sitting. Now, care to tell me what has you so… on edge?”

    She took a deep breath, her gaze still either straight ahead or down at the cobblestones. “Tell me something…” she began, her voice hesitant. She cast a quick glance around them, then looked back at Cullen, struggling to keep her tone casual. “Were you… aware of all those rumors going around?”

    Cullen’s eyes softened as he caught on. “Rumors?”

    “Yes. You and I… we’re apparently Kirkwall’s latest ‘scandal.’”

    “Oh.” His eyebrows lifted, he was somewhat amused and surprised at her reaction. “So you’ve heard.”

    Cullen’s lips curved into a barely-contained smile as he caught sight of the frustration rising in Ariana’s expression. “Wait—you knew?” she demanded, her tone tinged with exasperation.

    “I may have… heard a thing or two,” he admitted, struggling to keep his voice light. He reached up to scratch the back of his neck, feeling both guilty and amused. “Kirkwall’s Hightown folk do like to talk. As do idle Templars in the Gallows…”

    Ariana groaned, crossing her arms as she narrowed her eyes at him. “And you didn’t think to mention it?”

    He chuckled softly, leaning in closer as if to shield their words from invisible eavesdroppers. “I figured you’d hear eventually,” he said, a teasing glint in his eyes. “Though, in truth, I didn’t think you’d be so… unsettled by it.”

    “Unsettled?” she scoffed, though her voice held a trace of unease beneath the bravado. “Have you heard them? You’re not just anyone. Not just another Templar, Cullen. You’re the Knight-Captain of Kirkwall and I…” she paused almost as if trying to avoid the words “I’m the ‘black sheep of the Trevelyan family’”. Her gaze shifted, a flicker of doubt shadowing her expression. “Kirkwall is all politics… Templars are no exception. There are even rumors that you’re planning to leave the Order for me. I have nothing left to lose. I was never planning to rejoin high society. But you? You… shouldn’t be seen with someone like me.”

    She left the statement hanging between them, her eyes searching his face, hoping to see a hint of reassurance in his response.

    Cullen heart tightened at her admission. She was worried about him. Cullen’s expression softened, and he reached over, his fingers brushing hers in a subtle gesture. “Ari,” he murmured, “I don’t care what they say. I’d walk through Hightown in broad daylight hand in hand with you if that’s what you wanted.”

    Ariana’s cheeks flushed a deep shade of red, and she looked away, trying to mask her embarrassment. Cullen’s laughter grew louder as he saw her reaction, a mix of shock and amusement lighting up his face.

    “Oh, Maker, that’s it, isn’t it?” he asked, chuckling as he pieced together her earlier skittishness. “You were worried that someone might see us and think… I was proposing?”

    She huffed, folding her arms, but couldn’t help the small, sheepish smile tugging at her lips. “Well, maybe… yes,” she admitted reluctantly, her eyes flicking around to ensure no prying eyes were on them. “With everything Hawke, Isabela, and Varric hinted at last night, I—well, I thought it might look a little… compromising, you kneeling down during one of our ‘moonlit trysts’…”

    Cullen had been telling the truth when he said he didn’t care. He didn’t disagree with what she was saying, it could complicate some things but he really didn’t think anything of it. He was not, in fact, planning to leave the Order and he didn’t think Meredith would be one to pay any mind to rumors. But it did twist something inside him for her to think she wasn’t good enough for him.

    Cullen’s gaze softened into something more innocent, though his grin betrayed him. “Would you rather I just stand at a respectable distance at all times? Perhaps I should wear full armor to appear as official as possible, just to quash these rumors?”

    She laughed, elbowing him lightly. “I am pretty sure the armor makes it all the more scandalous, from the rumors I heard. Besides, I like you much better without the armor. But I just… it would be better for you if no one gets ideas about us being… well, anything more than just friends.”

    He leaned in closer, his voice low and warm, his tone dropping into something both sincere and teasing. “Ari, I think anyone who’s seen us together in the last few weeks knows better than that.” As he spoke, he gently pulled her toward him, his hand lingering on the small of her back.

    Her breath caught  at the sudden closeness. She looked up at him, feeling a mix of excitement and uncertainty. “What are you saying, Cullen?” she whispered, searching his eyes.

    Until now, neither of them had ever admitted out loud that they were anything more than friends, and there had been a time when Cullen had tried to convince himself of that as well. But he had realized long ago that he was hers if she wanted him. That there would never be anyone else for him.

    Cullen’s gaze softened, and a hint of a smile touched his lips. “Maybe I’m tired of pretending we’re ‘just friends,’” he admitted, his voice barely above a whisper. “I haven’t denied the rumors for a reason, Ari. Let them think what they will.”

    Ariana seemed surprised at his words, as if she hadn’t expected it. For a few moments she held his gaze as if trying to find the truth of his words, or maybe discern their meaning. He hadn’t been denying anything because, deep down, he didn’t want to. He would much prefer the rumors were true. All of them.

    Suddenly, without hesitation, she leaned forward and kissed him.

    Cullen froze, utterly unprepared for the moment. Ariana’s lips pressed to his, tentative but undeniably real. For an instant, his mind went blank, as though the years of doubt, longing, and self-recrimination had simply evaporated. Then the dam inside him broke, and he moved instinctively, pulling her closer, his other hand gently cupping her face as he returned the kiss.

    The world around them disappeared. The quiet hum of Hightown, the murmur of passing nobles—none of it mattered. All that existed was her warmth against him, her presence anchoring him in a way that nothing else ever had.

    She wasn’t just anyone. She never had been. From the first moment they met, Ariana had been a force in his life—unexpected, overwhelming, and impossible to ignore. She had been there when he was just a young Templar who wanted to make a difference, believing in the Templar Order with the fervor of a farm boy chasing a dream. She had been there when the Blight threatened everything, reminding him of the strength that came from standing for what was right. And now, after all this time, she was here again, kissing him in a way that shattered the last of his carefully constructed walls.

    As the kiss deepened, Cullen’s thoughts surged and tumbled, unbidden memories and emotions flooding him. He remembered the nights they had sat together by the ruins in Ferelden, her laughter lightening the oppressive weight of the Blight. He remembered the way she had looked at him—like he was someone worth knowing, someone she trusted. He remembered the many nights she fell asleep on his should as they watched the stars. He remembered the last time he saw her before he thought her lost to him forever.

    And yet, here she was, in his arms, defying all the doubts that had plagued him since.

    Maker, she’s worth it. She’s always been worth it. But even as the thought came, it was chased by the old, gnawing fear: that he wasn’t enough for her. She wasn’t just Ariana; she was Lady Ariana Ryss Trevelyan, a noble raised in the splendor of ballrooms and estates, someone who had fled a world of expectations he could barely fathom. And him? He was just Cullen Rutherford, a Templar who had given up everything to serve a cause he wasn’t even sure he believed in anymore.

    What could I possibly give her?

    Yet as her fingers lightly brushed his neck, grounding him in the moment, the doubt began to ebb. She had chosen him. She had searched for him, crossed nations and years to find him again. Surely that had to mean something. You’re not just anyone. Not just another Templar, Cullen. You’re the Knight-Captain of Kirkwall her words repeated in his mind. She believed in him. She still saw in him more than he saw in himself.

    When they finally broke apart, her face was close, her breath mingling with his as she looked up at him. Her eyes shimmered with emotion, a mix of uncertainty and something deeper—something that mirrored the feelings churning in his chest. Cullen struggled to speak, to say something that could capture even a fraction of what he was feeling, but words seemed inadequate.

    She smiled then, small and tentative, and it was enough to steal the breath from his lungs. “I—” she started, but he shook his head gently, his hand still resting against her face.

    “Ari, I—I’ve wanted this for so long. You have no idea.”  he said, his voice rough but steady.

    Her smile softened, her fingers brushing against his chest as she whispered, “I think I might. Probably as long as I’ve wanted it.”

    For a moment, Cullen allowed himself to believe it—that this wasn’t just a fleeting moment, that she wouldn’t regret this, wouldn’t turn away when she realized how flawed he truly was. Because right now, holding her close, he didn’t feel like just a Templar or a farm boy or a man burdened by too many regrets. He felt like hers. And she felt like his. Like they were always meant to be.

    You both have found your home.

    ~~~

    As they walked through the winding streets of Kirkwall, the echoes of their kiss lingered between them, a warm, unspoken presence that neither seemed entirely ready to address. Cullen glanced over at Ariana, catching the slight furrow in her brow and the way her fingers occasionally fidgeted at her side. She seemed lost in thought, her usual confidence replaced by a quiet, almost shy demeanor that he wasn’t used to seeing in her.

    It wasn’t hard to see why. Their kiss had shifted something—something neither of them had dared to acknowledge before. Cullen felt a certainty blooming within him, a sense of purpose he hadn’t felt in years. But Ariana, he could tell, was still sorting through it all. She’d faced dangers that would make most warriors tremble, yet here, in this fragile, unfamiliar space, she seemed uncertain. Vulnerable.

    He found it endearing, this side of her she rarely revealed. In that moment he realized just how much the Blight had stolen from her. It had made her strong, yes, but it had also forced her into a life of survival, taking from her those simpler moments most people took for granted—moments of safety, of care, of love.

    Finally, she broke the silence, her voice tentative but curious. “So, Cullen…” She paused, glancing at him before quickly looking away. “I heard only some of them… are they all as scandalous as they sound?”

    He chuckled, his amusement evident as he considered her question. Here she was, bold enough to challenge darkspawn and evade an arranged marriage, yet the mere mention of gossip seemed to throw her off balance. “Some more than others,” he replied, his tone playful but reassuring. “Depends on where they started. Lowtown certainly is more concerned about the details of what happens when I sneak into your room every night…”

    Her eyes widened slightly, her lips parting as if to respond, but she stayed silent. Cullen continued, his grin softening as he added, “Hightown’s rumors, though, are more… dignified. They’re already wondering if a noblewoman like you, black sheep or not, would marry a Knight-Captain.”

    Ariana stopped mid-step, her cheeks flushing a deep shade of red. Her gaze dropped to the ground, and she bit her lip, clearly trying to process his words. Cullen could see the embarrassment—and perhaps something else—in her expression, and it sent a rush of warmth through him. She looked so unguarded, so unlike the Ariana he’d first met, always sharp and poised, ready for whatever the world might throw her way.

    “Not quite what you expected to hear, is it?” he teased gently, leaning in slightly to meet her gaze. “You could say we’re the talk of Kirkwall.”

    She looked up at him, her lips quirking into a reluctant smile. “I suppose I should have known better,” she admitted with a soft laugh. “But still…details… sneaking into my room?” Her voice was barely more than a whisper, and Cullen couldn’t help the chuckle that escaped him at her mix of scandal and… Is that curiosity?

    He reached for her hand, brushing his fingers against hers in a way that felt both tentative and sure. “Ari,” he murmured, his voice low and steady, “it’s just talk. What matters is that I’m here, with you.”

    She nodded slightly, her smile fading into something more thoughtful. “And…” she began hesitantly, her words faltering as she glanced down at the ground. “You’re sure you don’t… regret this?”

    Her voice was so quiet, so unsure, that it made his heart ache. Without a second thought, Cullen stopped walking and turned to face her fully. Gently, he took her hand in his and wrapped his other arm around her waist, pulling her close.

    “The only thing I would ever regret,” he said softly, his gaze locking onto hers, “is not having you at my side.”

    For a moment, she simply stared at him, her eyes shimmering with something he couldn’t quite name. Then, with a small, almost shy smile, she leaned in, and he met her halfway, their lips finding each other once more. The world fading around them, the clamor of Kirkwall’s streets nothing more than a distant hum. In her touch, in her closeness, he found everything he had been missing.

    As the kiss ended, Cullen rested his forehead against hers, his hand gently brushing her cheek. “Ari,” he murmured, his voice barely above a whisper, “you mean more to me than I could ever put into words.”

    Her fingers tightened slightly on his arm, her expression soft but resolute. “Then don’t,” she whispered back. “Just stay with me.”

    And with that, they continued toward the Hanged Man, their steps unhurried, their hearts lighter than they had been in years. For the first time, Cullen felt that he wasn’t just moving forward—he was moving toward something. Someone.

  • Chapter 17 – Remembering Us

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    The next day, Ariana made her usual rounds with Varric, the afternoon dragging as her thoughts remained firmly tethered to the evening ahead. The streets of Hightown bustled around them, but the energy of the city barely registered in her mind. Varric, ever the social butterfly, greeted familiar faces with an easy charm, while Ariana followed in his wake, her own demeanor more reserved.

    “So,” Varric began, his tone casual yet unmistakably teasing, “care to explain what possessed you to get involved with a Templar?”

    Ariana sighed, rolling her eyes at his persistence. “We’re just friends, Varric. Nothing more.”

    “Right. Friends.” Varric’s voice dripped with skepticism as he gave her a sidelong glance. “Because we all have those ‘just friends’ who we chase halfway across Thedas for years.”

    She paused mid-step, fixing him with a sharp look. “I mean it, Varric. He was there for me when I needed someone. That’s all it is.”

    “Uh-huh. Sure.” He arched an eyebrow, his expression the picture of disbelief. “Let me get this straight: he’s just a friend, but you’ve spent years scouring every lead, chasing after rumors, and following his trail like he’s the Maker’s chosen? Forgive me for not buying it, pup.”

    Ariana’s lips twitched into a faint smile, though her eyes betrayed a flicker of unease. “I would have done the same for you, Varric. If you’d gone missing, I’d have done everything I could to find you.”

    Varric tilted his head, his smirk softening slightly. “Would you, now?”

    “Of course I would,” she replied firmly. “If there was even the faintest chance you were out there, I wouldn’t have stopped until I found you.”

    He stopped walking, turning to face her fully, his expression unusually thoughtful. “Fair point, pup. But let’s be real—if I’d gone missing, you’d have found me in a week. Maker knows enough people owe me favors. You, though? You vanished without a trace. And don’t think I didn’t try.”

    Her steps faltered as she turned to look at him, genuine surprise flashing in her eyes. “You tried?”

    “Don’t make me say it twice,” Varric replied, his smirk returning, though it was tinged with something softer. “You’re my pup. That’s what you do for family.”

    Ariana smiled faintly, but her gaze dropped to the cobblestones, her voice quieter. “That’s what Cullen became for me, Varric. My family. After I left Kirkwall, I had no one else. He was the one person who stayed, who didn’t let me feel like I was alone.”

    Varric’s smirk faded slightly, replaced by a more serious expression. “That’s a heavy kind of friendship, pup. You sure you’re not underselling what that means?”

    She shook her head, but the distant look in her eyes remained. “I don’t know, Varric. I’ve asked myself that question so many times. I mean, there was a moment—” She paused, catching herself, the memory from years ago flashing vividly in her mind. Sitting beside him on a quiet night, wondering if what they had was more than friendship but never finding the words to ask. “I guess… Whatever this has always been between us… I wouldn’t know where to begin. We’re… just us when we’re together.”

    Varric studied her for a long moment, his gaze softer than usual. “Ariana, it sounds to me like you already know—you’re just afraid to admit it.”

    Ariana met his gaze, her lips twitching into a small, bittersweet smile. “Maybe. But I just found him again. Whatever we were before, whatever it would have become was interrupted by a Blight. For now, I’m just happy to have him back. I wouldn’t risk that friendship for anything.

    He shrugged, his smirk returning in full force as he gestured for them to keep walking. “Fair enough. But just so we’re clear, I still don’t believe you for a second.”

    Ariana couldn’t help but laugh softly, shaking her head. “Of course you don’t. You wouldn’t be Varric Tethras if you did.”

    As they continued down the street, she felt a familiar swirl of emotions bubbling under the surface—hope, fear, and something she still wasn’t sure how to name. Whatever this was between her and Cullen, it had survived years of distance, loss, and doubt. And now, she dared to believe it might finally find its way forward.

    ~~~

    When evening came, Ariana headed up to the Chantry terrace. This time, she sat on the ledge, her legs swinging over the edge in plain view so Cullen would see her. She wanted to make it clear she hadn’t simply happened upon him last night—she’d been there for days, right in front of him, and he’d never noticed.

    As Cullen approached the steps, his mind still tangled in thoughts from the night before, his gaze lifted—and there she was, perched on the ledge above. She smirked down at him, the setting sun catching the warmth in her expression. He stopped mid-step, eyebrows raised in surprise, a slow smile spreading across his face.

    “Wait,” he called up to her, amusement lacing his tone, “are you telling me you were watching me from there all this time?”

    Ariana nodded, her verdant hazel eyes gleaming with mischief. “You never looked up,” she teased, a hint of pride in her voice. “And even if you had, I had a few hiding spots.”

    Cullen chuckled, shaking his head. “Of course, you did,” he said, a wry grin tugging at his lips. “And let me guess—you waited until I went inside before leaving?”

    At that, her cheeks flushed faintly. She glanced away, trying and failing to mask her flustered reaction. “Maybe,” she admitted, her voice soft but playful.

    A knowing look crossed Cullen’s face. “You followed me into the Chantry, didn’t you?” he asked, a note of amusement creeping in.

    She tilted her head, offering a coy smile. “The balcony.”

    He squinted slightly, piecing it together. “The balcony… but how did you even manage to get up there without me noticing?”

    Her smile widened, the kind that hinted at secrets she wouldn’t be sharing. “I have my methods.”

    “Clearly,” Cullen replied, the warmth in his eyes unmistakable. He shook his head in mock disapproval, though his tone carried no real reprimand. “Next time, maybe I should just look up.”

    “Good idea,” she replied lightly, her grin widening. “You never know what you might find.”

    With a graceful hop, Ariana leapt down from the ledge, landing lightly on the stone stairs below. Cullen’s hand shot forward instinctively, his brow furrowing in alarm. “You could have broken an ankle,” he said, his voice tinged with concern.

    She waved him off with a teasing smile. “Please, Cullen. If that could break my ankle, I wouldn’t have made it through the Blight,” she quipped, feigning mock offense. A quiet chuckle escaped her as she watched his frown soften into something gentler.

    “Still,” he said, letting out a short breath, “there’s no need to tempt fate.”

    “Fate and I have an understanding,” she replied, her tone light but her smile genuine.

    After a moment’s pause, she leaned in slightly, her voice softening with hope. “Dinner tonight?” she asked, her heart fluttering faintly at the question.

    Cullen’s expression brightened, his smile widening as he nodded. “Dinner sounds… perfect,” he said warmly. “Give me an hour?”

    She grinned, a flicker of relief crossing her face. “An hour,” she agreed, stepping back with an energy in her movements that she hadn’t felt in years.

    ~~~

    As she walked away, Cullen remained at the steps for a moment longer, his gaze lingering on her retreating form. Despite the years, the distance, and the complications of their lives, he couldn’t help but feel that something unspoken was beginning to take shape between them.

    Stepping into the Chantry, he felt an unfamiliar lightness settle over him, like a heavy weight had finally been lifted from his shoulders. For years, his prayers had been heavy, filled with guilt and relentless self-recrimination. He had begged for forgiveness—for the mages he couldn’t save, for the trust he’d lost, and most of all, for the woman he believed had died during the Blight. Ariana. Her name had haunted his prayers, even when he didn’t dare to speak it aloud. But now, she was alive.

    The memory of her smile, the warmth of her presence—it filled him now with something he hadn’t felt in years: peace. He offered a quiet, heartfelt prayer of thanks to the Maker and Andraste for bringing her back to him. His words no longer a desperate plea but a genuine expression of gratitude.

    As Cullen rose, a rare smile touched his lips, lingering as he prepared to leave. His mind was already elsewhere, his thoughts drawn to her. Perhaps he’d see her again tonight. Perhaps even now.

    “Knight-Captain.” The soft but commanding voice of Grand Cleric Elthina pulled him from his reverie. She approached him, her kind but perceptive gaze taking in the ease in his posture, the spark in his eyes. “You seem… different today. Is everything alright?”

    Cullen turned to her, bowing his head respectfully. “Yes, Grand Cleric. Everything is perfectly fine.” His voice carried an unmistakable warmth, and his smile deepened. “Better than fine, in truth.”

    Elthina raised an eyebrow, her curiosity piqued. “It’s not often I see you so unburdened. You’ve carried so much on your shoulders for so long.” She hesitated for a moment, studying him. “If I may, has something happened? A prayer answered, perhaps?”

    Cullen hesitated, unsure how much to share. “You could say that,” he admitted, his tone thoughtful. “Something… unexpected, but deeply welcome.”

    Elthina’s expression softened. “You’ve rarely spoken of your burdens, but I know they’ve weighed heavily on you. And I know you’ve lost much—someone dear to you during the Blight. I hope this change brings you the peace you’ve long sought.”

    Cullen’s smile turned faintly wistful. “It does,” he said softly, the image of Ariana’s face flashing in his mind. “More than I can put into words.”

    Elthina studied him for a moment longer, her curiosity tempered by a quiet satisfaction at the evident change in him. “The Maker’s light finds us all, even when we think it lost,” she said gently. “Hold on to this, Knight-Captain. Whatever has brought you this peace—treasure it.”

    “I will,” Cullen replied firmly. “Thank you, Grand Cleric.”

    As he turned to leave, Elthina watched him with quiet wonder. The transformation in him was profound, and she couldn’t help but feel a small sense of hope herself. Whatever—or whoever—had sparked this change, it was something powerful.

    Stepping out into Hightown, Cullen’s strides were brisk and purposeful, his steps lighter than they’d been in years. He had a good idea where he’d find her. Striding quickly, he made his way in the direction of the Café d’Or. His thoughts were consumed by her—her smile, her wit, the way she made him feel whole in a way he hadn’t thought possible again. Maker, he was going to see her again, and the thought filled him with an unfamiliar but deeply welcome sense of anticipation.

    ~~~

    Ariana wasn’t in any hurry as she strolled through Hightown, her thoughts adrift in a daydream. The warmth of last night lingered in her mind, softening the edges of her world. For the first time in what felt like forever, her heart felt lighter. She couldn’t quite explain it, but the simple act of being near him again, of hearing his voice and seeing his smile, made her feel as though she had found something she hadn’t realized she’d lost. 

    Her mind wandered back to the night before, to the brief but precious moments when the Cullen she remembered had surfaced. That dark and unyielding look she had seen in his eyes before—so stark and foreign—wasn’t all that was left of him. He had demons, much like she did, but they hadn’t claimed him entirely. She could still bring him back to her. She wasn’t too late. 

    The city bustled around her, but she barely noticed it. Hightown’s gleaming facades and carefully maintained calm seemed worlds away from the turmoil in her heart. Still, she counted down the minutes until she would see him again. Just one more hour, she told herself, though the minutes dragged endlessly. 

    The sound of hurried footsteps behind her pulled her from her musings, startling her slightly. It was rare to hear anyone rushing in Hightown, where even the most pressing matters seemed to move at a stately pace. A smile tugged at her lips before she even turned around. She already knew it was him. 

    She spun on her heel, her heart skipping a beat as her suspicions proved true—Cullen, his expression a mix of purpose and excitement, was making his way toward her. 

    “I do not think it has been an hour yet,” she teased, her knowing smile tugging at him. “I am not entirely convinced it has even been more than a few minutes.” 

    His chuckle was soft, but it lit his face in a way that made her chest tighten. For a fleeting moment, he looked as though the weight of the world had slipped from his shoulders. “How would you feel about skipping dinner?” he asked, his tone carrying that familiar blend of seriousness and humor, though there was something deeper there—something she couldn’t quite name. 

    Ariana tilted her head, feigning suspicion. “Well, I would like to eat at some point. But I suppose I could settle for a hearth cake… why?” 

    “I have an idea,” he replied, a quiet hopefulness threading through his voice. 

    Her amusement deepened as she studied him. “Alright, then. What do you have in mind?” 

    Cullen’s grin widened, the corners of his eyes crinkling in a way that made her heart ache with a mix of joy and longing. There was a spark of mischief in his gaze—something she had missed deeply. “Can you be prepared for anything?” he asked, his words a deliberate echo of her birthday years ago. 

    The memory warmed her instantly, vivid and comforting. She met his gaze, excitement bubbling to the surface. “I can be,” she replied, her smile soft but eager. 

    He extended a hand toward her, threading his fingers through hers with a tenderness that sent warmth coursing through her. “Then follow me,” he said, his voice low but full of quiet promise. 

    As they began walking, Cullen made an unexpected stop at a merchant’s stall along the way, catching Ariana slightly off guard. She watched with quiet curiosity as he selected a small assortment of simple foods—bread, cheese, and a few dried fruits. He handed over a few coins and tucked the items into a satchel, glancing at her with a faint smirk. 

    “Prepared for anything also means we might need a snack,” he said, his tone light but teasing. 

    Ariana arched a brow, her smile tugging wider. “You’ve thought of everything, haven’t you? Care to tell me where we’re going?” 

    “You’ll see,” he replied, his expression unreadable but his tone teasingly evasive. 

    Her curiosity only grew, but she didn’t press him further. Instead, she let herself focus on the moment—the warmth of his hand in hers, the easy rhythm of their steps, the quiet trust that seemed to bridge the years between them. 

    As they left the city behind, the anticipation in her chest swelled. Whatever he had planned, she trusted him completely. The world around them seemed to blur, the weight of everything else falling away. For now, there was only this—the thrill of rediscovery lighting the way ahead. 

    ~~~

    Cullen led them out of the Hightown gates, his hand steady in hers as they ventured down the quiet path. The streets faded behind them, replaced by the open expanse of the coast. The faint sound of the sea drifted up to meet them, mingling with the distant cries of gulls. She still had no idea where they were going, though the mystery clearly thrilled her. He could see it in the way her fingers tightened slightly around his, her lips curving into a faint, curious smile.

    Glancing at her side, he noticed the faint glint of the small knives she carried, hidden but present. It was such a part of her now, that quiet preparedness, that readiness for anything. Yet she seemed at ease, her strides confident, trusting him completely. His chest swelled at the thought, the weight of her trust settling over him like something sacred.

    The path twisted and narrowed, hugging the cliffs until the silhouette of ancient ruins emerged against the fading light. Cullen paused for a moment, his breath catching as the sight came into view. These ruins, long forgotten by most, had been his secret. The thought of showing her had lingered in his mind for years—a faint dream he’d dismissed countless times when he believed she was gone. Now, standing beside her, he realized how wrong he’d been to think he’d never get to share this with her.

    He cast a glance at her and saw her steps slow as the ruins came into view. Her eyes widened, the sight pulling her back to a different time. He could almost see the memory flicker across her face, a reflection of the days they had spent at the elven ruins by Lake Calenhad. Her gaze softened, her lips parting as if to speak, but instead, she reached out and brushed her fingers lightly against his arm. Leaning in, she pressed a soft kiss to his cheek, her way of thanking him—just as she had all those years ago.

    “Thank you,” she murmured, her voice carrying a quiet warmth that made his chest tighten.

    Before he could reply, her curiosity carried her forward, her steps quickening toward the ancient stone structures. She moved like someone who belonged here, her fingers tracing the weathered carvings as though reading the echoes of the past.

    “You know,” she began, brushing her hand over a faint inscription, “I think these might be Tevinter ruins… though I’ll admit I’m a bit lacking in Tevinter history. There was a book I read once with markings like these…” Her voice trailed off as she leaned closer to inspect the details, her curiosity lighting her features in a way that left Cullen captivated.

    He couldn’t look away. The way she lost herself in discovery, the way the faint evening light caught her hazel-green eyes, setting them ablaze with hues of emerald and honey—it was as though the years hadn’t dulled her at all. If anything, she seemed even more radiant now, tempered by time but not diminished.

    This is what I almost gave up on, he thought, his chest tightening. What I nearly let go of.

    She turned then, her gaze shifting to the horizon as though something far beyond it had called her attention. Cullen stepped forward, his movements unhurried but instinctive. Wrapping his arms around her waist, he pulled her gently against him. She leaned into him without hesitation, her head resting lightly against his shoulder as though she’d always belonged there. He felt her sigh, a quiet, contented sound that made his heart ache with both joy and the weight of all they had lost.

    “Cullen…” she whispered, her voice quiet, hesitant.

    He tilted his head slightly, his breath warm against her temple. “Yes?”

    Her fingers traced absent patterns along his forearm, the gesture thoughtful, unintentional. “Thank you… for remembering. For… us.”

    The words struck something deep in him, raw and unguarded. He tightened his hold on her, his embrace saying what words couldn’t: that he was here, that she was here, that somehow, after everything, they had found their way back to this moment.

    “How could I ever forget?” he replied softly, resting his cheek against her hair. The faint scent of cinnamon reached him, grounding him in the reality of her presence. It wasn’t a dream, and it wasn’t a memory. She was here.

    For a long while, they stood there, the ruins and the sea bearing silent witness to what they had lost—and what they had found again. When the light began to fade, Cullen guided her to a spot among the ruins where the stone rose like natural seats. From his satchel, he retrieved the bread, cheese, and fruit he had brought, setting it between them.

    As they ate, the stars began to emerge, one by one, until the sky was alive with their glow. Ariana tilted her head back, her gaze fixed on the heavens. Cullen followed her gaze, his thoughts quiet but full.

    “Did you ever look up?” she asked softly, her voice barely above a whisper.

    He considered her words, then reached out to take her hand, his grip firm and steady. “Countless nights,” he said after a moment, his voice low. “Hoping that you could forgive me.”

    Her breath caught, and for a moment, she said nothing, her thumb brushing lightly over his hand. “Forgive you?” she asked, her voice tinged with both surprise and a gentleness that made his chest ache. “Cullen, you’ve never needed forgiveness—not from me.”

    He met her gaze, the sincerity in her eyes undoing him. He wanted to speak, to explain the weight he’d carried, but the words tangled in his throat.

    Ariana shifted closer, her free hand resting lightly on his arm, grounding him. “You never let me go, did you?” she asked, a faint smile curving her lips, though her voice held an edge of sorrow.

    “No,” he admitted, his voice rough but unflinching. “And I never will.”

    She studied him for a long moment, her expression softening. Then, to his surprise, she smiled—a quiet, bittersweet smile that carried years of understanding. “Good,” she said simply, her tone steady. “Because I never let you go either.”

    Her words soothed his guilt and regret. In that moment, as the stars watched over them, Cullen felt the weight of his burdens shift. The path ahead was still uncertain, but with her by his side, he found the courage to believe in something he thought he’d lost long ago: hope.

  • Chapter 16 – A Knight-Captain

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    The air in Kirkwall felt heavier than she remembered, as though the city itself bore the weight of its history. Ariana moved through Hightown alongside Varric, her cloak pulled tightly around her to shield against the brisk autumn breeze and the curious glances of passersby. They fell into an easy rhythm, walking without much urgency, their conversation punctuated by Varric’s good-natured teasing and her occasional dry quips.

    It reminded her of old times—of late nights in The Hanged Man, of his stories that always seemed to outshine reality. But this wasn’t nostalgia; it was a strange sort of comfort, a reminder of how much had changed and yet stayed the same.

    Varric seemed to sense her restlessness, even without her saying a word. “Don’t look so glum, Pup,” he said, nudging her with his elbow. “You’re back in the great city of chains. What more could you ask for?”

    Ariana gave him a sidelong glance, her lips twitching into a reluctant smile. “I don’t know, Varric. Maybe fewer chains? A little less gloom?”

    “Come on, it’s not that bad,” Varric replied with a grin. “Well, alright, it is. But you’re here now, and the city’s at least fifteen percent more tolerable for it.”

    The first couple of days were filled with what Varric generously called “errands.” Ariana quickly realized they were little more than excuses for him to drag her through every corner of the city, reacquainting her with the streets and subtly keeping her occupied. It wasn’t babysitting, exactly—he knew better than to imply she needed his protection—but she wasn’t oblivious to his efforts, either.

    She let him play his game, grateful in her own way. Without a clear plan to approach Cullen, the waiting gnawed at her nerves. Besides, Varric being Varric, he made even the mundane seem entertaining.

    “Alright, Pup,” he said one morning as they left a shop in Hightown, his arms laden with what he assured her were “necessary supplies.” “Next stop, Lowtown. Try not to get lost.”

    “I think I can still manage Lowtown, thanks,” she shot back. “Unless you’ve added more alleys since I’ve been gone.”

    “You’d be surprised,” Varric replied with a smirk. “Kirkwall’s nothing if not inventive with its grime.”

    Finally, on the third day, Varric’s network delivered. They were seated in his suite at The Hanged Man, a spread of papers and notes on the table between them as he laid out Cullen’s routine.

    “Your Templar isn’t exactly the unpredictable type,” he said, leaning back in his chair. “The Gallows during the day, the Chantry three nights a week, and Café d’Or when he’s feeling fancy.”

    Ariana raised an eyebrow. “Fancy?”

    Varric grinned. “Leek and potato soup. Every time.”

    She chuckled softly, shaking her head. “That’s his mother’s doing, the soup, I mean. It was good soup…”

    Varric’s grin widened. “Wait a minute. You’ve had the soup? You’ve met his mother?”

    Ariana rolled her eyes. “It’s not what you think, Varric.”

    “Pup, when you say that, it’s exactly what I think,” he teased, leaning forward with mock seriousness. “Did you bring her flowers? Compliment her curtains?”

    She groaned, swatting him lightly. “I was getting back to Lake Calenhad after escaping from Michael, and Cullen was heading home on leave. He offered to bring me along. It wasn’t like I had anywhere else to go back then—I’d barely been in Ferelden a month.”

    “And you just happened to charm the whole family while you were at it, I’m guessing?” Varric’s grin was unrelenting.

    Ariana smirked, leaning back in her chair. “What can I say? I charmed you my first night in Kirkwall too.”

    Varric let out a laugh, shaking his head. “Fair enough, Pup. Fair enough.” He studied her for a moment before leaning back, his expression softening. “So… you’re just going to sit on this, or do you have something in mind?”

    “What day is it today?” she asked, half to herself, her thoughts already spinning.

    “Wednesday,” Varric replied, watching her closely. “And judging by that look in your eye, you’re not just asking for the date.”

    She nodded slowly, a glint of determination creeping into her expression. “He goes to the Chantry tomorrow, doesn’t he?”

    Varric sighed dramatically, gesturing toward the papers on the table. “Well, Pup, if my sources are accurate—and they always are—then yes, he’ll be at the Chantry.”

    She leaned forward, her fingers brushing one of the notes as she studied it. “Tell me about Meredith. She was already Knight-Commander when I was here before the Blight, but we didn’t have much to do with the Templars then. What’s she like?”

    Varric let out a low whistle, crossing his arms. “Oh, Meredith is… something. Let’s just say she’s not exactly the warm and fuzzy type. If Cullen’s been here three years, I’m guessing she’s gotten her claws into him. She has a way of finding the ones who already walk the line and pushing them over it, molding them into her ‘ideal Templars.”

    Ariana frowned, the pieces clicking into place. “By her definition, what’s the ‘ideal Templar’? Cullen has always believed in what the Order stood for—protecting people, guiding mages, not ruling through fear. What’s different in Kirkwall?”

    Varric raised an eyebrow, his expression darkening slightly. “Kirkwall doesn’t do ‘guiding.’ The Gallows? That place is a powder keg, and Meredith’s all about keeping the lid on tight—no matter how much the pressure builds. To her, an ‘ideal Templar’ is someone who enforces her will without question. Compassion? Doubt? Those aren’t virtues in her book.”

    Ariana’s stomach sank at his words, but she pressed on. “And Cullen? Does he…?” Her voice trailed off, unable to finish the thought.

    Varric hesitated, his gaze softening. “Look, Pup, I don’t know what kind of man he was before Kirkwall, but I do know this place changes people. Maybe he still believes in those ideals you’re talking about. But here? Belief doesn’t count for much if you can’t survive.”

    The thought sent a pang through her chest, but she pushed it aside. “I’ll just have to find out for myself.”

    She leaned forward, her fingers brushing one of the notes as she studied it. “Alright. I think I have a plan.”

    Varric raised an eyebrow, his grin returning. “Oh, really? Do I get to hear it, or do I just get to sit back and watch?”

    “It’s… most of a plan,” she admitted, a small smile tugging at her lips. “I’ll have to feel it out as I go.”

    “You’re terrible at reassuring me, you know that?” Varric said with mock exasperation. “Fine, go with your ‘most of a plan.’ But don’t forget to leave some time for soup.”

    She laughed, the sound easing some of the tension that had built over the past few days. For the first time in years, hope flickered in her chest—small, fragile, but enough. Cullen might be different now, hardened by years in Kirkwall and the weight of his duty. But the thought of seeing him again, of finally closing the gap that had stood between them, made her heart beat faster.

    Whatever happened next, she knew she couldn’t wait any longer.

    ~~~

    Thursday morning passed in a blur. Ariana spent the hours with Varric, accompanying him on errands that felt more like distractions than necessities. She tried to stay present, forcing herself to listen to his stories and quips, but her restless anticipation kept her mind elsewhere. Her heart seemed to beat louder with every passing moment, her thoughts repeatedly circling back to her plan for the afternoon. I’m finally going to see him.

    By early afternoon, she left Varric behind and made her way to Hightown, clutching the excuse of shopping like a lifeline. Her usual travelers’ attire, practical and durable, would stand out far too much in this part of the city. She needed to blend in, to become just another face among the affluent residents. If she was going to watch him, she needed to look the part.

    The shops of Hightown offered an overwhelming array of options, and she moved through them with a mixture of purpose and unease. It had been years since she’d worn anything remotely fashionable. Dresses, as beautiful as some of them were, felt entirely wrong. She wasn’t here to twirl through ballrooms. She was here for him.

    Eventually, she settled on a set of armor that struck the perfect balance between practicality and elegance. The leather ensemble was beautifully crafted, reinforced in all the right places but soft enough to allow for full mobility. The coat, made of great bear hide, was rich and dark, with exquisite stitching along the edges that hinted at its quality. She layered it with a fitted vest and gloves of matching craftsmanship, adding a royal sea-silk scarf and sash for a subtle, expensive touch. The Everknit wool pants hugged her legs, providing both comfort and durability, and her thigh-high leather boots were equally functional and refined. It was an outfit that could belong to a wealthy mercenary or a well-traveled noble—not entirely out of place, but not conspicuously glamorous either.

    Satisfied with her purchases, she made her way to a quiet terrace overlooking the stairs leading to the Chantry. The late afternoon sun bathed the area in golden light, casting long shadows across the stone. A steady stream of people came and went, their chatter and footsteps blending into the ambient noise of the city. She chose a spot where she could remain inconspicuous, her vantage point partially obscured by one of the large statues that flanked the terrace. From here, she could watch without being easily noticed, her heart pounding as she scanned the steps below.

    Her thoughts raced as she waited, memories and emotions clashing in her mind. I found you, she thought, a surge of emotion threatening to break through her carefully maintained calm. She clung to the image of him as he had been—strong and kind, his smile warm and reassuring, his embrace a haven in the chaos of Ferelden. She remembered how he’d whispered they would face the Blight together, the quiet conviction in his voice when he promised to protect her.

    But those memories were years old now, their edges blurred by time and distance. The Cullen she was about to see might not be the same man who had held her on that cold night in the tavern. What if he didn’t even recognize her? The thought sent a pang of fear through her chest, but she pushed it aside. She had to know.

    And then she saw him.

    Her breath caught, and her pulse quickened as her gaze locked onto the figure ascending the stairs toward the Chantry. It was Cullen—there was no mistaking him. His golden hair caught the sunlight, and his posture, as always, exuded discipline. But something was different. The lightness she remembered had been replaced by a kind of burdened resolve. His shoulders were tense, his steps purposeful but heavy. Even from this distance, she could see the hard set of his jaw and the way his eyes scanned his surroundings with an edge of suspicion.

    Her heart cracked, a sharp, painful ache that took her breath away. What happened to you? she thought, guilt washing over her in waves. If only I’d been faster, better… if I’d convinced you to leave the Circle with me…

    She longed to run to him, to cross the distance between them and throw herself into his arms, to feel the safety of his embrace again. But she couldn’t. Not yet. He wasn’t the same Cullen she had left behind, and she wasn’t the same Ariana. The years had changed them both, and she had no idea how he would react to seeing her again.

    Keep it together, she told herself firmly, forcing her emotions back under control. She couldn’t let herself be ruled by her feelings, not now. She had to understand who he had become before she revealed herself.

    Cullen disappeared into the Chantry, and Ariana hesitated for only a moment before following. She slipped inside, keeping to the shadows as she made her way to the upper balcony. From there, she could observe him without being seen, her heart still hammering in her chest.

    She spotted him near the front of the sanctuary, his head bowed in quiet prayer. For a moment, she simply watched, her emotions threatening to overwhelm her again. This was the man she had spent years searching for, the man she had thought she might never see again. And now, he was here, just a few steps away.

    For now, all she could do was wait. The time would come to face him, but not yet. She wasn’t ready—and maybe, neither was he.

    ~~~

    Exactly as Varric’s reports had said, Cullen spent about an hour in the Chantry, his head bowed in quiet prayer. Ariana remained on the balcony, her back pressed against the cool stone pillar as she watched him below. The soft glow of candlelight flickered across his armor, lending him a distant, almost ethereal presence. She tried to piece together his thoughts from the way his shoulders moved with each breath, the tilt of his head, the reverence in his posture. The Cullen she remembered had always prayed with conviction, his faith steady and unyielding.

    Is it still the same? she wondered. Or was this faith now burdened, a desperate attempt to cling to something in the face of all he had lost?

    After some time, he rose and approached Grand Cleric Elthina near the altar. They spoke in hushed tones, their voices barely audible from where Ariana sat. She strained to listen, catching only fragments of his words—soft, hesitant, threaded with uncertainty. It was that hesitancy that struck her most. The Cullen she had known spoke with quiet confidence, always sure of his place, his duty. But now? Now, it was as though the weight of his position pressed too heavily on his shoulders.

    That flicker of softness she remembered sent a pang of hope through her heart. He’s still in there, she thought, clutching the edge of the balcony railing as if it might steady her. But the hope was fragile, tempered by the hardness she had seen earlier, the lines etched into his face. Whatever burdens he carried now had reshaped him, just as her own had reshaped her.

    When Cullen and Elthina parted ways, Ariana slipped out of the Chantry and trailed him through Hightown, keeping to the shadows. He walked with purpose, his steps brisk but measured, as if maintaining the rhythm of a man trying to avoid being late. She followed him to Café d’Or, stopping just outside to watch through the window.

    Cullen entered and took a seat near the window, facing the street but away from the door. Ariana lingered, studying his posture. He slumped ever so slightly, his shoulders no longer as rigid as they had been in the Chantry. His expression was distant, his gaze unfocused as though the world beyond the glass held no meaning for him. The subtle strain in his face—the tightened line of his jaw, the faint crease between his brows—spoke volumes. He looked defeated, as though some essential part of him had shattered and never fully mended.

    Her heart ached at the sight. What happened to you, Cullen? she thought, the question echoing in her mind like a plea she couldn’t voice.

    After a moment, she pushed open the café door, keeping her hood drawn low. She slipped into a shadowed corner, choosing a seat far enough to avoid his notice but close enough to watch him. She ordered a bottle of wine and a single glass, hoping the sharpness of the drink might steady her. But as the moments passed, her emotions swirled in a turbulent mix of sorrow and guilt. I should have been there, she thought bitterly. I should have done more.

    Cullen remained quiet as the waitress brought him his usual. She watched him take slow, deliberate sips from his glass, his eyes fixed on the world beyond the window. The waitress returned occasionally to refill his glass, but otherwise, he was alone, his silence as heavy as the look in his eyes. Ariana wanted to cross the room, to sit beside him and take his hand, to tell him she was here, that he wasn’t alone. But she couldn’t—not yet.

    You don’t even know who he is anymore, she reminded herself, clenching the stem of her glass to keep her hands steady. She fought the urge to move, to speak, to shatter the invisible barrier between them.

    When Cullen finally rose to leave, Ariana paid her tab and slipped out after him, keeping a safe distance as he walked through Hightown. The shadows of the setting sun stretched long across the streets, painting the stone in muted gold and gray. Cullen acknowledged a few Templars in passing with a curt nod and occasionally returned the respectful gestures of a noble, but otherwise, he walked alone, his head slightly bowed.

    The memories came unbidden as she followed him—quiet nights at Lake Calenhad, the way he used to look at her when they talked, his rare but genuine laugh that always made her feel safe. Now, as she watched him move through the streets of a city that seemed to mirror his own darkness, she barely recognized the man she had once known.

    They reached the edge of the docks, where the sound of crashing waves drowned out the noise of the city. She stopped, unwilling to risk following him to the Gallows. Instead, she stood at the edge of the pier, watching as his figure disappeared down the long stone path. Her chest tightened painfully, the ache that had been growing within her swelling to an almost unbearable degree.

    Where did we both go? she wondered, but the answer was already clear. They had been worn down, reshaped by forces neither of them could control. The years had not been kind to either of them.

    When she finally turned away, the walk back to The Hanged Man felt like it took hours. Her steps were heavy, her mind spinning with a thousand questions and no answers. She wanted to see Varric, to bury herself in his lighthearted banter and forget, even if just for a moment.

    But when she entered his suite, she found him already deep in conversation with someone else. She hesitated in the doorway, ready to leave, but Varric’s voice called her back.

    “Pup! Perfect timing,” he said, gesturing her over with a grin. “There’s someone I’d like you to meet.”

    Ariana barely hid her sigh, glancing down at her hands to collect herself before plastering on her practiced smile. She approached the table slowly, the weight of the day pulling at every step. Her mind was still with Cullen, her heart still caught in the moment she had seen him.

    Whatever Varric had planned, she didn’t have the energy to resist.

    ~~~

    “Well, well,” Varric began with a knowing smile, eyeing Ariana’s new attire. “Looks like someone went shopping.” He cast a curious glance over the fine stitching and quality materials, the subtle hints of wealth woven into her clothes. It didn’t escape him that these were the kind of purchases made by someone with means—a clever reminder that her Silver Rangers were doing quite well. As his mind began piecing together everything she’d said, and everything she’d carefully left out, his grin only widened.

    “Pup, I’d like you to meet a dear friend of mine,” Varric said, gesturing toward the woman seated across the table. Her dark hair framed sharp, bright eyes that practically sparkled with mischief. “This is Hawke. I think you two would get along.”

    Hawke inclined her head, her posture relaxed but confident, a small smile playing at her lips. “A pleasure to meet you.”

    Ariana returned the gesture, her own smile widening. “Ariana. Pleasure’s mine.”

    “And how do you two know each other?” Hawke asked, her tone laced with curiosity.

    Ariana shot a quick glance at Varric, who gave her a slight nod, leaving the explanation to her. “It’s a long story,” she said finally, her voice light but evasive.

    Hawke’s grin spread as she waved to the tavernkeep for another bottle of wine. “Perfect. I have all night.”

    Ariana chuckled, sharing a quick, knowing look with Varric. He was right—they are going to get along.

    As the evening wore on, Ariana spun her tale, recounting her past as a noble runaway with practiced ease. She spoke of the weight of expectations, of the gilded cage that came with her name, and her desperate need for something more than the life laid out for her. She described her escape to Ferelden, arriving shortly before the Fifth Blight swept through the land, and the harrowing struggle to survive.

    She left out any mention of the White Wolf, the Silver Rangers, or the Crimson Blades specifically, keeping her account vague and focused on the emotions rather than the details. “I ran into a group of mercenaries,” she said casually, swirling her glass of wine. “They helped me survive long enough to figure things out.”

    Varric quirked an eyebrow but didn’t interrupt. Just keep it simple enough to satisfy, or complicated enough to be interesting, he had told her once, years ago. It seemed she’d taken the advice to heart. He wasn’t entirely sure why she didn’t want Hawke to know about the Silver Rangers, but he knew better than to press the issue.

    Hawke and Ariana bonded over what it was like to run from the darkspawn horde, having both experienced it. Their conversation drifted to the terrible state of the roads, the ease of ambushes, and the constant anxiety of the journey. At one point, they realized they must have passed through Lothering around the same time, prompting them to wonder if they might have crossed paths without knowing.

    As the conversation died down, Varric broke the brief silence with an exaggerated groan, setting down his glass with a loud thud. “Alright, ladies, enough of the heavy stuff. You’re both making me feel sentimental, and that’s bad for my image.”

    Hawke smirked, leaning back in her chair. “Sentimental? You, Varric? Never.”

    “Exactly,” Varric replied, gesturing broadly at her. “So let’s get back to something more entertaining. Like, oh, I don’t know…” His grin turned devious as he turned to Ariana. “What you were doing all day?”

    Ariana sighed, trying to keep her tone light. “Just some scouting.” She hoped Varric would let it go, but she should have known better.

    “Oh, what are we scouting?” Hawke asked curiously, leaning forward.

    Varric cut in before Ariana could respond, his tone begrudging. “A certain Knight-Captain…”

    Hawke’s eyes widened, her expression shifting from curiosity to surprise. “Wait… Knight-Captain Cullen? Why?” she asked, clearly confused.

    Ariana shook her head with a small laugh. “That’s another long story…”

    “Another bottle of wine it is, then!” Hawke declared, rising from her seat and making her way back to the bar.

    Ariana couldn’t help but laugh despite herself. If nothing else, Varric and Hawke were making it easier not to dwell on everything. For tonight, at least, the weight she carried felt just a little bit lighter.

    ~~~

    Friday was a quiet day for Cullen’s movements, so Ariana spent it with Varric, making herself useful in Lowtown. She had pulled on her usual traveler’s garb, blending seamlessly into the crowd of workers and traders. The heavy smell of salt from the harbor mingled with the earthy scents of Lowtown’s bustling market stalls. It was a sharp contrast to the polished elegance of Hightown, but Ariana felt more at ease here.

    As they weaved through the narrow streets, Varric, ever observant, took the opportunity to continue last night’s conversation about her “shopping spree.”

    “So, let me get this straight,” he began, eyebrows raised. “You’re saying that whole Hightown ensemble was just for scouting purposes?” He shot her a skeptical look, the kind that only Varric could deliver with such precision. “Is that really all it was?”

    Ariana laughed, shaking her head. “Well, I had to look like I belonged. Hightown’s guard can spot a stranger a mile off, and besides, I wasn’t about to ruin all subtlety by getting myself reported to the city watch.” Her lips quirked in a smirk as she added, “I even considered a dress. But what if I had to jump a fence or scale a wall? I still need to be able to move.”

    Varric cast her a sidelong glance, his grin widening. “Sure. Not a single piece of that was to make an impression on a certain Templar?”

    Ariana chuckled, but the faint flush of color rising in her cheeks betrayed her. “Alright, maybe there’s a small part of me that wouldn’t mind him seeing that I’m alive and well.” Her voice softened slightly, the teasing note giving way to something more contemplative. “I just…” She hesitated, searching for the right words. “I never knew him as a noble. When we met, I was on the run, blending into the shadows, just surviving. Maybe…maybe I’d like him to see I’m still me, but that I survived. To reassure him, maybe. I don’t want him carrying guilt for the path I ended up on.”

    Varric’s teasing grin faded, replaced by a knowing smile. The warmth in his gaze cut through the lighthearted tone, his voice softening into something almost fatherly. “You’re allowed to want that, you know,” he said gently.

    Ariana offered a half-smile, but her eyes flicked away, her laughter tinged with uncertainty. “But at the same time, getting here, all that” she said as her hand motioned towards the Hanged Man and her new armor “also means there was a time that I had to stop looking for him. That my focus became building the Silver Rangers, rebuilding Ferelden… and myself instead of finding him. I just don’t know what’s worse, the guilt that he might have failed me, or the pain that I might have broken my promise.”

    Varric stopped, grabbing her hand pulling her to a stop. The bustling crowd flowed around them, but his steady presence seemed to ground her. “Pup, I think he’ll understand.” he said, his tone low but insistent. “You’ve been through hell and come out stronger—stronger than most people I know. So, if you want him to see that you’re alive, that you’re doing well, that you didn’t just survive the Blight but rose above it? That’s not selfish. That’s human.”

    Her breath hitched at his words, the weight of them settling deep in her chest. She met his eyes, her usual guard slipping for a moment. “I…I suppose I just don’t want him to feel like he failed me, or like he’s somehow responsible.”

    Varric chuckled softly, his hand squeezing her shoulder before dropping back to his side. “Pup, let me tell you something. This isn’t just for him. You’re not doing this just for Cullen—you need this too. And it’s alright to admit that. Deep down, I think you already know it.”

    His voice took on a lighter note, though his sincerity didn’t waver. “Besides, I’ve heard how much you’ve taken on these past few years. Always thinking about everyone else. You deserve to be seen—not just by Cullen, but by anyone who matters to you.”

    Ariana nodded slowly, his words settling into the parts of her she usually kept tightly guarded. The old memories, the weight of promises made and broken, the questions that haunted her—they all lingered, but somehow, Varric’s steady reassurance brought a calm she hadn’t expected.

    “Thank you, Varric,” she said softly, her voice barely more than a whisper but filled with sincerity.

    Varric gave her one of his rare, genuine smiles, the kind that felt like a warm hearth on a cold day. “Anytime, Pup. Now, let’s keep moving. If we stand here much longer, people are going to think we’re plotting something.”

    She laughed, shaking her head as they continued through the winding streets of Lowtown. She found herself grateful—not just for Varric’s words, but for the way he always seemed to know exactly when to say them.

    ~~~

    Saturday evening, Ariana made her way to Café d’Or earlier than usual. The streets of Hightown were alive with their usual bustle—merchants hawking their wares, noblewomen strolling in fine silks, and guards keeping a watchful eye. Yet Ariana felt a strange detachment, as if the world moved at a different pace from her own racing thoughts.

    Her boots echoed softly on the cobblestones as she approached the café. The grand facades of the surrounding buildings loomed high, their polished stone gleaming faintly in the fading sunlight. The closer she got, the heavier her chest felt, each step a reminder of the weight she carried. A hundred times, she had thought of this moment. Of finding him. Of seeing him again. But in none of her imaginings had she ever prepared for the silence that stretched between them now.

    How long had she stopped looking? After Orlais, when she had turned her focus entirely to the Rangers, had she given up hope? She clenched her fists at the thought, guilt rising unbidden. I told myself I was helping people. That it was for the greater good. She slowed her pace, her head bowed. But what if it was just an excuse? What if I failed him because it was easier to look away than to keep searching?

    The smell of fresh bread and roasted herbs wafted toward her as she reached the café. Shaking off her thoughts, she slipped inside, selecting a table near the back but with a clear line of sight to Cullen’s usual spot. The waitress approached, a woman with auburn hair and a friendly smile.

    “What can I get for you tonight?” the waitress asked.

    “Just a bottle of wine,” Ariana replied, her tone light, though her heart was anything but. She hesitated, then gestured toward a nearby table. “And if it’s not too much trouble, could you seat someone here when he arrives? Blond, tall, in Templar armor. He’s a regular.”

    The waitress raised an eyebrow but nodded. “Not a problem. He does tend to like that spot.” She leaned in conspiratorially. “Friend of yours?”

    Ariana managed a faint smile. “Something like that. Thank you.”

    As the waitress moved off, Ariana exhaled, trying to steady herself. She ordered a small meal to maintain the appearance of a casual patron, though her appetite was nonexistent. Instead, she poured herself a glass of wine, her fingers tracing the rim of the glass as she waited.

    When Cullen arrived, she spotted him immediately. He moved with purpose, yet there was an underlying heaviness to his steps. He settled into the seat she had arranged, his back to her, and began his usual routine: the same meal, the same silence, his gaze turned outward, looking at everything and nothing.

    Ariana’s eyes remained fixed on him, her heart a steady thrum in her chest. Tonight, she was closer than before, close enough to catch the faintest whisper of words as his head bowed slightly. She leaned forward, her breath catching in her throat as she strained to hear.

    “Maker, forgive me,” he murmured, his voice low and raw.

    The words hung in the air, soft yet heavy with anguish. A pang of worry twisted in her chest. Forgive him for what? she wondered. But before she could make sense of it, something else caught her eye—a glint of white in his hand. Her breath hitched as recognition struck. The Halla pendant.

    Her pulse quickened, emotion swelling like a tidal wave. He kept it. All these years, and he still had it. The sight of the amulet brought a mixture of joy and sorrow so potent it nearly overwhelmed her. She wanted to cry out, to run to him, to demand to know why he prayed for forgiveness when all she felt was her own guilt.

    When Cullen rose to leave, Ariana quietly slipped from the café behind him, maintaining a careful distance. The streets of Hightown were quieter now, the soft glow of lanterns casting long shadows across the cobblestones. Her footsteps were silent, her training guiding her instinctively as she followed him through the narrow alleys and open streets, her pulse quickening with each turn.

    Her focus was absolute, her eyes never leaving his figure ahead of her. He moved with the same determined stride, yet there was a heaviness to it, as though the weight of the world pressed down on his shoulders. How did it come to this? she wondered, guilt twisting in her chest. I left you to face it all alone.

    As they neared the docks, the cool breeze carried the briny scent of the sea. The sound of waves lapping against the harbor filled the quiet, punctuated by the occasional creak of ships swaying in their moorings. Cullen’s pace slowed slightly, and Ariana adjusted hers, keeping to the shadows of the towering warehouses and crates stacked along the edges of the docks.

    Then, suddenly, the sharp sound of footsteps echoed from a nearby street. Cullen’s head turned sharply, his movements quick and alert. Ariana’s heart stopped as his gaze swept across the area, his eyes scanning for the source of the noise. Her position, precariously close, left her little room for error.

    She pressed herself into the shadows of a nearby alley, her back against the cold, damp wall. Her breath caught in her throat, her pulse racing as she fought to remain perfectly still. The sound of Cullen’s boots shifted, his steps purposeful as he moved closer to investigate. For a moment, she thought she was caught, her carefully laid plans crumbling before they’d even begun.

    Peeking out cautiously from her hiding place, she caught a clear view of his face, illuminated faintly by a flickering lantern. His features, once familiar, now seemed sharper, etched with strain and exhaustion. But it was his eyes that struck her most. They were dark, unforgiving, and filled with turmoil—a storm of emotion that had long since drowned any trace of the Cullen she had known.

    Her chest tightened painfully, the weight of his gaze—even from a distance—pressing down on her like a physical force. What have they done to you? she thought, her fingers brushing against the rough stone for support. The Cullen she remembered had been kind, steadfast, a calming presence in the chaos of her world. Now, she saw only a man carrying a heavy burden, his every movement weighed down by unseen chains.

    As he turned back toward the docks, satisfied that nothing was amiss, Ariana let out a silent breath of relief. She remained in the alley for a few moments longer, watching as he disappeared into the distance. Her mind raced, torn between the overwhelming urge to go to him and the knowledge that she needed to wait. Not like this, she told herself, the words a fragile mantra against the storm of emotions swirling within her.

    Pushing off the wall, she turned back toward Lowtown, her steps heavy with the conflict in her heart. Tomorrow, she resolved, her jaw tightening with determination, her heart steadying with newfound resolve. Tomorrow night, when the café would be quieter. She would ensure they were alone. Now all she could do was hope that she would ease his burdens. That if any of the darkness in his eyes was due to her, that maybe she could bring him back.

    ~~~

    Sunday evening, Ariana dressed in her newly acquired armor, the soft leather fitting perfectly against her frame. The ensemble was a deliberate choice, crafted to blend seamlessly into Hightown’s elite. Yet tonight, it served another purpose: to face him, not as a shadow hidden away, but as someone who could stand before him, equal and unyielding.

    The events of the previous night weighed heavily on her. The memory of his eyes—dark, unforgiving, and filled with turmoil—haunted her thoughts. The Cullen she remembered had been compassionate, a steady presence who had given her strength when she had none. Seeing him so burdened now, so far removed from the man she knew, made her heart ache. If there was any chance she could ease his suffering, even a little, she had to try.

    Returning to her spot by the Chantry stairs, she waited. Her gaze was steady, but inside, her nerves frayed with every passing moment. She played out countless scenarios in her mind, imagining how he might react. Would he be angry? Relieved? She forced herself to focus, to stay calm. Timing was everything.

    Soon, she saw him approaching, his steps deliberate but heavy, his shoulders set yet somehow tired. She held her breath as he ascended the stairs and disappeared inside the Chantry. Only then did she move, descending the steps with purpose.

    At Café d’Or, she stepped inside and approached the owner, her voice quiet but firm. A handsome tip accompanied her request. “I need the restaurant empty for the evening,” she explained. “Except for one guest. The Knight-Captain.” The proprietor and waitress exchanged glances, curiosity flashing in their expressions, but the coin she offered silenced any questions. They assured her it would be done.

    Settling into the same shadowed table she had chosen the night before, Ariana ordered a bottle of wine and a small meal, blending in as best she could. She asked the waitress to linger near her when Cullen arrived, masking her presence among the empty tables. It was all carefully orchestrated, every detail meticulously planned, yet her heart hammered as if none of it would be enough. She would wait until he ordered his usual, until the moment his wine needed refilling. When the waitress would approach with the bottle, Ariana would follow behind, hide her steps behind the waitress.

    She stared at the empty chair across from her, imagining him sitting there, the weight of his anguish laid bare between them. What if I can’t reach him? she thought, the doubt creeping in despite her resolve. The memory of his eyes, so distant and unyielding, surfaced again. What if I’m too late?

    But then she remembered the Halla amulet he had held the night before, the glint of it in his hand as he whispered his prayer. He kept it, she reminded herself, holding onto that sliver of hope. He hasn’t forgotten.

    The door opened, and her breath caught. Cullen walked in, his expression as weary as the night before, his movements measured. The proprietor greeted him warmly, guiding him to his usual seat. If he noticed the emptiness of the café, he didn’t show it. His gaze was distant, his thoughts clearly elsewhere.

    Ariana’s heart pounded as she watched him settle in, order his usual meal and a glass of wine. She could feel the tension in her chest, the weight of years pressing down on her as she waited. Her breathing was shallow, each moment stretching unbearably as she rehearsed the words she would say, the words she had carried with her for so long.

    Finally, the waitress approached his table, the wine bottle in hand. This was the moment. Ariana rose quietly, her steps purposeful but silent as she followed the server to his table. She could see him more clearly now, the faint lines etched into his face, the strain in his shoulders, the quiet pain he carried like armor.

    The server poured his wine, and Ariana took a final step forward. Her voice broke the silence, soft yet firm, a gentle echo of their first meeting. “Mind if I join you?”

    Cullen froze, his hand pausing mid-reach for his glass. Slowly, almost hesitantly, he turned to face her. His eyes widened, disbelief etched into his features. For a moment, he simply stared, as though struggling to reconcile the sight before him with the memories he thought he had buried.

    “Ariana…” he whispered, her name escaping his lips like a prayer, heavy with the weight of the years between them.

    The sound of her name in his voice, that same reverent softness she had always cherished, made her heart ache. There was something in his tone, a quiet yearning, a fragility she hadn’t expected. She managed a small, tentative smile, her voice steady despite the storm raging within her.

    “I promised I would find you,” she said, her words carrying the weight of every mile, every year. “I’m sorry it took me so long.”

    ~~~

    Cullen’s heart ached, the kind of ache that seemed to come from the very marrow of his being. He stared at her, frozen, torn between disbelief and longing. He thought the visions had ended. Mostly. Lately, she only appeared in dreams—or nightmares. Yet here she was, standing before him, her voice still echoing in his ears, pulling at every frayed thread of his resolve.

    “No,” he murmured under his breath, the word carrying the weight of all his denial. His eyes shadowed with disbelief. No…this cannot be real. His mind recoiled against the sight, the sound, everything. She died in Crestwood. He cursed himself silently, his hand clenching into a fist at his side. How could I let this happen? How could I let the visions creep back in?

    “Begone, demon,” he said aloud, his voice low but firm, iron lacing the edges of his tone. He met her gaze, as if daring the specter to challenge him. “Have you not tortured me enough? You are not real.”

    Ariana froze, the words lancing through her. She’d prepared herself for countless possibilities—anger, disbelief, even joy. But this? She chastised herself for rushing this moment, for underestimating the depth of his pain. Her voice wavered only for a second before she steadied herself, willing it to remain calm. Her words, soft yet firm, carried a quiet finality.

    “As you wish,” she replied simply, her eyes dropping slightly as she turned away. “Goodbye, Cullen.”

    The sound of her voice, the tone of her farewell—it struck something deep within him, something raw and unsettling. None of his visions had ever acted like this before. They mocked him, taunted him, clung to him like shadows refusing to fade. But this? No vision had ever honored his wish. No hallucination had ever walked away.

    “Wait,” he said, his voice rough and desperate as he stood, reaching out. His hand caught her wrist, the contact firm but gentle, as though anchoring himself to the moment. She stumbled slightly at the suddenness of his grip, but she stopped, turning back to meet his gaze.

    Now face to face, Cullen’s breath hitched. He studied her, every detail burned into his memory: the curve of her cheek, the slight tilt of her head, the familiar depth in her eyes. It was her. Not some cruel fabrication of his mind. Her. His grip loosened as his hand trembled slightly.

    “Is it really you?” he whispered, barely audible, his voice a mix of awe and disbelief. “You’re…alive?”

    Ariana’s brow furrowed in confusion for just a moment before she saw the truth in his expression. The anguish in his eyes, the weight he carried—it told her everything. He had truly believed her dead, had buried her memory under layers of guilt and sorrow. Something had convinced him beyond all doubt that she was gone.

    “Cullen,” she said softly, stepping closer as her free hand rested gently on his arm. Her touch was grounding, steady, just as he had once been for her. “Of course I’m alive. I promised I would make it through.” Her voice was soothing, filled with quiet conviction. “We vowed to survive the Blight. I kept that vow.”

    The last of Cullen’s resistance crumbled in an instant. He pulled her into his arms, holding her with a desperation that bordered on fear, as if letting her go even slightly would mean losing her all over again. His face buried itself in her hair, and for a moment, the faint scent of cinnamon surrounded him—a scent that had lingered in his memories for years.

    It was real. She was real.

    The memories rushed over him: the nights spent talking under the stars, her laughter brightening even the darkest moments, the quiet strength she carried despite the weight on her shoulders. All the moments he thought were gone forever, now vivid again with her warmth in his arms.

    “Ariana,” he murmured against her hair, his voice trembling. “I thought…I thought I had lost you. Maker, I thought I would never see you again.”

    She held him just as tightly, her hand moving to the back of his neck in a gentle, grounding touch. “Cullen,” she murmured, her voice soft but unwavering. “I’m here. I never stopped trying to find you.”

    Her words wrapped around him like a balm, soothing the raw edges of his pain. The ache in his chest, the guilt he had carried since the day he convinced himself she was gone—it all seemed to ease, if only for this moment. He closed his eyes, letting the reality of her presence tether him to this moment.

    After a long silence, he loosened his hold, pulling back just enough to meet her eyes again. He searched her face with an intensity that carried all the questions and fears he hadn’t yet spoken. “How?” he asked, his voice barely above a whisper. “How did you survive it all?”

    Ariana smiled faintly, her fingers brushing against his cheek. “The same way you did,” she said softly, her voice steady and sure. “One day, one step, one promise at a time.”

    Her words settled over him, a quiet reassurance that chased away the darkest shadows in his heart. For the first time in years, Cullen allowed himself to believe that maybe—just maybe—there was still light left in his world.

    ~~~

    After what felt like an eternity, Cullen finally released her—well, almost. He kept her hand clasped tightly in his, as though letting go might make her vanish. Gently, he led her back to the table, where she subtly signaled to the waitress to bring her food and wine over to join him. With a quiet nod, she indicated for the staff to leave both open bottles and even an unopened one, then dismissed both the waitress and the proprietor with a silent plea to leave them undisturbed.

    It wasn’t until the weight of the silence settled around them that Cullen, still lost in disbelief and wonder, finally looked around, noticing the empty Café. His brow furrowed in confusion. “What… where did everyone go?”

    Ariana let out a soft laugh, a sound that seemed to bring light to the dim room. “There never were any other patrons, Cullen,” she admitted, a hint of mischief in her eyes. “I may have… arranged for us to have the place to ourselves.”

    His eyes widened in mild surprise, a faint smile tugging at the corner of his lips. “I should have known,” he murmured, shaking his head, though his gaze softened with a warmth he hadn’t felt in years.

    Ariana shrugged lightly, the playful spark in her eyes growing. “I wasn’t going to leave this to chance.”

    They sat, still holding hands across the table reunited after what seemed like a lifetime apart. The candlelight flickered between them, casting soft shadows across his face, illuminating the lines that had settled there over the years—the lines of hardship, of worry, of loss.

    Cullen’s fingers tightened around hers, as if afraid to let go. “I thought of you every day,” he admitted quietly, his voice a whisper just for her. “You kept me going through everything that came after… through everything here.”

    Ariana’s expression softened, her thumb brushing over his hand in a gentle caress. “I know, Cullen,” she replied, her voice steady yet tender. “I felt it too… and it’s how I survived”

    Ariana met his gaze, her eyes a swirl of emotions that had built over years of searching, hoping, and barely holding on. She took a deep breath, her voice unsteady but determined to share as much of the truth as she could bear.

    “I searched everywhere for you, Cullen… Ferelden, Orlais—I combed every town, followed every rumor. I thought maybe, just maybe, the Templar Order would know something. Maker, I even tried asking at other Circles…” She paused, her eyes clouding with frustration as she struggled to explain. “But I was just… chasing shadows. And then the blight swept over villages, consuming everything in its path. Surviving was hard enough, I tried to get back to you after Crestwood flooded but it wasn’t easy, Ferelden fell into chaos around me.”

    Cullen watched her, his expression torn between sorrow and something else—something fierce. The weight she carried was clear in her voice, in the way she spoke of the past years as if recounting a battle she barely survived. He could see it all, the strength she’d had to summon just to keep going and the pain buried beneath it.

    “Ari…” His voice was a gentle plea, his hand closing around hers, warm and grounding. “Talk to me,” he urged softly, feeling the old, unbreakable urge to protect her as though no time had passed. Whatever darkness he had endured, seeing her here, alive, replaced it all with that unshakable devotion.

    She took a shuddering breath, unable to meet his eyes fully. She’d never tell him everything—Krieger, the Crimson Blades, what he had done to her in those days she was at his mercy. How it was thoughts of him, of finding him that had given her the strength to survive that. To not bend to Krieger’s will. She wouldn’t burden Cullen with that pain. But she couldn’t quite hide the ache beneath her carefully chosen words.

    “I survived, Cullen… barely. There were times when the darkspawn got too close, when I didn’t know if I’d see another dawn. But I kept going. I told myself I needed to survive. I needed to find you,” she said quietly, her voice tinged with a deep sadness. “Even after the blight, I thought maybe you’d be in Ferelden. I thought you’d… maybe left word, anything I could follow. But the Order they were so careful not to say a thing. And I just… I ran out of options.”

    Her voice wavered, exhaustion creeping in, now that he was here in front of her and all those years were pressing down on her at once. She didn’t want him to know just how close she had come to giving up, or how she had nearly lost herself completely in the darkness. But looking at him now, she felt that veil slipping.

    Cullen’s eyes softened, his fingers tracing slow, gentle circles over her hand, a silent reminder that he was here, that he’d listen to every word she had to say if she needed him to. She saw the strain in his face too, though, as though he too was carrying a darkness that weighed heavily on him.

    “After all you’ve been through,” he murmured, his voice filled with admiration but edged with sorrow, “you still kept looking. For me.”

    Ariana managed a faint smile, though it was tinged with the frustration and heartache of all the years between them. “I told you, Cullen… I vowed to survive the blight, to find you, and I wasn’t about to break that promise. Not to you.”

    He swallowed, emotions thick in his throat. “You’re here now,” he said softly, an almost reverent wonder in his voice, as though he couldn’t believe it even as he held her hand.

    “Only by sheer luck,” she admitted, trying to let a bit of lightness into her tone but faltering. “If it weren’t for Varric, I don’t think I’d have ever found you… and even then, I nearly lost hope. All those years, Cullen, and not one word from you.”

    Cullen’s grip tightened, regret flashing in his eyes. “I thought… I thought you were gone, Ari. I was certain of it,” he whispered, his voice breaking slightly. “They told me Crestwood… they told me it was lost.”

    She started to piece together now the events that led to him thinking she was dead. The last note she ever left him said she would wait in Crestwood as long as she could. Afterwards, it took her almost two months to make it back and by then…he was gone. I failed him, he never got word from me I was alive…

    She looked at him then, her eyes holding his with a softness she’d held onto all these years. “I’m here,” she said, gently reminding him. “I’m here, and we’re both alive.”

    As they sat together in the quiet Café, surrounded by the lingering glow of candlelight, Ariana felt a warmth returning, a sense of calm settling over the storm of years. They were finally here—together, after everything. And for now, that was enough.

    ~~~

    It was a good thing she’d ordered that extra bottle of wine. Once the barriers between them fell, it was as if the years apart hadn’t happened at all. Hours slipped by as they talked and laughed, finding comfort in one another. They skirted around the darker parts of their journeys, each instinctively choosing to spare the other the worst of it. Instead, they fell back into who they used to be—two friends who could find light, even in the bleakest hours.

    Eventually, the time came for them to leave the café, but neither was willing to part ways just yet. So, hand in hand, they walked through Hightown and toward the docks, their footsteps slow and unhurried. The city was quiet in the late evening, and the empty streets lent a sense of calm that felt like a gift.

    As they strolled, Cullen squeezed her hand, glancing over with a hint of a smirk. “So, Varric Tethras was your ‘friend’ all along?” he asked, nudging her slightly.

    For a brief moment, her face flickered with panic, and she replayed their conversation in her mind. She’d let Varric’s name slip earlier. Maker, he’s going to kill me. She sighed heavily, raising her eyes to the night sky. “Please, don’t ever repeat that, Cullen. Varric would… be severely disappointed in me.” Her tone was half-serious, but she knew Varric would never let her live it down.

    To her surprise, Cullen laughed—really laughed, a sound she hadn’t heard in so long that it warmed her to her core. “He’ll never hear it from me,” he promised, his eyes twinkling with the familiar warmth that melted away the years between them. “You have my word.”

    He squeezed her hand, his expression turning thoughtful. “But you know… I can’t help but wonder how exactly you came to befriend the infamous Varric Tethras in the first place.”

    She glanced at him, a knowing look in her eyes. “You realize I really shouldn’t be telling you that.”

    Cullen’s brow quirked in response, though his smile lingered. “Oh? So it’s quite the tale, then?”

    “Let’s just say…” she paused, weighing her words with a sly smile, “that Varric was exactly the person I needed when I came to Kirkwall, back before the blight. I was… alone, in a new world, afraid, hiding…” She chuckled softly. “And it seems Varric has a thing for lost causes.”

    She felt him watching her, his gaze a mixture of curiosity and warmth. With a sigh, she continued, the words coming easier than she’d expected. “I came to him with a little money, no plan, no friends. The trader who gave me passage here gave me his name, told me Varric could help me, especially in a place like Kirkwall. So I thought he could help me stay hidden. And… he did, in his own way. He gave me something to do, someone to trust. And that was more than I’d hoped for.”

    Cullen’s hand tightened around hers, grounding her, as if he wanted to hold onto her past just as much as her present. “He sounds like a good friend.”

    “He is,” she said softly, looking up at him, feeling the strength of his presence next to her. “But he’s not you, Cullen. No one was ever… you.”

    They walked on in silence for a moment, the weight of the years lifting a little with each step. In that quiet space, she felt a sense of belonging she’d been missing since the day they’d parted.

    ~~~

    Neither Ariana nor Cullen realized they were being watched. From a discreet distance, Varric and Hawke trailed behind them, keeping a close eye as they walked from the Café toward the docks. Varric had sworn he was just keeping tabs on his “Pup,” making sure she was safe. Hawke, however, seemed to find the whole thing hilariously amusing.

    “Oh, look at them, Varric! Aren’t they adorable?” she teased, nudging him with a grin. “Here I thought you were the master of all love stories in this town, and yet you can’t handle a little romance.”

    Varric’s scowl deepened, muttering under his breath. “It’s not that, Hawke. It’s… he’s probably not good enough for her, alright?”

    Hawke let out a laugh, clearly reveling in his discomfort. “Face it, Varric. She’s grown up—and as much as you hate to admit it, Cullen makes her happy. You don’t get a say….dad”

    Varric grumbled something incoherent, shaking his head. He’d spent months reading Ariana’s letters pining for this Templar, and now that she’d found him, he was annoyed to find he couldn’t bring himself to trust the guy. But even he had to admit that Cullen, walking beside her with the gentlest of smiles, looked like a completely different man than the Knight-Captain he knew. Ariana’s presence seemed to melt away the hard lines of duty on Cullen’s face.

    Varric looked away, clearly wrestling with himself. “The girl’s got no sense. Did you hear her tell him about me? Maker’s breath, what was she thinking?” he muttered. “I trained her to keep her stories short, to not trust too quickly, and all it takes is one knight in shining armor to make her forget every rule.”

    “Oh, come on, Varric,” Hawke grinned, thoroughly enjoying his fatherly rant. “I think it’s sweet. And face it, Tethras, Cullen’s got you beat.”

    The dwarf shot her a withering glare. He looked back at Ariana and Cullen, unable to keep the faintest trace of a smile from tugging at his mouth as Cullen squeezed her hand, and she responded with a shy, bright smile of her own. “She’s happy, and Maker help me… maybe he is too.”

    Hawke leaned in, her grin wicked. “See? That wasn’t so hard to admit. You know, for a second there, you almost looked proud of her.”

    Varric rolled his eyes. “Proud? Maybe,” he sighed, begrudgingly. “But mostly annoyed.” And as they continued watching from a distance, he muttered under his breath, “If he breaks her heart, he’ll have Bianca to answer to, I swear.”

    ~~~

    As she watched Cullen drift away into the night, Ariana’s heart swelled with a quiet joy. They were still… them. Somehow, despite the years and the weight of everything they’d endured separately, they could still find each other. Together, they could overcome anything—that much she was certain of. Smiling softly to herself, she began the familiar walk back to the Hanged Man, the night’s memories keeping her warm against the cool Kirkwall air.

    But as she made her way through the docks toward Lowtown, two familiar figures appeared from the shadows—Varric and Hawke, stepping out as if they’d been waiting for her. Ariana stopped, a bit startled, then raised an eyebrow in amused suspicion. “And what exactly is going on here?”

    Right on cue, Varric launched into a tirade. “You told him about me? After everything I’ve taught you?!” His eyes were wide, almost scandalized, though Ariana could see the affection beneath the bluster.

    Ariana’s suspicion grew as she glanced between them, realizing they’d been following her. She turned her gaze to Hawke, arms crossed. “Really? You’re supposed to be the adult here, and yet you chose to be an accomplice?”

    Hawke shrugged, an impish smile spreading across her face. “Believe me, I tried. But you know Varric—when he’s determined, there’s no stopping him.”

    The two women shared a quick laugh, the kind of warm camaraderie that eased some of Ariana’s lingering nerves. But Varric wasn’t about to let her off the hook that easily.

    “Hey, don’t change the subject, Pup,” he said, looking thoroughly aggrieved. “After all my careful coaching, you go and give a Templar my name. Templars, Ariana. They’re trouble.”

    Ariana bit back a smirk, lifting her chin in mild defiance. “Oh, come on, Varric. It’s not like you’re a mage, and besides, everyone knows Varric Tethras, Merchant Prince of Kirkwall.” She raised an eyebrow, an amused glint in her eye. “He already knew your name—just not that you knew me.”

    Hawke grinned, leaning in with an encouraging nod. “She’s got a point, Varric.”

    Varric glared at them both, muttering something about “smart-mouthed nobility and meddling rogues,” but Ariana caught the warmth in his eyes. She’d struck a nerve—he was worried, yes, but deep down, he was glad to have her back, even if it meant tolerating a Templar in her life.

    “Getting involved with a Templar is trouble, it’s all I’m saying” Varric added almost sounding defeated.

    Ariana held back a smirk, meeting Varric’s fatherly glare with a familiar deflection, the same words she and Cullen had used to keep everyone at bay back in Ferelden. “I’m not involved with him,” she said innocently, keeping her expression perfectly neutral. “He’s just a friend.”

    Hawke let out a delighted laugh, nudging Varric with an elbow. “Just a friend, huh? Sure doesn’t look that way from here.”

    Varric huffed, shaking his head, but his expression softened. “Just… be careful, alright?” he muttered, his tone all protective affection, his eyes lingering on her with a worry he didn’t try to hide.

    Ariana placed a hand on his arm, giving him a reassuring squeeze. “Always, Varric.” She paused, her expression softening. “Thank you—for everything.”

    Varric sighed but offered her a half-smile. “That’s what family’s for, right?”

  • Chapter 15 – Back to Kirkwall

    21 Solace – 15 Harvestmere 9:33

    Over the following months, the Rangers threw themselves into a new rhythm of work and restoration. Whenever they weren’t out on jobs, they could be found at the manor, steadily transforming the once-neglected estate into something livable, even grand. The once-overgrown grounds began to take shape, the stables hummed with activity as they were repurposed into a smithy, and the training grounds, marked with fresh footprints and battle-scars, became a lively hub of camaraderie and skill-building.

    But for Ariana, the heart of the manor lay not in the stables or the training yard—it was the library. From the moment she discovered it, tucked away behind a pair of heavy wooden doors, she knew it would be her sanctuary.

    The room was a treasure trove, though time had left its mark. Shelves sagged under the weight of dusty tomes, some warped with age and damp. Cobwebs adorned the corners like lace, and scattered debris hinted at years of neglect. But despite its condition, the library was astonishingly well-stocked, and Ariana’s heart quickened at the sight of so much knowledge preserved. She resolved, then and there, to restore it to its former glory.

    Every moment she spent at the manor became an opportunity to breathe life back into the library. By day, she worked alongside the others, helping where needed, but by evening, she slipped away to the quiet solitude of her project. She started small, carefully removing books from the most damaged shelves, dusting their covers, and gently cleaning the pages. Some were beyond repair, but others revealed treasures—histories of Ferelden, tales of Orlais, maps of lands she’d never seen, and even rare volumes on magic and the Fade.

    She enlisted the help of Riley and a few others to repair the shelves themselves. Riley, naturally, teased her about her obsession. “You know, Wolf, the training yard could use a little of your attention, too. Unless you plan to defend yourself with books now?”

    Ariana smirked, brushing a streak of dust from her cheek. “A sharp mind is as important as a sharp blade, Riley. You should try it sometime.”

    Riley laughed, shaking her head. “If you say so. Just don’t get buried under there, alright?”

    Whenever Ariana left the manor for a job, she made a point to visit markets and bookshops along the way, searching for anything to expand the collection. Over time, she began to develop a reputation among merchants in the area as a voracious collector of rare texts, and word of her interest spread. Rangers returning from jobs started bringing books as gifts—some practical, some sentimental, and some purely for amusement.

    “You might like this one, Wolf,” Aldor said once, handing her a book on the flora and fauna of the Frostbacks. “Figured it’d help if we get lost up there again.”

    “Or this one,” Floriana offered with a sly grin, passing her a collection of exaggerated romance tales. “Thought it might be your taste. You know, for inspiration.”

    Ariana rolled her eyes, but she kept them all. Every book, regardless of subject, was a step closer to building something lasting, something greater than herself.

    Little by little, the library took shape. Shelves stood sturdy again, their wood polished and shining. The room itself, once dim and neglected, now felt alive, bathed in the soft light of restored windows and warmed by the crackling fireplace. A table in the center became a gathering place for planning, studying, or simply sharing stories over a drink.

    For Ariana, the library was more than just a project; it was a symbol of hope, a testament to what they were building together. It wasn’t just about rebuilding walls and shelves—it was about rebuilding lives, creating a space where knowledge and community could thrive. Each book on those shelves told a story, and together, they were weaving their own.

    ~~~

    The night air was cool, the fire crackling softly as the Rangers gathered around, their faces illuminated by the dancing flames. A cask of ale sat open, mugs being filled and refilled as laughter and tales of triumph flowed freely. Ariana sat slightly apart from the others, leaning against a log with her arms draped over her knees. Her gaze was fixed on the fire, her fingers absently playing with the leather choker around her neck, the pendant of the Visus constellation glinting in the firelight.

    Noticing her silence, Riley smirked and leaned forward. “Alright, Wolf. That necklace you’re always fiddling with—does it actually mean something, or are you just trying to hypnotize us?”

    Ariana looked up, caught off guard by the question, but a small smile tugged at her lips. “It does,” she said softly. “A friend gave it to me.”

    Riley snorted. “Oh, no. You’re not getting away with that kind of answer. Spill.”

    Ariana laughed, shaking her head. “He gave it to me because the Visus constellation… it meant something to me. It was its stars that set me on this path.”

    Linnea, sitting cross-legged across the fire, tilted her head. “What path? You can’t just drop that and expect us to move on.”

    Ariana hesitated, her fingers still on the pendant. “You’re all going to think I’m crazy if I tell you.”

    Lamberto leaned back with an exaggerated groan. “Well, now you have to tell us. Crazy or not, we’re listening.”

    The group began cheering in unison, “Story! Story! Story!” Their mugs clinked against each other in encouragement.

    Ariana laughed, raising her hands to quiet them. “Fine, fine. But if you all mutiny because you don’t like the story, remember I can probably take you. All.”

    “There’s always a chance of that,” Valentina quipped, her voice dry as she took another sip of ale.

    Shaking her head in mock exasperation, Ariana let out a sigh. “Alright. It was Summerday 9:29…” She paused, letting her voice soften as the memories spilled out. She spoke of the ball, Frederick, the engagement she wanted no part of, and finally sitting on her balcony, looking up at the night sky, desperate for a sign. “The star in the center of the Visus constellation flickered,” she said, her voice quiet with emotion, “as if answering me. ‘Run,’ it seemed to say. So I did. I packed whatever I thought I’d need and left that night.”

    “Wait, that’s how you ended up with us?” Riley asked incredulously.

    Ariana shrugged, a grin tugging at her lips. “Partly. I found passage on a ship headed to Kirkwall. That was my first stop.”

    Her smile grew warmer as she described meeting the ship’s captain, Berthold, and the voyage that brought her to Kirkwall. “When we arrived, Berthold told me to seek out a man by the name of Varric Tethras.”

    Malcolm’s brow furrowed as he leaned forward. “Varric Tethras? The dwarf with all the connections? I’ve heard tales of him.”

    Ariana chuckled, shaking her head. “If you ever meet him, don’t tell him I told you his name was getting around. He hates that.” Her grin turned fond. “But yes, Varric. He took me under his wing, taught me how to survive, how to navigate the world. He became like a second father to me.”

    “So how did you end up in Ferelden?” Lamberto asked, clearly trying to piece it together.

    Ariana tilted her head. “Ah, well, my father actually found me in Kirkwall. It was a coincidence, but he warned me I wasn’t safe there. Too close to Ostwick, too obvious with mercenaries out looking for me. So Varric and I came up with a plan. Ferelden was far enough away.”

    “I still don’t see how the necklace fits into all this,” Eshara said, her curiosity piqued.

    Ariana smiled, the memory bittersweet. “Before I left, I wanted to give him something to thank him for everything. I found a leather bracelet engraved with the Visus constellation and gave it to him.” Her fingers brushed over the pendant. “The day I left, he gave me this. He said it might help our journeys bring us back together someday.”

    Her voice faltered for a moment as tears welled up in her eyes. She took a deep breath, clearing her throat. “I really should have been a better ‘adopted’ daughter and let him know I survived the Blight.”

    “Yeah, you should,” Riley said with mock seriousness, though her tone softened when Ariana glanced her way. “But, hey. Now that you’re here Wolf, maybe Visus will make good on that promise.”

    The group raised their mugs again, this time in silent acknowledgment of the story—and of Varric, the man who had been there at the start of it all. The fire crackled, its warmth seeping into the cool night as the stars above twinkled, the Visus constellation watching over them.

    ~~~

    The crisp autumn air carried a cool breeze, ruffling the leaves that still clung stubbornly to the trees along the road.The Rangers had made their way to Orlais, looking into a potential contract they’d been vetting for weeks. With their foothold in the region growing stronger, jobs like this were becoming more frequent—a merchant caravan headed from Lydes to Val Royeaux, its wares valuable enough to warrant additional protection.

    “Low risk, easy coin,” Riley had declared when the job was finalized, though Ariana had merely raised a skeptical brow at the proclamation. Now, with the caravan trundling along the dirt road, the wagons creaked under their heavy loads, and the horses snorted in the cool air. Ariana walked near the lead wagon, her steps light and casual, while Riley trudged alongside her, her sword strapped across her back.

    “See?” Riley said, gesturing at the peaceful road ahead. “I told you. This is the kind of job we need more of. Nice and boring. No surprises.”

    Ariana shot her a sidelong glance, her lips curving into a faint smirk. “You just cursed the whole thing. You know that, right?”

    Before Riley could retort, a sharp whistle cut through the air. It was followed by the unmistakable sound of arrows zipping past. One thunked into the side of the lead wagon, sending the horses into a brief panic.

    “Right,” Riley muttered, drawing her massive two-handed sword with a resigned sigh. “Of course. Should’ve kept my mouth shut.”

    The attackers emerged from the surrounding hills—another mercenary company, heavily armed and clearly confident. They charged the caravan from both sides, shouting war cries and waving weapons.

    Ariana’s daggers flashed into her hands as she gave a quick shout to the Rangers. “Form up! Protect the wagons!”

    The Rangers moved with precision, falling into formation. Riley planted herself near the lead wagon, her sword resting on her shoulder as she surveyed the attackers with an exasperated expression.

    “This was supposed to be easy,” Riley grumbled as she stepped forward, cleaving through the first enemy to reach her with a single swing. “You said, ‘It’s just a caravan job, Riley.’ You didn’t say, ‘Oh, by the way, we’ll probably get ambushed.’”

    Ariana darted past her, spinning low to hamstring an attacker before driving a dagger upward into their side. She grinned over her shoulder. “It is a caravan job. And technically, this is what we’re getting paid for.”

    “Technically, you’re insufferable,” Riley shot back, parrying a blow from another attacker and shoving him back with brute force. She followed up with a crushing overhead swing that sent the man sprawling.

    Ariana chuckled, flipping over a low strike and using the momentum to drive her boot into an attacker’s chest. “You love me.”

    “Debatable,” Riley replied, stepping into the fray to intercept another group of mercenaries heading for the wagons. Her blade carved a wide arc, scattering them like leaves in a storm. “You owe me a drink for this.”

    “I’m paying you for this,” Ariana said, slipping past an attacker and slitting his throat in one fluid motion. She scanned the battlefield, spotting the remaining assailants faltering as the Rangers gained the upper hand. “You’re doing great, by the way.”

    “Shut up,” Riley muttered, though the corner of her mouth twitched in a faint smile as she swung her sword again, the blade cleaving cleanly through the last opponent in her path.

    When the final attacker fell, the dust settled, leaving the Rangers standing victorious. The wagons were untouched, the merchants safe, and the attackers thoroughly routed. Ariana sheathed her daggers, brushing dirt off her hands as a nervous-looking noble stepped out from one of the wagons.

    “Oh, thank the Maker!” the noble exclaimed, his face a mixture of relief and awe. “You saved us! Everyone will hear of the skill and reliability of the White Wolf and her Rangers. I’ll see to it personally!”

    Ariana raised an eyebrow, trying to keep her expression neutral. “We’re just doing our job.”

    Riley snorted. “Our easy job,” she muttered under her breath, resting her sword on her shoulder again.

    Ariana glanced at her with a grin. “I’ll buy you that drink.”

    “You’d better,” Riley replied, shaking her head. “If this is what an easy job looks like, I’m scared to see what a hard one is.”

    The Rangers broke into laughter as they regrouped, the camaraderie and banter carrying them back to the road with the merchant caravan safely in tow.

    ~~~

    The library was quiet, save for the faint crackle of the fire burning low in the hearth. Ariana sat curled up on a worn, comfortable couch, a drink in hand and an untouched book resting on her lap. The soft glow of the fire danced across her face as she stared into the flames, lost in thought.

    The years had slipped by, each one folding into the next. Today, though, the familiar date carried an ache she couldn’t ignore. 5 Harvestmere, she thought, allowing herself a moment to remember a distant birthday spent in the warmth of Cullen’s company. That memory had been a balm during darker times, keeping her going through years of searching. Even so, her focus had shifted—building the Silver Rangers had consumed her, overshadowing the mission she had started with.

    “Copper for your thoughts?” Riley’s voice broke the stillness, light and teasing, though her gaze was anything but casual. Riley had a knack for reading Ariana’s moods, especially when they turned heavy.

    Ariana looked up, managing a small smile. “I need to go to Kirkwall,” she said, her voice steady but tinged with the resolve that had carried her through so many hard choices. “It’s been years since I sent word to anyone. My family likely believes I’m dead by now, and… so do the few friends I have outside of here.”

    And I need to find him, she thought, but she didn’t say it aloud.

    Riley leaned against the doorframe, crossing her arms. Her brow lifted in curiosity and faint skepticism. “To see Varric? Do you really have to go in person? Couldn’t you just send a letter?” Her voice softened as she continued, “Besides, Orlais isn’t slowing down. There are a few jobs lined up that could use your touch.”

    Ariana shook her head, her gaze unwavering as she stared into the fire. “I’ve already done my part. The contracts are secured, and the coffers are more than full.” She turned to meet Riley’s eyes, her expression steady but warm. “I wouldn’t leave if I didn’t believe you could handle this without me, Riley. And while you’re in Orlais, I need you to start finding fresh recruits. We’ve been stretched thin between Ferelden and Orlais.”

    Riley’s teasing demeanor gave way to something more serious. “Is there another reason for going to Kirkwall?”

    Riley had known Ariana was searching for someone—a Templar, maybe, given her insistence on visiting Lake Calenhad years ago after escaping the Crimson Blades. But Ariana guarded the details of her past like a fortress, and Riley had never pushed. Still, worry edged her voice now.

    Ariana met Riley’s gaze, her eyes glassy as if the weight of her thoughts were finally surfacing. “One last try,” she admitted quietly. “If Varric can’t find him, then…” Her voice faltered, unable to finish the thought that if Varric failed, she’d have to assume the worst.

    Riley let the words settle for a moment before nodding. “A few weeks, then?” she asked, though her tone hinted at her doubts. “And if we don’t hear from you by then?”

    Ariana’s expression softened, a faint smile tugging at her lips. “If I’m delayed, send word to The Hanged Man in Kirkwall. They’ll know how to reach me.”

    Riley hesitated, then said quietly, “You know… you never had to do this alone. We would’ve helped you.”

    Ariana’s smile deepened, touched by the sentiment but tempered with a quiet understanding. “I know. But we had more important things to do than chase ghosts.”

    Riley let out a resigned sigh, though a grin tugged at her lips as she brought her right fist to her chest in a salute. “By your order, Wolf.”

    Ariana chuckled softly, lifting her drink in a small toast. “By my order,” she echoed, her voice carrying the bittersweet weight of hope and determination.

    ~~~

    Ariana made her way to West Hill, the steady rhythm of her horse’s hooves an oddly comforting sound as she traveled. These days, at least, she could afford to travel on horseback—a significant improvement over the slow and exhausting journeys she had made by foot in those early days. The difference in speed was undeniable, but it also left her with more time to think as the miles flew by, something she wasn’t sure was entirely a blessing.

    If only I’d had a horse back then, she thought for what felt like the hundredth time. Maybe I would have reached Lake Calenhad in time, seen Cullen before the Circle was sealed. The familiar sting of regret pierced her thoughts. Would it have changed anything? Could I have stopped them from taking him away? The same questions had echoed through her mind for years, a constant undercurrent no matter how far she traveled or what she did to distract herself. The last words she had spoken to him felt hazy, distant. She remembered the note she’d left, her vows written in those lines, but still… she couldn’t shake the feeling that somehow, she had failed him.

    In West Hill, she approached the dockmaster, a burly man who now remembered her more for being the leader of the Silver Rangers than for the girl who once sent messages back and forth through Berthold. “Mistress Ariana, it’s good to see you! What brings you here?”

    “It’s good to see you too. How’s everything?” she asked politely, the memories of their past work together making her smile. The Rangers had helped rebuild West Hill after the Blight, and many nights had been spent in the local tavern celebrating their successes.

    “As good as you and yours left it!” the dockmaster replied proudly.

    “Do you know of any ships headed for Kirkwall?” she asked, but before the dockmaster could respond, a familiar voice interrupted from behind.

    “Aye, lass, I’m heading there now. Five gold—”

    Ariana turned sharply, immediately recognizing the voice. The speaker, seeing her face, froze mid-sentence, his expression shifting from confusion to shock.

    “Berthold?” Ariana asked, her voice almost a whisper, as if confirming it for herself. In the next moment, she closed the distance and threw her arms around him in a warm hug.

    Berthold, startled for a moment, quickly returned the embrace with a hearty laugh. “We thought you gone, lass. For you, the cabin is free.”

    ~~~

    As they set sail for Kirkwall, the tide of memories began to rise in Ariana’s mind. The familiar black walls of the city would be in view within three days, but for now, the journey was quiet. The weather was fair, and Ariana fell into her old routine with Berthold, sitting on the deck and swapping stories. Berthold, as always, had a knack for spinning tales—some wild, some ridiculous, and some surprisingly poignant.

    “There was this one time,” he began, a mischievous glint in his eye, “I had this noble from Val Chevin. All prim and proper, ‘Oh, Captain Berthold, we must make haste! My cargo is of utmost importance.’” He puffed out his chest in mockery, drawing a chuckle from Ariana. “Turns out his ‘precious cargo’ was three crates of Orlesian wigs. Wigs! I nearly lost the lot of them in a storm, too.”

    Ariana raised an eyebrow, laughing softly. “Did you tell him?”

    “Of course not,” Berthold replied with mock indignation. “The man would’ve fainted dead away. No, I handed them over like a true professional, even threw in a bow for flair. He paid double for the ‘safe delivery.’”

    She shook her head, a genuine smile breaking through the weight of her thoughts. “You’ve always had a way with people, Berthold.”

    He grinned, leaning back against the railing. “And you’ve always had a way of turning up when I least expect it.”

    Within three days, the familiar black walls of Kirkwall came into view, looming over the harbor like dark sentinels. The towering statues, the massive chains clinging to the cliffs like iron webs—it was all just as she remembered. Ariana shook her head, half-smiling to herself. I’ve just come from a country still recovering from a Blight, and yet Kirkwall… Kirkwall somehow still looks darker.

    She only hoped her instincts were right and that Varric would still be at The Hanged Man.

    As they docked, Ariana thanked Berthold again, handing him a coin pouch. He tried to refuse, but she pressed it into his hands. “For everything you did for me back then. And because I might need you again soon—if you’re willing to travel to Ferelden more often. The Rangers could use you.”

    “For you, lass, I can do that. Just send word when you need me,” Berthold said, tipping his hat before setting about unloading his cargo.

    The weight of the city settled over her like a thick cloak as she stepped onto the dock. She only hoped she still remembered the twisting streets; it had been so long. Pulling her own cloak up over her face, she avoided making eye contact with anyone, though she could feel the occasional lingering glance as she walked by. Maybe I should’ve picked a different cloak, she thought, but the familiar white fur-trimmed cloak had become a part of her. Her armor.

    She moved through the streets with purpose, her stride filled with the determination that had become second nature. Her feet carried her unconsciously through the winding alleys and narrow passages of Lowtown, leading her exactly where she needed to go. I guess some things you don’t forget, she thought, half in disbelief and half in relief.

    As she approached The Hanged Man, her heart beat a little faster. An unexpected wave of nerves settled over her as she pushed the door open. Her last letter to Varric echoed in her mind—telling him she couldn’t leave Ferelden just yet. She could almost imagine his reaction: gruff, worried, and undoubtedly frustrated that she had stayed in the middle of a Blight.

    Four years, she thought, guilt twisting in her stomach.

    She closed her eyes for a moment, gathering herself. Maker, please let him forgive me.

    ~~~

    Seeing Corff behind the bar brought Ariana a little comfort. The place hadn’t changed much, and neither had he. She approached him quietly, and as he glanced up, recognition flickered in his eyes.

    “Looking for Varric, are you?” Corff asked, a knowing smile softening his gruff tone. “Or maybe something to eat? Been a long journey, I’d wager.”

    Ariana hadn’t realized how hungry she was until he mentioned it. Nodding, she tried to pull out a few coins, but Corff held up his hand. “Nah, not for you, miss. Varric would have my head on a platter if I took your coin.”

    She managed a small chuckle, nodding her thanks, and Corff went to work on what he called “Varric’s special.” She moved towards Varric’s suite, each step heavier with anticipation. Four years. Would he even recognize her? And what would he think of her after all this time? After a deep breath to steady herself, she opened the door and stepped in.

    She kept her hood low, eyes fixed on the floor, her nerves on edge. Varric was seated at his usual spot, a hand absently resting on the familiar shape of Bianca.

    “Can I help you?” he began, his voice casual but guarded. His hand shifted slightly, ready to grab Bianca if needed.

    Ariana swallowed, then slowly reached up, pulling her hood back. She gave him a tentative smile, searching his expression for any hint of anger—or maybe disappointment. “Hello, Varric.”

    His expression froze, then softened as realization dawned. It had been years, and he’d held onto hope, but seeing her standing here in front of him felt like a dream he couldn’t trust. His hand dropped from Bianca, his voice quiet with disbelief. “Welcome back…Pup.”

    Relief flooded Ariana at the familiar nickname, and she let out a breath she didn’t realize she’d been holding. She walked to him slowly, but as she reached him, her composure broke. She dropped to her knees beside him, wrapping her arms around him in a fierce hug, letting the weight of the last few years sink in.

    Varric’s hand rested on her back, patting her gently. “I thought… I’d hoped… well, Maker’s breath, you really know how to keep a dwarf waiting,” he murmured, the gruffness in his tone belied by the warmth in his voice.

    “I’m sorry,” she whispered, her voice tight. “I… I didn’t come back, but I couldn’t. I had to stay.” She pulled back slightly, meeting his gaze, struggling to keep herself together. “I’m sorry I didn’t write. You deserved better than silence.”

    Varric shook his head, dismissing her apology. “You did what you had to, Pup. The world was a dark place… still is. But you made it back.” He gave her shoulder a gentle squeeze. “That’s all that matters.”

    They sat there in comfortable silence, the weight of the unspoken pressing on them both. She didn’t need to say it, and he didn’t need to ask, but Varric could see it—the exhaustion, the shadows of everything she’d been through.

    “Well,” he said after a moment, trying to lighten the mood as best he could. “Now, you’ve got a lot of catching up to do, and I expect you’ll start from the beginning. With all the details.” He offered a half-smile. “And don’t think I’m letting you disappear again anytime soon.”

    Ariana managed a faint smile, the relief finally settling in. “Don’t worry, Varric. I don’t plan on going anywhere. Rather, if I do, you’ll know how to find me.”

    ~~~

    Corff brought in a plate of bread and cheese, and some wine. Dropped it off on the table as Varric and and Ariana made their way back to the table.

    As Corff entered, he set a plate of bread and cheese alongside a bottle of wine on the table, offering them a nod before slipping back out with the quiet efficiency of someone who understood when company needed privacy. Ariana hadn’t even realized how hungry she was until the scent of fresh bread filled the room, stirring her appetite.

    Varric gestured toward the table with a welcoming grin. “Sit, Pup. You look like you haven’t had a proper meal in ages. What, was the fare in Ferelden that bleak?”

    Ariana laughed, settling into the chair opposite him and reaching for a piece of bread. “For a while there…sometimes. I do alright these days, but I also have been on the road a little over a week now, I don’t exactly travel with fine meals.”

    As she nibbled on the cheese, savoring the simple comfort, she could feel Varric’s eyes on her, studying her in that way only he could—seeing past her words, past the faint smile she wore. It was as if the years had melted away, and once again, she felt like the young girl he’d once sheltered in the Lowtown streets.

    He raised his glass, eyeing her over the rim. “To surviving the blight, the road, and whatever else life’s thrown at you since,” he said, his voice a bit softer, a warmth in his eyes that made the moment feel real. “You’re back, Pup.”

    Ariana clinked her glass against his, trying to steady her heart. “To being back,” she echoed, though a flicker of sadness lingered in her gaze. She sipped the wine, gathering herself, feeling the comfort of this familiar place begin to chip away at the hard shell she’d built over the years.

    Ariana set her glass down and leaned back, offering Varric a tentative smile, though a shadow touched her eyes. She’d been holding parts of her story close for a long time, but if anyone deserved to hear it, it was him. She’d begin with what happened after she’d read his letter years ago, and how she and Cullen had tried to warn people about the impending Blight, hoping to save just a few lives.

    But when she finally mentioned Cullen’s name aloud, Varric paused, his expression somewhere between shock and disbelief. “Hold on,” he interrupted, brows furrowing as he looked her over. “You’re telling me this whole time, your infamous ‘handsome Templar’ was Cullen Rutherford? Knight-Captain Cullen Rutherford?”

    The title made her heart flutter, a mix of pride and hurt. “He’s here? He got a promotion?” she questioned softly, the realization dawning with a mixture of excitement and disappointment. He was here in Kirkwall all along. Relief and something like betrayal mingled, tightening her throat. How many times had she searched, scoured letters and asked for news, only to find nothing? And all the while, he’d left without a word, without a hint, without her.

    Varric watched her reaction carefully. “Yeah, Knight-Captain now,” he confirmed, with a touch of reservation in his voice. But he gave a huff, leaning back and rubbing his forehead as if pained. “Pup, I’ll be honest—maybe for your sake more than his. He might be the Cullen you remember, but from what I’ve seen, he’s practically become the left hand of Meredith. You know, that woman who makes ogres look like sunshine?”

    Ariana’s face darkened, her hands tightening around her glass. She held Varric’s gaze, determined to explain what he couldn’t possibly understand. “I know the rumors.” she said, voice steady. “I know what happened at the Circle Tower in Ferelden. The place was sealed, overrun by abominations. Most of the mages—and Templars—were killed. They only made it out because the Hero of Ferelden came through and helped end it.”

    Varric’s skeptical look softened a bit.

    “And Cullen…,” she continued, swallowing the emotions that threatened to rise. “If he survived that… well, Maker only knows what he had to endure.” She looked away, gathering herself. She hadn’t intended to open this wound, but it was already bleeding, and it was too late to stop now.

    Ariana took a steadying breath, meeting Varric’s gaze. “I came here in large part to ask for your help,” she admitted, voice tight with the conflict churning inside her. “I thought I’d be searching half of Thedas to find him. I never expected to hear he was… right here, right in this city.”

    Memories drifted up, unbidden and bittersweet—the warmth of his embrace in the tavern after Ostagar, the quiet promise they’d face the darkness together. But they hadn’t. They’d been pulled apart, swept by different currents, separated before the real storm had even begun. The realization weighed heavy on her chest, and she hadn’t noticed how silent she’d grown, lost in the remnants of something they’d never had the chance to finish.

    Varric’s voice pulled her out of her thoughts, gentle but probing. “So… what do you want to do now, pup?” He searched her face, noting the hurt lingering in her eyes. He hadn’t imagined he could dislike Cullen any more than he already did, but seeing her like this… well, it didn’t exactly raise his opinion.

    Ariana looked away, jaw set in a determined line. “How do I find him?” she asked, almost in a whisper. She wasn’t sure what she’d do once she did. Old instincts told her to observe first, get a sense of who he was now. Four years was a long time, and the Cullen she remembered might not be the Cullen she’d find.

    “The Gallows is where he’s stationed,” Varric replied cautiously. “But… if you’d prefer not to risk that, I can ask around, find out his usual haunts. Everyone’s got their own version of a hideaway.”

    She gave a quick nod, relief and anxiety both flickering in her eyes. “The Gallows… it won’t exactly be easy to observe him there. And if Meredith’s around, I doubt I’ll get far.” She huffed a quiet sigh, rubbing her hands together as if warding off the lingering chill of uncertainty. “But yes. Anything you can find about his routines—some place he might let his guard down, if he has one here.”

    “Got it, pup,” Varric said, nodding. His gaze softened, and he leaned forward slightly. “Just… take it slow, alright? And remember, you don’t have to do this alone.”

    She managed a faint smile, the hint of a warmth in her eyes. “I know, Varric. Thank you.” She turned back to her glass, the weight of all that lay ahead still heavy but not quite as crushing as before.

    ~~~

    Varric leaned back, folding his arms and giving her a look that was more knowing than anything else. “So… I’m guessing you’re planning to stay in Kirkwall for a while, then?”

    Ariana sighed. “For a few weeks, yes. That was my original plan. But I have business in Ferelden and Orlais—if I’m gone too long, my lieutenant will send a search party, or a small contingent…

    Varric’s eyebrow quirked up. “Lieutenant, you say? Of what, exactly?”

    Ariana paused, realizing that she hadn’t quite finished telling him her story. She took a breath, skipping over the darker turns of her journey for now. “After the Blight… I spent some time with the Crimson Blades.” She said it lightly, keeping her voice calm. “It wasn’t long before I decided to leave them behind and start something of my own—a company called the Silver Rangers.”

    A flash of recognition sparked in Varric’s eyes. He leaned forward, eyes narrowing with a gleam of interest. “The Silver Rangers, huh? I’ve been hearing things about them. Word is there’s a mercenary group out there doing good for a change. Protecting people who can’t pay, keeping the roads safe. Some say they’re led by a mysterious figure. They call him the White Wolf…”

    He let his words trail off, watching her with that sharp, assessing gaze, waiting for her reaction.

    Ariana tried to stifle a smile but couldn’t help it. “Rumors do have a way of growing legs,” she said, the ghost of amusement dancing in her eyes. “Not as grand as the tales, I assure you.”

    Varric chuckled, clearly impressed. “Not as grand? Kid, you’ve done what most mercenary companies can’t even dream of—people are talking about the Silver Rangers as if you’re some kind of heroes out of the story books.”

    Ariana’s smile softened. “It wasn’t easy, but I realized that helping people… well, it’s what keeps me going. Gives me something real to hold onto, even if the world can be so unforgiving.”

    Varric tilted his head, a glint of pride in his eyes. “Pup, you’ve made quite a name for yourself. I’d say your father would be proud of what you’re doing—though, knowing him, he’d probably want you to settle somewhere safe.”

    She gave a soft laugh, looking away. “Or he’d ask for stories of my ‘adventures’.” Her gaze returned to Varric, this time filled with gratitude. “Thank you, Varric. For letting me tell you all of this… and for not judging me.”

    Varric raised his glass in her direction, a warm, encouraging smile on his face. “You don’t need to thank me, kid. But I’ll drink to the White Wolf, to Cullen, and to whatever you plan on doing next.”

    “Yeah, to whoever the White Wolf is,” Ariana agreed, clinking her glass with his, her voice carrying a hint of finality. She’d built a careful wall around that identity, keeping it somewhat separate from herself, from Ariana Trevelyan. The White Wolf had the freedom to make enemies, to be feared or respected on the road, but she? She was still the runaway noble, a survivor of the Blight. And for now, that was exactly how she wanted to keep it.

    Pausing for a moment, she softened her tone. “Speaking of my father…” Her voice held a note of hesitancy. “Could you… send word? Just to let him know I’m here, alive and well. He’s probably given up on getting news by now, but it would mean the world to me.”

    Varric gave a firm nod, understanding immediately. “I’ll get my fastest people on it. Still sending word through that servant girl of his, Isabel?”

    Ariana nodded, the faintest smile touching her lips. “Yes, through Isabel. And maybe see if he could make the journey to Kirkwall if he’s able. It’s been so long… I’d just like to see him again.”

    Varric offered her a reassuring smile. “Consider it done, kid. I’ll make sure he knows you’re safe and that you’d like to see him, if he’s up for the trip.”

    She released a breath, feeling the weight of those years away from her family lighten, if only by a little. “Thank you, Varric. Really. I think… I think I’ll turn in for the night. It’s been a long enough journey getting back here.”

    He chuckled, the glint of his familiar mischief returning. “Four years? Yeah, I’d say that qualifies as a long trip. And don’t worry, Pup—your old room’s just as you left it. Always ready for you.”

    Ariana’s smile brightened at his words, feeling the warmth of the familiarity, the comfort of returning somewhere that still felt like hers. She gave Varric a grateful nod, and with that, she made her way out of his suite, down the hallway, and back to her room, where memories, hopes, and the unknown future waited to meet her.

    Tonight, she would rest—and tomorrow, she’d find out what new stories awaited.

  • Chapter 14 – Forgiveness and Guidance

    30 Solace 9:30 – 5 Harvestmere 9:33

    The scent of salt and fish hung heavy in the air as Cullen stood on the crowded docks of Jader. The chatter of merchants, the cries of gulls, and the creak of ship rigging created a cacophony that barely registered in his mind. He stood still, a stark figure amidst the chaos, his belongings slung in a worn pack over his shoulder. The insignia of the Templar Order dangled from his gloved hand, the cool metal biting into his palm.

    Behind him, the city bustled with life. Refugees from Ferelden huddled near makeshift shelters, their faces hollowed by hunger and fear. Jader had become a waypoint for those fleeing the Blight—a last chance at safety across the sea. Cullen might have admired the resilience of the people once, but now, he felt only the weight of their desperation.

    His thoughts were not on the docks or the refugees, though. His mind remained anchored to the distant towers of Kinloch Hold, the place he had sworn to protect and had ultimately failed. The uprising had shattered everything he believed in: the trust between mages and Templars, the safety of the Circle, and his own sense of purpose.

    Cullen’s grip on his pack tightened. He could still hear the screams echoing in his mind—the abominations tearing through the halls, the mages’ desperate cries, and the clang of steel as the Templars fought for their lives. It had been his duty to hold the line, to stand between chaos and order. And yet, the line had broken.

    He glanced at the insignia in his hand, its polished surface catching the sunlight. Once, it had been a symbol of pride, a reminder of his role as a protector. Now, it felt like a hollow weight, a badge of failure.

    A shout from the docks drew his attention, and Cullen turned to see a ship arriving at the pier. Its sails billowed in the wind, and the name The Dawnbringer was etched into its side. This was his passage to Kirkwall, a city that promised a fresh start—or so he had been told. In truth, he didn’t care where he was sent. As long as it wasn’t Kinloch Hold, it didn’t matter.

    The ship docked with a heavy thud, and crew members scurried to secure it. Cullen adjusted his pack and approached the gangplank, his boots thudding against the weathered wood. He stepped onto the deck, nodding curtly to the captain before retreating to a quiet corner near the stern.

    The ship rocked gently as it pulled away from the docks, but to Cullen, it felt like the world shifting beneath his feet in an unsettling rhythm. He gripped the railing tightly, his knuckles whitening as he stared out at the horizon. He had never traveled by sea before; the rivers and placid waters of Lake Calenhad were the extent of his experience. The open ocean, with its constant swells and vastness, was something else entirely.

    He swallowed hard as the ship dipped again, the wood creaking beneath his boots. His stomach churned in protest. Maker, how do people live like this? he thought bitterly, his grip tightening as another wave hit the hull. The sea spray misted his face, cold and briny, and he turned his head sharply to avoid it.

    Cullen hadn’t been prepared for the unrelenting motion of the ocean. It wasn’t just the physical discomfort—though that was bad enough—but the way it left him feeling vulnerable, like the ground beneath him was betraying him at every step. For a man who had built his life on discipline and control, the sea was a harsh and unforgiving adversary.

    He forced himself to take a steadying breath, focusing on the horizon where the sky met the water. The endless expanse of blue-gray waves mirrored his thoughts: turbulent, churning, with no clear destination. Every creak of the ship, every splash of the waves against the hull, grated on his nerves.

    Cullen withdrew from the railing and found a quiet corner near the stern, sitting heavily on a coil of rope. He pressed his palms against his thighs, willing the nausea to subside. His pack sat at his feet, the insignia of the Templar Order still clutched in his hand. He stared down at it, its polished surface catching the faint sunlight. It felt heavier than it had any right to, a weight that went beyond its physical form.

    What am I doing here? The thought came unbidden, a whisper of doubt that had been growing louder since the day he left Kinloch Hold. He clenched the insignia tightly, his jaw tightening as memories surfaced once more.

    Kinloch Hold. The faces of the mages who had trusted him, their eyes wide with fear as the abominations descended. The screams of Templars who had stood beside him, cut down one by one. And Uldred—Maker take him—his madness unleashed, his betrayal of everything Cullen had sworn to protect. The blood, the fire, the chaos—it was all still fresh in his mind, as if it had happened only yesterday.

    He allowed himself to think of her—Ariana. Her name was a wound he couldn’t help but press, a name that had become synonymous with promises left unfulfilled. He remembered the last note she’d left him, her words etched in his mind as clearly as if he were reading them again: No matter what comes, I will find you, always.

    She never had. And he had come to accept that she never would.

    Cullen clenched his teeth, his hand tightening around the insignia until the edges bit into his palm. Crestwood. That cursed village. The stories of flooding and devastation had been vague, but they had been enough. She had to have been there, caught in the chaos. He told himself this again and again because the alternative—that she had survived and chosen not to find him—was too painful to consider.

    The ship rocked again, a stronger wave this time, and Cullen cursed under his breath. He leaned back, closing his eyes and pressing his head against the cool wood of the ship’s hull. The physical discomfort was nothing compared to the storm inside him, but it was an unwelcome distraction nonetheless.

    The days dragged on, each one a blur of monotonous sea and sky. Cullen kept to himself, avoiding the crew and other passengers as much as possible. He spent his time poring over Templar protocols, though the words often blurred together. His mind kept returning to Kinloch Hold, to Crestwood, to Ariana. The guilt, the loss, the regret—it all churned within him, as restless as the waves beneath the ship.

    By the time Kirkwall came into view, Cullen felt like he had aged years in the span of days. The city rose on the horizon, its black walls stark against the dull sky. The Gallows fortress loomed above the harbor, its towering statues and dark chains casting long shadows over the water.

    ~~~

    The air in Kirkwall was different—heavier, colder, as though it carried the weight of the city’s history in every breath. Cullen stepped off the gangplank, the wooden boards creaking beneath his boots, and took his first look at the infamous Gallows. The fortress loomed above the harbor, its black statues towering like silent sentinels. Chains stretched across the cliffs, their iron links swaying slightly in the breeze, an unsettling reminder of the city’s past and its stranglehold on the present.

    The Gallows wasn’t merely a prison for mages; it was a symbol, its oppressive architecture broadcasting power and control to all who entered Kirkwall. For Cullen, it was both intimidating and oddly fitting. The weight of the place mirrored the guilt he carried, the chains a visual echo of the regrets that bound him.

    A Templar representative greeted him at the docks, the exchange brisk and impersonal. Cullen followed the man through the winding streets of Lowtown, the stench of the harbor giving way to the noise of the bustling city. He noted the wary glances of passersby, the way their eyes darted toward his armor before quickly looking away. In Ferelden, Templars were protectors; in Kirkwall, they were enforcers.

    The Gallows courtyard was as stark and utilitarian as the rest of the fortress. Cullen was escorted to a waiting area where Knight-Commander Meredith Stannard stood with her arms crossed, her gaze fixed on him as he approached. Her presence was striking—not physically imposing, but commanding in a way that left no room for doubt about her authority.

    “Knight-Templar Cullen,” she greeted, her voice sharp and precise. “Welcome to Kirkwall.”

    Cullen saluted, standing stiffly at attention. “Knight-Commander.”

    Meredith’s gaze lingered on him, her eyes narrowing slightly as if she were reading the contents of his soul. “I’ve read your record. The events at Kinloch Hold were… unfortunate. But you survived.”

    Her tone was neutral, but Cullen felt the weight of her words. He nodded. “Yes, Knight-Commander.”

    “Your experience will serve you well here,” she continued. “The Kirkwall Circle is… unique. The mages here are particularly resistant to the structure the Order provides. They must be reminded—firmly, if necessary—that the Templar Order exists for their protection as well as everyone else’s.”

    Cullen swallowed, unsure how to respond. Meredith didn’t seem to expect one. She studied him for another moment before nodding slightly, her expression unreadable. “You’ll find your quarters prepared. I expect diligence and vigilance, Knight-Templar. Kirkwall does not tolerate weakness.”

    “Yes, Knight-Commander,” Cullen replied, his voice steady despite the knot tightening in his chest.

    As she turned and strode away, Cullen felt both relief and unease. Meredith was unlike any commander he had served under—her intensity was palpable, her words calculated to leave an impression. He had no doubt she would expect nothing less than absolute loyalty.

    ~~~

    Cullen’s quarters were as cold and unwelcoming as the rest of the Gallows. The room was small, its walls bare stone and its furnishings minimal. A narrow cot, a writing desk, and a single chair comprised his new home. He placed his pack on the cot and began unpacking his belongings—what little he had.

    As he worked, his thoughts drifted to the mages he had seen during his arrival. Many had been escorted by Templars, their heads bowed and their movements wary. Their fear was familiar, reminiscent of Kinloch Hold in its final days. Here, though, it seemed ingrained, as though the mages had never known anything else.

    Cullen set his Templar insignia on the desk, staring at it for a long moment. It was a symbol of duty, of purpose. But here in Kirkwall, it felt more like a badge of control.

    The days at the Gallows settled into a grim rhythm. Patrols, inspections, and vigilance defined Cullen’s life, filling his hours and leaving little room for anything else. At first, the structure was welcome—a reprieve from the chaos of Kinloch Hold. Here, every task was prescribed, every action purposeful. It was easy to focus on the rules, to enforce the order that had failed so catastrophically in Ferelden.

    Meredith noticed his diligence almost immediately. She had a way of appearing at the edges of his rounds, her sharp gaze following him as he worked. At first, Cullen thought it a coincidence, but over time, he realized it was deliberate. Meredith was testing him, watching for cracks, for weakness.

    “Knight-Templar,” she said one evening, her voice cutting through the dim light of the Gallows courtyard. “You handled that incident with the apprentices well today.”

    Cullen nodded, his expression neutral. Earlier, he had defused a brewing altercation between two mages—a quiet rivalry that had threatened to escalate into something more dangerous. The solution had been straightforward: a reminder of the rules, enforced with a calm but unyielding presence.

    “Thank you, Knight-Commander,” he replied.

    Meredith stepped closer, her expression calculating. “You didn’t hesitate. You acted decisively but without unnecessary force. That is precisely what Kirkwall needs.”

    Her approval was rare, and Cullen felt a flicker of satisfaction. But there was something else in her tone—something he couldn’t quite place. He dismissed the thought and returned to his patrols, unaware that her gaze lingered on him long after he had gone.

    As the weeks turned into months, Cullen’s reputation among the Templars grew. He was efficient, disciplined, and thorough—traits that earned him both respect and wariness. Among his peers, he was seen as a model Templar, someone who followed orders without question and never faltered in his duties. Among the mages, he was regarded with a mix of fear and grudging acknowledgment. He was fair, but he was unyielding.

    Cullen himself remained distant. He had little interest in forming friendships or alliances, preferring to keep his focus on the task at hand. His colleagues invited him to join them in the dining hall or to share a drink after patrols, but he always declined. The truth was, he didn’t know how to connect with them anymore. The weight of his experiences at Kinloch Hold and his unspoken grief for Ariana made it impossible to relate to their casual camaraderie.

    Meredith seemed to approve of his isolation. She saw in Cullen someone who was not distracted by personal ties or divided loyalties. She began to involve him in more significant matters, pulling him into private meetings and consultations about the Circle’s operations.

    “I need someone I can rely on,” she told him one evening as they reviewed the security reports. “Someone who understands that strength is not optional in Kirkwall. It is a necessity.”

    Cullen nodded, his expression grim. “I understand.”

    Meredith’s presence became a constant in Cullen’s life. She would call him to her office late in the evenings, poring over reports and discussing strategy. She spoke of the dangers of unchecked magic, of the need for unwavering resolve. Her words were sharp and unyielding, her conviction absolute.

    “Magic is a tool, Knight-Captain,” she told him one night, her tone matter-of-fact. “And like any tool, it can be dangerous if wielded without control. That is why we are here. To ensure it is wielded properly—or not at all.”

    Cullen nodded, though her words left a bitter taste in his mouth. He didn’t disagree, not entirely. But there was a severity to her views that unsettled him, a coldness that left no room for compassion.

    Still, he respected her. She had taken a broken Circle and turned it into something functional, something strong. He wanted to believe that strength was the answer, that it could prevent another Kinloch Hold. And if he harbored doubts, he kept them to himself.

    ~~~

    The morning sky was a wash of dull gray, the kind of overcast that muted everything beneath it. Cullen stood in the courtyard of the Gallows, his armor polished to a shine, though it did little to brighten the somber atmosphere. The air was cold, carrying the briny tang of the sea, and the steady creak of chains in the distance provided an unrelenting backdrop to the day.

    A handful of senior Templars stood gathered, their postures formal and their expressions unreadable. The ceremony was brief—there was no fanfare, no celebration. In Kirkwall, even promotions were marked with the same grim efficiency that defined the city.

    Knight-Commander Meredith stepped forward, her stride confident and purposeful. She held the insignia in her gloved hand, her sharp gaze meeting Cullen’s as she pinned it to his chest. The cold metal pressed against his armor, a weight that felt heavier than it should.

    “You’ve earned this, Cullen,” Meredith said, her voice low but commanding. “But remember: this is not an honor. It is a responsibility.”

    Cullen inclined his head. “I understand, Knight-Commander,” he replied, his tone steady despite the tension coiling in his chest.

    Meredith’s expression softened slightly, though it carried none of the warmth such a gesture might have implied. “Walk with me,” she instructed.

    They moved through the Gallows’ outer corridors, their boots echoing against the stone floor. The corridors were lined with high arches, their shadows stretching long in the dim light. The faint hum of the sea and the occasional cry of gulls filtered through the open spaces, but otherwise, the silence was oppressive.

    As they walked, Meredith began to speak, her words as measured and deliberate as her stride. “Kirkwall is not Ferelden, Knight-Captain. The mages here are unlike those you’ve encountered before. They are bold, defiant, and clever in their defiance. They will push you to the edge, test every boundary you set.”

    She paused, glancing at him. “You cannot falter. They need to see that you are unshakable.”

    Cullen nodded, his mind already turning to the mages he had observed during his time in the Gallows. Their fear was palpable, but it was not the quiet, submissive fear he had known at Kinloch Hold. Here, it burned hotter, like a smoldering ember waiting for the right moment to ignite. He had seen it in their eyes during inspections, in the way they avoided meeting his gaze but bristled under the weight of the Templars’ authority.

    “They are afraid,” Cullen said finally. “But fear doesn’t seem to temper their defiance. It only hardens it.”

    Meredith gave a faint, humorless smile. “Precisely. That is why strength must always be met with strength. Leadership is as much about perception as it is about action. Show them strength, and they will think twice before challenging you.”

    They continued walking, the cold stone beneath their boots a stark reminder of the fortress’s purpose. The chains swayed in the distance, their groaning creak punctuating the silence.

    “And the other Templars?” Cullen asked after a moment.

    “They will follow your example,” Meredith replied without hesitation. “You set the tone now, Knight-Captain. If they see doubt in you, they will question their own resolve. But if you lead with strength, they will stand behind you without hesitation.”

    They emerged onto one of the Gallows’ high arches, the view opening up to the city beyond. Kirkwall stretched out before them, its stone walls and narrow streets winding toward the harbor. The city was alive with movement, but from this vantage point, it looked more like a labyrinth—claustrophobic and unyielding.

    Meredith gestured to the expanse below. “Look at it,” she said, her tone sharper now. “Kirkwall thrives on control. Without it, this city would devour itself. Chaos is always waiting, just beneath the surface. We are its keepers, Knight-Captain. Never forget that.”

    Cullen’s gaze lingered on the city, his eyes tracing the paths he had come to know during his time here. The weight of the new title pressed heavier on his chest as Meredith’s words settled in. Control. Order. Those were the ideals he had clung to since Kinloch Hold, but here, they felt more like chains.

    “I won’t, Knight-Commander,” he said finally, his voice steady.

    Meredith turned to leave but paused, placing a hand on his shoulder. The gesture was firm, almost a warning. “I have faith in you, Cullen,” she said, her tone softer but no less commanding. “Don’t make me regret it.”

    Cullen remained by the arch as Meredith’s footsteps faded into the distance. He looked out over Kirkwall, his thoughts lingering on the mages below. The Gallows was a prison, but the city itself didn’t feel much freer. He thought of the mages he’d seen earlier, their eyes filled with defiance that the Templars were determined to crush.

    He had once believed that the Templar Order existed to protect—to shield the innocent from harm and guide mages who needed their help. But here, the lines between protection and oppression blurred until they were indistinguishable. It was a darkness he wasn’t sure even he could navigate.

    Meredith’s words lingered in his mind, a constant reminder of her expectations. She had called him strong, unyielding, necessary. But as he sat in the quiet of his quarters, he couldn’t help but wonder if that was all he had become—a tool for order, forged by tragedy and guilt.

    His hand drifted to his neck, his fingers brushing against the Halla pendant that hung there  …you spend so much of your life protecting others.. he remembered her words as if she had spoken them yesterday. He held the pendant between his fingers, the smooth surface grounding him as memories flooded back.

    He remembered her smile, her laughter, the fire in her eyes when she spoke of helping others. She had stayed in Ferelden to face a Blight, not because she had to, but because she wanted to. Her strength had been compassion, her resolve driven by the need to help others.

    Would she have understood the choices he had made? The compromises? Or would she have questioned them?

    Cullen sighed, his grip tightening on the pendant. “You would have hated this place, Ari,” he murmured, his voice low. “You’d have hated me for staying.”

    He turned away from the city, his expression hardening as he stepped back into the cold corridors of the Gallows. There was no room for sentiment here. Kirkwall demanded strength, and strength was all he could offer.

    ~~~

    One evening, after a particularly difficult day, Cullen found himself wandering the streets of Hightown. The Gallows had felt suffocating, its chains and cold stone walls closing in on him more than usual. His feet carried him toward the Chantry almost unconsciously, drawn to its towering facade and the promise of something—anything—that might ease the weight on his shoulders.

    The interior of the Chantry was quiet, the warm glow of candles casting soft light over its ornate architecture. Cullen hesitated in the doorway, his gaze sweeping over the empty pews. The silence was different here, less oppressive. It felt like a space where the noise in his mind might quiet, even if only for a moment.

    Grand Cleric Elthina appeared at the far end of the hall, her movements unhurried and her expression serene. She noticed Cullen immediately, her gaze kind but inquisitive as she approached.

    “Knight-Captain,” she greeted, her voice gentle but steady. “What brings you here?”

    Cullen inclined his head, unsure how to explain. “Forgiveness,” he said finally, the word heavy on his tongue. “And… guidance.”

    Elthina studied him for a moment, then gestured for him to sit. “The Maker listens, Knight-Captain, even when we do not have the words to ask for what we need.”

    That first visit was brief, but it marked the beginning of a new routine. Cullen returned to the Chantry in the evenings when the halls were empty, seeking solace in the quiet and in the Grand Cleric’s patient counsel. He prayed for forgiveness—for Ariana, for the mages at Kinloch Hold, for the choices he made every day in Kirkwall. And he prayed for strength, to carry the weight of his duties without faltering.

    As the weeks passed, Cullen’s visits to the Chantry became more structured. He found comfort in the ritual of it: the quiet walk through Hightown, the dim light of the sanctuary, the murmur of his own prayers. It was the one part of his week that felt untainted by the shadow of the Gallows.

    He began to frequent Café d’Or after his visits, slipping into a quiet corner and ordering the same meal each time—potato and leek soup with a glass of wine. It wasn’t much, but the simple routine gave him something to hold onto, a thread of normalcy in an otherwise grim existence.

    His schedule began to solidify, dictated by the demands of the Gallows and his own need for reprieve:

    – Monday and Thursday evenings saw him at the Chantry, speaking with Elthina when she was available or praying in solitude.

    – Wednesday and Saturday nights, he allowed himself a quiet meal at Café d’Or, away from the weight of the Gallows.

    – Sundays, he ended his week with one final visit to the Chantry, seeking clarity for the days ahead.

    ~~~

    The rhythmic clang of boots echoed faintly through the Gallows as Cullen finished his rounds. The corridors were quiet, the cold stone walls lit only by the flickering glow of torches. He’d walked these same paths countless times, his duties in Kirkwall now as familiar as breathing. The routines that had once felt oppressive now passed without thought, each day blending seamlessly into the next.

    But tonight felt different.

    As Cullen returned to his quarters, a strange heaviness settled over him. He lit the small candle on his desk, its warm light doing little to dispel the shadows creeping at the edges of his thoughts. He sat heavily in the chair, pulling off his gloves and running a hand through his hair. His eyes fell to the Halla pendant resting against his chest, its pale surface catching the light. His fingers brushed over it absently, the familiar motion both comforting and painful.

    The date whispered in his mind, unbidden. 5 Harvestmere. He stilled, the realization hitting him with the force of a blow. Ariana’s birthday.

    His chest tightened, and he leaned forward, resting his elbows on the desk. For a long moment, he let himself remember her—not the fading memories he often revisited, but something more vivid. He could almost hear her laugh, that bright, carefree sound that had always felt so at odds with the darkness they had faced together. She had always found light where he couldn’t, always believed there was something worth fighting for.

    He let his mind wander, imagining what he might have planned for her if she were here. There were ruins along the coast, just beyond Kirkwall—a place he’d come across during a patrol some time ago. The stone structures were ancient, their carvings worn by time and sea. He’d thought of her when he’d seen them, the way her eyes had always lit up at the promise of discovery.

    She would have loved those, he thought, a faint, wistful smile tugging at his lips. He pictured her standing there, her expression full of wonder as she traced her fingers over the weathered stone. He could almost hear her voice musing out loud as to the purpose of the ruins, the symbols, and trying to explain the history to him.

    The smile faded as quickly as it had come. His chest tightened, and he drew in a shaky breath. The ruins weren’t for her. Not anymore. There would be no more birthdays, no more plans. She was gone, and the ache of that truth pressed down on him like the weight of the Gallows itself.

    He closed his eyes, his hand tightening around the Halla pendant. “You’re not here,” he whispered, the words barely audible. “And you never will be again.”

    The thought struck him harder than it should have after all this time. He had carried her memory like a flame in the dark, something to keep him going when nothing else could. But the flame was fading, smothered by the weight of duty and the passage of years.

    Cullen exhaled slowly, forcing himself to straighten. He let the pendant fall against his chest, its weight familiar but no longer comforting. “I need to let you go,” he murmured, his voice breaking slightly.

    He stood, blowing out the candle and plunging the room into shadow. The Gallows felt colder tonight, its silence deeper, but Cullen welcomed it. He couldn’t hold onto her anymore—not when the life he lived now had no room for the ideals she had embodied. Not when she deserved to be remembered with something more than regret.

    As he lay down on the narrow cot, his mind refused to quiet. The ruins lingered in his thoughts, the faint image of her smile haunting him as he drifted into a restless sleep.

  • Chapter 4 – Taking The Next Step

    10 Justinian – 2 August 9:29

    Varric leaned against the bar at The Hanged Man, his ever-watchful eyes scanning the tavern’s lively crowd. The clinking of mugs, bursts of laughter, and heated murmurs filled the room. It was a normal night—until one of his more reliable contacts approached, slipping into the seat beside him with an ease that belied the weight of the information he carried. 

    “Evening, Tethras,” the contact began, nursing a drink Varric had silently ordered for him. “Thought you’d want to know—got something that might pique your interest.” 

    Varric arched a brow, leaning forward slightly. “You know me too well, Jarvik. What’ve you got?” 

    Jarvik leaned in, lowering his voice. “Charles Trevelyan, Bann of Ostwick. Arrived in Kirkwall last night, staying at the old Trevelyan estate in Hightown.” 

    That gave Varric pause. He tilted his head, his sharp mind already dissecting the implications. “Trevelyan? Isn’t that the manor that’s been gathering dust since Lady Cecile kicked the bucket? What’s the Bann of Ostwick doing in Kirkwall?” 

    Jarvik shrugged, clearly intrigued by the mystery himself. “That’s the thing. No one knows. Lady Cecile’s estate was never sold, just left to sit. And Trevelyan—he left his bannorn behind, no retainers or announcements. It’s odd, right? Bann like him doesn’t just up and leave his lands without a damn good reason.” 

    Varric hummed thoughtfully, his fingers drumming lightly against the bar. Nobles didn’t abandon their posts unless it was for something big—scandal, crisis, or desperation. His mind sifted through possibilities. 

    “Anything else?” he asked. 

    “Not much. The place is cleaned up, though. Looks like they’re settling in for a stay, not just passing through. No pomp, no ceremony. Quiet as a mouse.” Jarvik downed his drink. “Figured you’d want to know. Always good to keep tabs on Hightown, yeah?” 

    “Yeah,” Varric said absently, his mind already running through the implications. He tossed a coin onto the bar, gesturing for Corff to get Jarvik another drink. “Thanks for the heads-up.” 

    As Jarvik melted back into the crowd, Varric turned the information over in his mind. The Trevelyan name stirred something faintly familiar, but nothing concrete. It was Ariana’s face that surfaced unbidden in his thoughts, and he frowned slightly. No… couldn’t be. If this Bann came here for her, why wouldn’t he send retainers? Why show up himself? 

    Still, it was a curious coincidence. Ariana had spoken often about her father during their conversations. A man who loved stargazing, history, and archery—a man she clearly adored. She had never mentioned his name, but Varric was no fool. Bann Charles Trevelyan’s sudden arrival in Kirkwall struck him as too convenient. 

    But why now? 

    Varric filed the information away, his gut telling him not to ignore it but to tread carefully. He had grown fond of the girl, and if this Bann was here for her, the situation could get complicated fast. Until he had more to go on, though, he decided to keep his suspicions to himself. 

    Lifting his mug, Varric leaned back, the chatter of the tavern washing over him as his mind worked. Kirkwall always has its surprises. Let’s see where this one leads. 

    ~~~

    The sun hung low over Kirkwall’s skyline, casting golden light on the bustling streets of Lowtown. Ariana walked briskly alongside Varric, her boots scuffing against the uneven cobblestones. A few passersby glanced her way, their expressions ranging from indifferent to mildly curious. She had grown used to the layered smells of the city—the tang of salt from the docks, the smoky undertone of distant foundries, and the mingling aromas of cooking fires and unwashed bodies. It was a far cry from the perfumed courtyards of her family’s estate, but she found she didn’t mind. 

    Varric led the way with his usual effortless confidence, greeting people with a nod or a word, exchanging smiles and barbs with the familiarity of a man who knew every inch of this city. Ariana kept close, her sharp eyes watching and learning. Over the past month, she’d begun to feel at home here, but she was still acutely aware of her inexperience. 

    “Here we are,” Varric said, stopping in front of a small shop with faded signage. He gestured toward the door. “Think you’re ready to handle this one on your own, pup?” 

    Ariana tilted her head, unsure. “What exactly am I handling?” 

    Varric chuckled, crossing his arms. “Simple delivery. Drop off the package, make sure you get the payment, and don’t let anyone hustle you.” 

    Her eyes narrowed slightly as she adjusted the satchel slung over her shoulder. “Seems straightforward enough.” 

    “Don’t let that fool you,” Varric said with a grin. “Nothing in Kirkwall is ever as simple as it seems. But I have faith in you, pup. Go on—I’ll be here if you need backup.” 

    Ariana squared her shoulders and stepped inside. The dimly lit shop smelled faintly of herbs and leather, its shelves lined with jars, trinkets, and bolts of faded fabric. The shopkeeper, a wiry man with a graying beard, looked up from his counter with a practiced wariness that melted slightly when his gaze landed on her. 

    “This is yours?” she asked, pulling the small parcel from her satchel and setting it on the counter. 

    The man nodded, his movements slow and deliberate. He opened the package and examined its contents—a small set of silver coins, polished to a mirror-like shine. After a moment, he nodded again and handed her a pouch of gold in exchange. 

    Ariana took the pouch and paused, feeling its weight in her hand. Her brow furrowed slightly as she shifted it, realizing it was too light. She glanced up, her gaze sharp, catching the shopkeeper’s eyes. 

    “This isn’t all of it,” she said evenly, her voice calm but firm. 

    The man blinked, feigning surprise, but when her steady expression didn’t falter, he relented with a muttered curse. Reaching beneath the counter, he produced another smaller pouch, tossing it onto the counter with a grunt. 

    Ariana gave him a slight nod, a knowing look in her eyes. “Thank you,” she said, tucking both pouches into her satchel. She turned and walked out without another word, her steps even and confident. 

    Outside, Varric leaned against the wall, arms crossed, his grin widening as she approached. “How’d it go?” 

    She held up the pouches, a satisfied gleam in her eye. “He tried to short-change me, but I called him on it. He gave me the rest without too much fuss.” 

    Varric let out a laugh, shaking his head. “I knew you had it in you, pup. First lesson of Lowtown: everyone’s testing you. Glad to see you passed with flying colors.” 

    Ariana couldn’t help but smile as they walked back through the winding streets. Her heart still raced, but the small victory filled her with a growing sense of confidence. As Varric filled the silence with one of his many stories, she realized how much she had learned under his guidance—and how much she still had to learn. 

    “You’re getting the hang of this,” Varric remarked, his tone warm. “Not bad for a noble pup fresh out of her gilded cage.”

    Ariana smirked, glancing his way. “Well, I’ve had a decent mentor.”

    “Decent?” Varric echoed, mock offense coloring his tone. “I’m practically a legend. Don’t undersell me, pup.”

    “Legend?” she shot back, arching a brow. “The kind they tell to scare kids into behaving, maybe.”

    He chuckled, shaking his head. “Careful, pup. You keep this up, and you might hurt my feelings. A wounded dwarf is a sad sight to see.”

    “Right. I’ll alert the Chantry,” she teased, her eyes glinting with humor. “I’m sure they’ve got a litany for hurt egos.”

    Their banter carried on as they wove through Lowtown’s winding streets, drawing the occasional curious glance from passersby. Ariana found herself relaxing, the rhythm of their exchanges becoming as familiar as the cobbled roads beneath her feet. She’d started to understand the way Varric worked, his sharp humor masking genuine care, and she’d begun to give as good as she got.

    As they turned a corner, her expression softened. “I suppose you’re right, though. I’ve learned a lot. More than I expected, really.”

    “That’s the thing about this city,” Varric said, his grin widening. “Kirkwall has a way of teaching you lessons whether you want them or not. You’re adapting faster than most.”

    “I don’t have much of a choice,” she admitted, her voice quieter now. “But… it’s strange. I didn’t think I’d enjoy this life, but I do. At least, parts of it.”

    He glanced at her sidelong. “Parts like running errands for me? Be careful, pup. If you start liking those, I’ll make you my full-time lackey.”

    “You’ll have to start paying me a lot more,” she retorted, her smirk returning. “Besides, if anyone’s the lackey here, it’s you. I’ve seen the way you jump when Corff yells for another barrel of ale.”

    Varric barked a laugh, holding up his hands in surrender. “Alright, alright. I’ll give you that one. But don’t let it go to your head. Kirkwall doesn’t need another wiseass running around.”

    “Too late,” she said with mock seriousness, folding her arms. “You’ve already corrupted me.”

    As they reached the next destination, Varric paused, his expression softening slightly. “For what it’s worth, pup, you’re doing fine. More than fine. You’re smart, adaptable, and just stubborn enough to make it in this city. That’s more than I can say for most people.”

    Her teasing demeanor faltered for a moment, replaced by something more vulnerable. “Thank you, Varric. For everything.”

    “Don’t get sentimental on me,” he replied with a grin. “You’re paying me back in errands, remember?”

    “And witty repartee,” she added, her smile returning.

    “Can’t put a price on that,” he quipped, patting her shoulder as they continued on.

    Ariana smiled. She was realizing she felt like she belonged—even if it was just in the fleeting, messy, chaotic rhythm of Kirkwall and the company of a certain sharp-tongued dwarf.

    ~~~

    As time went on, Varric found himself assigning Ariana more tasks. It wasn’t just about delivering packages anymore. He had started testing her with small but meaningful errands that required a sharp mind and quick thinking. 

    Sometimes, he accompanied her, watching how she navigated Lowtown’s crowded streets, her instincts sharpening with every outing. Other times, he sent her out alone, observing from the shadows or waiting for her to report back. Each time, she impressed him more. She didn’t just do the job; she adapted to the situation, always looking for the smartest way to get things done. 

    One afternoon, he sent her to collect information from one of his informants, a cagey elf who worked as a dockhand. Varric trailed behind, keeping a low profile as she approached the man. Her tone was confident but disarming, her words calculated yet warm enough to put the elf at ease. She returned with exactly the details Varric needed, no more, no less. 

    “You’ve got a knack for this, pup,” he told her later, his voice laced with approval. “Not bad for someone who didn’t even know where Lowtown was two months ago.” 

    Ariana’s smile was small but genuine. “I’m learning from the best,” she said lightly, but the sincerity in her tone didn’t escape him. 

    Since hearing about Charles Trevelyan’s arrival, Varric had made sure to keep her out of Hightown, sticking to errands that kept her well within the maze of Lowtown’s streets. He needed more information before deciding what to do with that particular piece of news. For now, it was better she stayed far from prying eyes and the kind of people who might recognize her.

    ~~~

    By the time Solace rolled around, Varric’s network had filled in more pieces of the puzzle regarding Charles Trevelyan, the elusive noble holed up in Hightown. The Bann of Ostwick was keeping a low profile, rarely leaving his inherited manor. Servants moved in and out regularly, delivering packages and carrying correspondence, but Charles himself remained a ghost—visible only in the rarest moments. 

    What caught Varric’s attention, though, was a whisper from one of his informants. A servant had overheard Charles asking another about news of a missing daughter. That one phrase was enough to solidify Varric’s suspicions. 

    It was her. It had to be. 

    The likelihood of another noble girl with Ariana’s background—running away and hiding in Kirkwall—was nearly nonexistent. Varric leaned back in his chair at The Hanged Man, his fingers absently drumming against the tabletop as he mulled over the information. 

    So, the Bann is looking for her. The question is: why? 

    Varric didn’t think Charles Trevelyan had come to Kirkwall with the intent to drag Ariana back by force. That didn’t match what the pup had told him about her father. If the man was truly here for that, why would he waste time with letters and questions instead of sending mercenaries to sweep the streets? 

    No, this felt different. The fact that Charles had come himself instead of sending retainers spoke volumes. It reeked of personal concern, not political obligation. A father looking for his daughter, not a Bann seeking to reclaim property, Varric thought grimly. 

    But knowing that didn’t mean he could drop his guard. The man might be desperate, but desperation could make even the kindest of people unpredictable. Varric had seen it too many times in Kirkwall to take any chances. 

    What made him hesitate most of all, though, was how much he cared for Ariana. She wasn’t just a runaway noble anymore; she was his pup. He’d taken her under his wing, watched her grow in confidence and skill, and seen the fire in her eyes when she talked about her newfound freedom. 

    The thought of her being dragged back into a fate she clearly despised filled him with a protective anger he hadn’t expected. 

    Varric sighed, downing the rest of his drink in one go. He’d need more information before deciding what to do. He wasn’t ready to tell Ariana about this yet—not without knowing Lord Trevelyan’s intentions. If the Bann was here to bring her back, Varric would fight tooth and nail to keep her out of that gilded cage. 

    He leaned forward, his expression hardening as he made his decision. “Alright, old man,” he muttered under his breath, imagining Charles Trevelyan sitting in that Hightown manor. “Let’s see what kind of father you really are.” 

    For now, he’d tread carefully. But one thing was certain: no one was taking his pup away. Not without a fight. 

    ~~~

    For the next couple of weeks, Varric allowed Ariana to operate more independently, not one task at a time, instead assigning her entire routes. He watched Ariana grow more confident in her role. Whether collecting information, delivering subtle messages, or running errands that required both discretion and charm, she was proving herself capable. He assigned people to shadow her when he couldn’t accompany her personally, not that she knew it. Ariana handled herself well, and the reports were always smooth—no trouble, no missteps. But Varric wasn’t the sort to take chances, not in Kirkwall and not without knowing who was looking for her.

    Meanwhile, his eyes remained fixed on Hightown. The Trevelyan estate had become a subject of particular interest. His contacts confirmed what they had whispered before: Bann Charles Trevelyan had arrived alone, save for his personal guards and a handful of servants. There were no mercenaries, no sign of a grand scheme, and no indication that Charles intended to reclaim his daughter by force. The noble spent his days writing letters and rarely ventured beyond the walls of the long-abandoned manor. 

    Satisfied with his findings, Varric decided it was time to test the waters. 

    The evening had grown quiet by the time Ariana returned to The Hanged Man. Varric had been waiting for her, his suite lit by the soft glow of lanterns and the familiar clutter of maps and papers spread across the table. As she stepped in, he gestured for her to sit, a thoughtful look on his face.

    “There’s something I thought you might find interesting, pup,” he began, his tone casual, though his sharp eyes betrayed his intent. “We’ve got a nobleman staying in Hightown this season. Odd timing, really. The manor he’s staying at had been empty for over a decade.”

    Ariana tilted her head, her brow furrowing in curiosity. “Is it unusual to buy abandoned property?”

    Varric chuckled softly, leaning back in his chair. “Not at all. People do it all the time. But here’s the kicker—it wasn’t sold. Turns out, the current occupant is an heir who’s come to claim it after all this time. That’s rare. Most heirs don’t bother unless there’s a reason to. And this noble? He hasn’t left the place much. Servants come and go, but he stays put. Keeps to himself.”

    Her expression shifted, her intrigue evident. “So not attending any social events then? That does sound somewhat strange.”

    “It gets stranger,” Varric continued, his gaze sharp as he leaned forward. “This particular noble left his bannorn unattended to come here. Now, as someone who’s been around nobles a time or two, let me tell you—that’s not normal. A man with lands and responsibilities doesn’t just up and leave without a good reason.”

    Ariana’s posture stiffened, and Varric noticed the flicker of recognition in her eyes. Her hazel-green gaze, which he had come to realize shifted with her emotions, seemed darker now, like the mossy earth of a shadowed forest. Concern, longing, and unease danced across her face, and he knew she was starting to connect the dots. 

    He’d seen the way her eyes brightened, gleaming like polished jade when excitement took hold of her, or softened to the muted green of moss when her thoughts turned inward. Right now, they were unmistakably mossy—deep, pensive, and guarded.

    “I… I assume you know which noble I mean?” Varric said, softening his tone.

    “Charles Trevelyan,” she whispered, the name barely audible. Her breath caught as tears welled in her eyes. A small, hesitant smile appeared, only to falter as the weight of the revelation sank in.

    Varric nodded, his voice gentler now. “From what I’ve heard, he’s been looking for someone. A daughter.” 

    Ariana’s hands trembled, and she quickly wiped at her eyes, her emotions a storm of relief, longing, and fear. “You said he hasn’t left the manor?” she asked, her voice shaky.

    “That’s right,” Varric confirmed. “He’s stayed mostly indoors, writing letters and relying on his staff for errands. No sign of mercenaries or hired muscle. Just him and his personal guards.”

    Ariana’s mind raced. Part of her ached to see her father, to hear his voice and feel the warmth of his presence. But the life she had built in Kirkwall—the freedom she had fought for—was fragile. Could she trust him not to take her back to the life she had escaped?

    “I need to see him,” she said finally, her voice steady despite the tears brimming in her eyes. “But I can’t risk it if there’s any chance of being taken back. I won’t go back to Ostwick, Varric.”

    Varric placed a reassuring hand on her shoulder. “Don’t worry, pup. This’ll be on your terms. I’ll set it up, make sure you’ve got a way out if things go south. You’ll have nothing to worry about.” 

    Ariana exhaled a shaky breath, then, to Varric’s surprise, stepped forward and wrapped her arms around him in a sudden, heartfelt hug. “Thank you, Varric,” she murmured, her voice thick with emotion. 

    Varric froze for a brief moment, caught off guard, before letting out a soft laugh. “Alright, alright,” he said, awkwardly patting her back. “You’re lucky I’m a sucker for sentimental moments, pup.” 

    Pulling back, Ariana gave him a small, teary smile, her cheeks flushed. “Sorry,” she said quickly, brushing at her eyes. “I just… I wouldn’t even be here without you.” 

    He smirked, waving it off as if it were nothing. “Hey, what’re friends for? Now, get some rest. Tomorrow, we’ll figure out how to handle this.” 

    She nodded, her gratitude still shining in her mossy-green eyes, before heading to her room. Varric watched her go, shaking his head with a grin. “She’s going to make me soft,” he muttered to himself.

    Varric leaned back in his chair, his thoughts heavy. He had no doubt Charles Trevelyan’s intentions were genuine—he’d seen enough of the man’s movements to believe that. But Ariana’s life was her own now, and Varric would make damn sure it stayed that way. 

    “Don’t worry, pup,” he muttered to himself, a wry grin tugging at his lips. “You’re not going anywhere unless you want to.” 

    ~~~

    Throughout the morning, Varric set his network into motion with the precision of a master storyteller weaving his tale. Messages came and went, each one ensuring that every detail of Ariana’s meeting with her father would go smoothly. He mapped escape routes, memorized the Trevelyan household’s routines, and ensured that his people would be stationed nearby should things go sideways. It wasn’t just about making sure Ariana was safe; it was about giving her the chance to face this moment on her terms. 

    By midday, when Ariana returned from her errands, Varric noticed something was off. She carried out her tasks with her usual diligence, but her focus wasn’t as sharp. Her mind was elsewhere, her hazel-green eyes clouded with thoughts she hadn’t voiced. 

    “Alright, pup,” Varric began as she set down a stack of papers on the table. “Are you going to tell me what’s got you so distracted, or do I have to guess?” 

    Ariana glanced at him, startled, and then offered a sheepish smile. “I’m fine,” she said quickly, though the tension in her shoulders betrayed her. 

    Varric grinned, deciding a little teasing might lighten her mood. “Fine, huh? Should I start calling you Lady Trevelyan now? Or maybe just ‘My Lady’ to keep it simple?” 

    She shot him a mock glare, swatting his arm. “Stop it, Varric,” she muttered, though a small laugh escaped her. 

    “Ah, there’s the pup I know,” Varric said, leaning back with a satisfied grin. 

    By late afternoon, Varric’s plans were fully in place. His contacts had confirmed Charles Trevelyan’s evening routine: the Bann typically retired to his study around eight, alone but for his personal attendant. The household staff, briefed and cooperative, agreed to leave the servant’s entrance unlocked, and a few of Varric’s people were stationed nearby to ensure a clear escape if things went awry. Everything pointed to this being genuine. From what Varric could tell, Charles Trevelyan was a father searching for his daughter, not a nobleman laying a trap. 

    As the sun set, Varric and Ariana walked together through the well-lit streets of Hightown, the grandeur of the district a stark contrast to the shadows of Lowtown they usually called home. Ariana’s posture was tense, her hands gripping the edges of her cloak as her eyes darted toward the imposing estates. 

    “Relax, pup,” Varric said softly as they approached the Trevelyan manor. “You’ll be fine. He’s your father, not a dragon. Besides, I’m not going anywhere.” 

    They reached the servants’ entrance, where Varric stopped and placed a reassuring hand on her shoulder. His usual grin was softer now, edged with something almost paternal. 

    “I’ll be right here,” he promised. “If anything feels off, you come straight back. Understood?” 

    Ariana nodded, swallowing hard. “Understood,” she said, her voice steadier than she felt. 

    She slipped inside, the quiet of the manor wrapping around her like a familiar, yet distant memory. The halls were both strange and comforting, the echoes of her upbringing mingling with the uncertainty of her present. 

    As she made her way to the study, her heart beat faster with each step. The longing to see her father, to hear his voice again, warred with the fear that he might try to take her back. But she needed to do this. She needed to know. 

    When she reached the study door, she paused, her hand hovering over the handle. Slowly, she pushed it open, the faint creak of the hinges breaking the silence. 

    Inside, Charles Trevelyan sat by the fire, a book in hand and a glass of amber liquid at his side. His once-pristine appearance was slightly disheveled, his face lined with worry. He looked older, weighed down, and yet seeing him brought a wave of bittersweet recognition.

    The door creaked again as she stepped inside, and Charles looked up. His eyes widened, the book slipping from his hands as he stared at her. Relief washed over his features, followed by disbelief and a flood of emotion he couldn’t contain. 

    “Ariana?” he whispered, his voice thick, as if he dared not believe his eyes. 

    As soon as Charles realized it was truly her, he put down his drink, letting his book drop to the floor. The look on his face said everything Ariana needed to know: this wasn’t a trap. Her heart swelled with relief, and before she knew it, she had crossed the room, rushing into his arms. He rose from his chair just in time to catch her as she wrapped her arms around him, her head resting against his shoulder. They held each other tightly, as if trying to bridge the months they’d been apart.

    Finally, Charles eased back, just enough to take in Ariana’s face, his eyes filled with questions and worry. “Are you alright?” he asked gently, his voice tinged with a mixture of relief and concern.

    Ariana nodded, a soft smile tugging at her lips. “I’m fine, truly. I… I’ve made friends along the way.”

    Charles’s brows lifted slightly, and he motioned for her to sit by the fire. “Tell me everything, Ari. I want to hear about these adventures of yours.”

    She settled into the chair beside him and began recounting her journey, starting with her escape from Ostwick, finding a compassionate ship captain who had helped her, and how she’d met Varric in Kirkwall. Charles listened intently, his expression shifting between pride, admiration, and concern. It was as if he were hearing a tale of courage and defiance about a stranger, not his own daughter. When she finished, her voice softened, and she asked the question that had been burning in her heart.

    “Do I… have to go back?” Her gaze met his, hopeful yet wary.

    Charles let out a long sigh, his eyes clouding as he began to explain. He told her of the chaos her disappearance had caused—the fractures in the family and the fallout with the Duke and Duchess of Markham. Ariana listened, guilt tugging at her as he recounted the toll it had taken on him, the arguments with her mother, and the increasing pressure from the Deckens. She lowered her head, murmuring an apology, but Charles shook his head firmly.

    “You have nothing to apologize for, Ariana,” he said, his voice steady but full of emotion. “Nothing. If anything, I should have done more to protect you from this fate.”

    For a while, they spoke quietly, sharing pieces of the time they had missed in each other’s lives. But Ariana’s lingering question resurfaced, heavier this time. She looked up, her eyes full of both hope and fear. “Does this mean… I can stop hiding? That I could stay here in Kirkwall? Or even return to Ostwick someday?”

    A shadow crossed Charles’s face. He took a deep breath before responding. “Ariana, you know I would never force you to do anything again. But… the Duke, Duchess, and your mother do not see things the same way. I ordered your mother to end the arrangement with the Deckens, but they refuse to let it go. They see your leaving as an insult they cannot ignore.” His voice hardened slightly. “The Duke of Markham has hired mercenaries to look for you. He’s been telling anyone who will listen that you abandoned your engagement. For now, you certainly can’t go back to Ostwick. And staying here in Kirkwall, may shield you for a time, but mercenaries would eventually search for you here.”

    Ariana’s shoulders sagged slightly, understanding the risk in his words. Charles continued, “Perhaps if you stay away—at least until Frederick marries—then the Duke and Duchess will have no reason to pursue you anymore.”

    At that, he remembered something and stood, walking to his desk. “Speaking of Frederick, he left this for you.” He handed her a sealed envelope, the familiar handwriting on the front bringing a bittersweet smile to her lips.

    Slowly, she broke the seal and unfolded the letter. She read it carefully, her emotions shifting as Frederick’s words sank in:

    Ariana,

    I do not know where to begin, except to say I am sorry. Truly, deeply sorry. For not trusting you enough to share what was coming. For betraying the friendship that has always meant so much to me. 

    I was a coward, Ariana. I thought that by staying silent, by hoping things would work themselves out, I could avoid losing you entirely. Instead, I hurt you. I made you feel trapped in a way no friend ever should. That is something I will carry with me for the rest of my life. 

    You were right to leave. As much as it pains me to admit it, I understand. While I would have been happy with you—more than happy, truly—I know now that you could never feel the same. And that is not your fault. Feelings cannot be forced, and I should never have hoped that time or circumstance would change yours. 

    Still, I hope you find what you are looking for, Ariana. I hope you find someone who sees you for the remarkable person you are and who makes you happier than I ever could. You deserve a life free of cages, free to choose your own path and walk it as you see fit. 

    But I must also warn you. While I will not pursue you, and I will do my best to dissuade my parents, they are… determined. They see your departure as an insult—one they believe must be rectified. I fear they will not give up easily, and I urge you to stay far from Ostwick and Markham. 

    Please, Ariana, be careful. You are stronger and more capable than anyone I know, but the world is not always kind to those who defy it. Promise me you will stay safe. 

    Though we may never meet again, know that I will always care for you and wish for your happiness. 

    -Frederick

    By the time she finished, tears glistened in her eyes, and a small, sad smile played on her lips. “If you ever see Frederick again,” she said softly, folding the letter carefully, “tell him I forgive him. I truly hope we see each other again someday.”

    Charles nodded, a faint smile crossing his lips. They sat quietly for a moment, letting the weight of their conversation settle. Yet as they continued to talk, Charles’s pride in her shone through. His expression softened as he regarded her, the fierce determination and independence she had gained since she left Ostwick.

    “Promise me you’ll write from time to time, Ari,” he said finally, his voice full of quiet concern. “Let me know that you’re safe.”

    Ariana nodded, her expression serious. “I promise. My friend here in Kirkwall will make sure word reaches you.”

    Charles seemed reassured, a touch of relief easing the tension in his face. “Then I’ll be content with that,” he said, giving her hand a squeeze. “To avoid suspicion, I’ll need to return to Ostwick soon. I’ve left the bannorn unattended long enough. But, Ariana… you’ve grown into someone far stronger than I ever gave you credit for. I know you’ll find your way.”

    Ariana smiled, feeling her father’s pride bolster her resolve. “I’ll take your advice and move on from Kirkwall soon. But I’ll write as soon as I’m settled somewhere safe.”

    As they said their goodbyes, her heart felt lighter. Though the path ahead was uncertain, she knew she carried her father’s support and his unwavering belief in her. It was all the reassurance she needed to face whatever challenges lay ahead.

    ~~~

    As Ariana descended the stone steps of the Trevelyan manor, Varric straightened from where he leaned casually against the wall by the servants’ entrance. He had been keeping watch, just in case, his sharp eyes scanning the dimly lit street for any signs of trouble. When she appeared, he caught the faint smile on her lips and the brightness in her eyes—a stark contrast to the nervous, apprehensive girl who had gone inside.

    “Was beginning to worry, pup,” he teased, pushing off the wall and striding toward her. “But, given the lack of shouting, screaming, or fleeing servants, I figured things went alright.”

    Ariana laughed lightly, a sound Varric hadn’t heard from her in some time. “It went… better than I could have hoped,” she admitted, her voice carrying a warmth that hadn’t been there before.

    Varric grinned, relieved. “Good to hear. Let’s get back to The Hanged Man before your noble instincts make you try to apologize to someone for being late.”

    As they walked through the quiet streets of Hightown, Ariana’s step seemed lighter, and her demeanor more relaxed. Varric observed her carefully, his sharp eyes catching the subtle shifts in her expression. She was still carrying something heavy, though she wasn’t ready to share it yet. He decided not to press—Ariana had a way of opening up when she was ready, and pushing her never worked.

    Back at The Hanged Man, Varric ordered two ales and led Ariana to their usual corner table. He leaned back in his chair as she recounted the evening. She spoke of her father’s relief at seeing her, the conversations they had shared, and his warnings about the dangers posed by the Duke and Duchess of Markham. As she spoke, Varric listened intently, the pieces of her story fitting neatly into the puzzle he’d been piecing together since the day they’d met.

    But then, her tone shifted, and the flicker of sadness in her mossy-green eyes returned. “He doesn’t want me to go back,” she said softly, her hands resting on the worn wood of the table. “But he thinks… staying here might not be safe for much longer either.”

    Varric raised a hand, cutting her off. “Hold up, pup. Did you just say the Duke and Duchess of Markham? The same Markham that’s practically the jewel of the Free Marches?” He leaned forward, his tone growing sharper. “You failed to mention that the people you pissed off weren’t just some minor nobles—they’re about as connected as it gets.”

    Ariana winced slightly but nodded. “Yes, and they’re furious. My father said they’ve already hired mercenaries to look for me. They see my leaving as an insult they can’t ignore.”

    Varric sighed, pinching the bridge of his nose. “Great. So, we’re not just dealing with nobles nursing bruised egos; we’re dealing with nobles who have coin and clout to throw around. That means more resources, better contacts, and a whole lot harder to hide from.”

    “I know,” she said quietly, looking down at her hands. “That’s why I need to leave Kirkwall. It’s too close to Ostwick, and my father thinks it’s only a matter of time before someone connects the dots.”

    Varric sat back, his expression thoughtful. “He’s right about that. If they’re serious about finding you—and it sounds like they are—Kirkwall’s not going to be safe for much longer. The city’s got its secrets, but even secrets don’t stay buried forever when enough gold’s involved.”

    Ariana frowned, her gaze dropping to the table. “Where could I even go?” she asked, her voice tinged with uncertainty. “Where would they not find me?”

    Varric rubbed his chin, considering his answer. “Ferelden,” he said finally. “It’s not so bad. Sure, it’s got a lot of mud and more mabari than anyone knows what to do with, but it’s a good place to disappear. Start with Lothering. Quiet little outpost village. I doubt anyone from the Free Marches would bother looking there.”

    “Lothering?” Ariana repeated, her brow furrowing.

    Varric nodded. “Yeah, it’s small, out of the way. Plenty of farmers, traders, and Chantry folk, but not much else. If it doesn’t suit you, you can move on to Denerim. It’s big enough to hide in, and no one there will know or care about some noble from Ostwick.”

    Varric studied her for a moment, his usual smirk replaced by something more serious. “Alright, pup. But let’s make one thing clear: you’re not leaving without a solid plan. We’ll make sure you’ve got everything you need to stay ahead of these nobles and their hired goons. If they’re coming for you, we’ll make damn sure they don’t catch you.”

    Ariana managed a small, grateful smile, though the sadness in her eyes remained. “Thanks, Varric.”

    Varric leaned back, crossing his arms with a smirk. “Hey, don’t go getting sentimental on me now. You’re just going to Ferelden, not the Fade.”

    Ariana chuckled, her spirits lifting despite the looming danger. For now, she had the beginning of a plan, a path forward, and someone she trusted at her side. It was enough.

    ~~~

    The evening was calm, with the usual clamor of The Hanged Man muffled by the walls of Varric’s suite. Ariana lounged in a chair across from him, sipping a cup of watered-down wine while Varric polished the infamous crossbow resting across his lap.

    “I’ve been meaning to ask you about that,” Ariana said, gesturing toward the crossbow. Her hazel-green eyes gleamed with curiosity. “It’s… unique. I’ve never seen anything like it. Where did you get it?”

    Varric smirked without looking up, his fingers moving deftly over the well-worn wood and metal. “Ah, Bianca. She’s one of a kind, pup. You’ve got a good eye.”

    “And?” Ariana prompted, raising an eyebrow. “What’s the story? How did you come by it?”

    He leaned back, a roguish grin spreading across his face. “Well, since you asked… I won her in a game of Wicked Grace. Against Paragon Branka herself, no less.”

    Ariana blinked, her expression incredulous. “A Paragon of the dwarves? Really?”

    Varric nodded, his grin widening. “Oh, absolutely. Branka was visiting Kirkwall—incognito, of course. We had a few drinks, and one thing led to another. High stakes, a tense final round… and here she is.” He held Bianca up as if presenting evidence.

    Ariana stared at him, deadpan. “That’s the story you’re going with?”

    Varric chuckled, clearly enjoying himself. “Fine, fine. You caught me. The real story? She was a gift from a mysterious old beggar. Gave her to me in an alley one night, then vanished into thin air like some sort of divine messenger.”

    Ariana crossed her arms, giving him a skeptical look. “Right. A divine messenger. In an alley. Try again.”

    He sighed theatrically, scratching his chin as if in thought. “Alright, you win. I bought her off a crooked merchant in Lowtown. Came with the previous owner’s hand still wrapped around the trigger.”

    That earned him a wide-eyed look of shock before Ariana shook her head, laughing despite herself. “How do you even come up with this nonsense?”

    “Practice,” he shot back, his tone light. “But if you’re looking for the truth, you’ll have to keep looking. Bianca’s origins are one of those things I like to keep… flexible.”

    Ariana tilted her head, studying him. “Fine. Don’t tell me. But what about her name? Bianca. That must mean something.”

    At that, Varric’s grin faded into a softer, more guarded smile. His fingers stilled on the crossbow, his gaze dropping to the weapon as if seeing something far away. “Bianca…” he began, his voice quieter. “That name involves a girl and a promise.”

    Ariana leaned forward, sensing the shift in his tone. “What kind of promise?”

    He met her eyes, his expression unreadable but tinged with something deep and private. “It’s the one story I can’t tell, pup.”

    She held his gaze for a moment, realizing that this wasn’t a joke or a diversion. This was a line she couldn’t cross. Respecting his silence, she nodded and leaned back. “Fair enough. Everyone’s allowed to keep a secret or two.”

    “Glad you understand,” he replied, his grin returning, though softer than before. “Now, how about you tell me more about how you’re planning to use what I’ve taught you out there in Ferelden?”

    As the conversation shifted, Ariana couldn’t help but glance at Bianca one more time, wondering about the story behind the weapon that Varric carried so closely. Whatever the truth, she knew it was something that mattered deeply to him—just as their friendship now mattered deeply to her.

    ~~~

    Varric approached Ariana one morning, his expression a mix of satisfaction and bittersweet resolve. “Got a message from Berthold,” he announced. “He’ll be heading down to Ferelden after he picks up some goods from the docks. Sets sail the day after All Soul’s Day. He’s willing to give you passage to West Hill.”

    Ariana felt a swirl of emotions—relief that the plan was coming together and a tinge of sadness knowing her time in Kirkwall was nearing its end. But it also meant she still had a few more weeks with Varric, and she was determined to make the most of them. She resolved to throw herself into her work, helping Varric wherever she could and preparing herself for the next step in her journey.

    Over the following weeks, Ariana immersed herself in their shared routines. The news from Berthold had left her feeling both excited and anxious—anticipating the adventure ahead but dreading the inevitable goodbyes. Kirkwall had become more than just a place to hide; it had become a home. And leaving Varric behind felt like leaving behind part of herself.

    Varric, ever the pragmatist with a hidden soft side, seemed to sense her conflicted feelings. He kept her busy with more challenging tasks, giving her opportunities to take the lead in negotiations or deliveries. Mornings often began with the two of them sitting in his suite at The Hanged Man. Varric, ever the storyteller, mapped out the day’s work with exaggerated flair, turning even mundane tasks into something exciting.

    When they weren’t working, he made sure to share some of Kirkwall’s small treasures with her. He took her to a quiet overlook above the docks where the horizon stretched endlessly, ships bobbing like tiny toys in the harbor. He brought her to a tucked-away food stall in Lowtown that sold the best meat pies she’d ever tasted. It was as if he was giving her pieces of the city to carry with her when she left.

    One afternoon, as Ariana wandered the bustling market on an errand, something caught her eye. A small stand of handmade trinkets displayed a cloth and leather bracelet with a silver plate engraved with the Visus constellation. Her breath caught. The sight of it brought her back to that Summerday night—the star that flickered, the decision that changed her life, and the path that had led her to this moment.

    The bracelet was simple but meaningful, and as she turned it over in her hands, a thought struck her. Varric wasn’t one for frills—his style was practical, save for the necklace he always wore—but this was different. Small and unobtrusive, it could be tucked under his glove, a private reminder of their bond. Without hesitation, she bought it, her heart warm with the thought of giving it to him.

    Later that evening, as they returned to The Hanged Man after another day of work, Ariana approached Varric, her hands clutching the bracelet. She hesitated briefly before holding it out to him.

    “This is for you,” she said softly. Her voice carried an unexpected vulnerability as she explained, “This constellation—the Visus—it’s… special to me. The night I ran away, I saw a star in it flicker, like it was guiding me. Finding this now… it feels like it’s meant to be.”

    For a moment, Varric’s usual playful demeanor gave way to something quieter, more reflective. His eyes flickered with an emotion he rarely let surface—pride, affection, and something bittersweet. He cleared his throat, slipping the bracelet under his glove. His grin returned, though softer this time. “Well, pup, you’re going to turn me into a sentimental old dwarf.” He held up his hand, wiggling his fingers. “Now I’ve got a little piece of you to keep me on the straight and narrow.”

    Ariana smiled, feeling a surge of warmth and gratitude. In that small exchange, she knew that no matter where her path took her, Varric would always be a part of it. For now, though, she focused on savoring the time they had left.

    As All Soul’s Day had approached, the reality of her departure became harder to ignore. Ariana found herself lingering over small tasks, savoring the routine she had built in Kirkwall. She cleaned her little room at The Hanged Man meticulously, packed and repacked her bag, and spent her evenings with Varric, soaking in every moment of his company.

    Their bond had grown into something rare and profound, a friendship rooted in mutual respect and understanding. He was her mentor, her confidant, and in many ways, her family. Leaving him behind felt like leaving a piece of herself, but she knew it was necessary.

    ~~~

    The next morning, Varric walked her down to the docks, where Berthold was waiting with his ship. As she reached for her coin pouch, Berthold held up a hand. “Not necessary,” he said with a warm smile.

    Ariana smiled gratefully, and both she and Varric thanked him for his kindness. Just before she boarded, Varric pulled a small, wrapped package from his pouch and handed it to her.

    “Open it,” he said with a grin, watching her intently.

    Curious, Ariana unwrapped the package, revealing a simple leather choker with a pendant etched with the familiar pattern of the Visus constellation. Her breath caught as she traced the delicate lines of the constellation, its image perfectly capturing the starry guide that had led her here. Tears welled in her eyes as she looked up at Varric, a soft, grateful smile breaking through the emotion.

    “Maybe this way,” Varric said quietly, his voice uncharacteristically gentle, “our journeys will always find a way to bring us back together.”

    Ariana wrapped her arms around him, unable to find the right words. She’d miss him more than she ever expected, but having this pendant felt like carrying a piece of him with her, a quiet compass that would guide her wherever she went.

    “Thank you, Varric,” she whispered, her voice thick with emotion. She slipped the choker around her neck, fastening it with a reverent touch, feeling the pendant rest warmly against her skin.

    Varric gave her shoulder a gentle squeeze, his expression warm but steady. “Just remember to stay sharp, pup. And keep in touch. You’re family now.”

    Ariana smiled, the warmth of his words settling over her like a blanket. “You’ve taught me more than you realize, Varric. I don’t think I’d even recognize myself without you.”

    With one last, long hug, she stepped back, wiping away her tears. She thanked him once more and turned to board the ship, her fingers brushing the pendant as the boat pulled away. The necklace was a reminder of his guidance and friendship, filling her with the courage she needed for whatever lay ahead, knowing Varric—and the memories of Kirkwall—would always be with her.