Tag: Shore leave

  • Chapter 21

    Shepard

    As she stepped inside his apartment, the familiar setting was comforting. Yet something about tonight was different. Garrus had been different.

    The sparring match had unsettled her more than she cared to admit. It felt like he was toying with her and she was letting him.

    And that moment at the counter—“That this is a date.”

    She’d said it as a joke. Testing. Prodding. Hoping for… what? Some sign that he felt even a fraction of what she did?

    But he’d laughed it off. “Pretty sure sparring doesn’t count as a date, Jane.”

    Of course he had. Because Garrus wasn’t into her. He’d made that clear back on the Normandy. I don’t have a fetish for humans. She needed to stop reading into every little moment, every lingering look. They were friends. Best friends. That was all this could ever be.

    So why had she agreed to come back here? She didn’t know. She just… hadn’t been able to say no.

    She moved towards the couch as she took off her boots and her jacket.

    As she looked around while waiting for him to come back with the drinks, a small glint caught her eye. She looked over and suddenly her breath caught. A small holo, with a cracked casing sitting on the end table.

    Has that always been here?

    She moved over, picking it up, afraid to turn it on. She closed her eyes, willing the memory forward, trying to remember where it was cracked. There must be millions of cracked holos, they’re not exactly robust pieces of technology. And yet…

    She tilted it up slightly, and there it was, the same piece she saw in her dream every time. The piece she had taken from that chess board.

    She had no idea how long she’d been staring at it. Her hands were shaking, her breaths coming in uneven gasps.

    “Jane… ?” Garrus rushed over, probably having heard her heartbeat, her breathing.

    She couldn’t breathe. Couldn’t will herself to breathe. This wasn’t possible. The likelihood… “Where did you get this?” she asked barely above a whisper.

    In an instant, Garrus was next to her, but her hands were shaking and the confusion on his face was plain. Then finally she turned it on and there she was… the turian woman whose face and markings she remembered so vividly. Her breathing stopped entirely, her hands were shaking.

    She could see the worry on Garrus’ face but she could barely react. Then she realized he still hadn’t answered.

    “Garrus where did you get this?” she pressed more urgently this time turning to look at him. And that’s when it all finally clicked.

    Bright blue eyes…

    Then the memory surfaced suddenly, in full, and for the first time ever, she heard it.

    She smiled and stuck out her hand. “I’m Jane.”

    He hesitated for a moment before reaching out to shake her hand—his talons careful against her smaller fingers. “…Garrus.”

    She grinned. “Nice to meet you, Garrus.”

    “Jane, what’s wrong? It’s just a holo. Are you alright?” Garrus asked pulling her back to this moment.

    “It was you…” her words trailed off as the memory of that boy came together with the man in front of her. The markings, the eyes… it was him. It had always been him.


    Garrus

    Garrus poured the drinks by memory, the motions automatic, familiar. He had done this before—grabbed her whiskey, poured his own brandy, settled in like it was just another night, just another conversation.

    But tonight, nothing about this was routine.

    His mind wasn’t here, wasn’t on the drinks in his hands or the comfortable quiet of his apartment. It was back at the arcade, at the way she had smiled at him when he asked her back here. It was back in that ring, her body pressed against his, her breath uneven from the fight. It was at that taco stand, at the way her fingers had brushed over his jaw like it was the most natural thing in the galaxy.

    And now she was here. With him.

    He exhaled, shaking his head slightly, trying to ground himself. Focus. He grabbed both glasses and turned toward the living room, expecting to see her on the couch, waiting for him.

    But that’s when he heard it. Her heart was racing.

    He looked up, realizing she was no longer on the couch. She was standing by the end table, frozen, her entire body held too still. And in her hands was the small holo of his mother.

    He had almost forgotten about that thing, had barely looked at it in years. He wasn’t even sure why he kept it, only that he had never thrown it away. The crack along the casing was the same as it had always been, a relic of something half-remembered, something that hadn’t seemed important in a long time.

    But Shepard wasn’t moving, just staring at it like it was something more than just an old piece of tech.

    His steps faltered, the easy rhythm of the moment fracturing. He set the drinks down without thinking, instincts taking over as he closed the space between them. Something was wrong.

    “Jane?” His voice was careful, controlled, but she didn’t respond.

    She was still staring at the holo, fingers curled too tightly around it, her breath coming too shallow. Then her voice came, barely above a whisper. “Where did you get this?”

    His chest tightened. The weight behind those words was heavier than he expected.

    He reached out, his touch light on her arm, grounding her, steadying her. “Jane, what’s wrong?”

    Then, slowly, she tilted it slightly, turning it toward the light, and the crack in the casing caught his eye.

    A memory stirred, old, hazy around the edges but still there.

    She pressed a button. The holo came to life, the static-filled image flickering before settling. And there she was—the image of his mother, the one frozen in time. It had been years since he had turned this on.

    “Garrus, where did you get this?” she pressed.

    Garrus swallowed, his voice quieter now, more careful. “Jane, what’s wrong? It’s just a holo. Are you alright?”

    Before she could even react to his question, his body tensed. Realization slammed into him. He knew what Shepard was seeing, or rather remembering.

    It can’t be…

    The little girl. The one with messy red hair and big green eyes. The one who had stuck out her hand without hesitation, had helped him expecting nothing in return. The one who had looked up at him with a smile and said “I’m Jane.”

    His breath hitched.

    He watched her fingers tighten around the holo. Then she turned to look at him, really look at him. Her lips parted slightly, her throat working as if trying to form the words.

    “It was you.”

    Garrus went completely still.

    The moment stretched, her words hanging between them, their weight shifting everything, tilting his entire world sideways. Suddenly, all of it made sense.

    The familiarity, the ease between them, the way she had always known him too well, the way he had always known her—because he did. They had met before. Somehow, through all the odds in the universe, the little girl from that memory was standing here, in his apartment, wearing that dress, looking at him like he was something impossible.

    And she was unraveling. Her hands were still shaking, her breaths coming in short, uneven gasps.

    She needed him.

    That realization hit him harder than anything else. He moved before he could think, before he could second-guess it. He reached for her, pulled her into his arms, and held on.

    She stiffened—just for a second. Then, all at once, she collapsed into him, her hands clutching his tunic like she needed something real, something solid to hold onto.

    And damn, she was warm. Too warm.

    His hands pressed lightly against the bare skin of her back, his talons grazing just enough to feel the heat of her.

    Spirits. The way her body fit against his. The way she sighed against his throat—he was losing it.

    He tightened his grip just slightly, anchoring her, grounding her. “Just breathe,” he murmured, his voice low, steady. “I’ve got you, Jane.”

    Her heartbeat was still too fast. Her breathing still uneven. But she was settling.

    And yet… she was too damn close.

    His fingers flexed, the warmth of her skin beneath his hands making his throat go dry. The scent of her, cinnamon and coconut, clouded his senses.

    He wasn’t thinking about what this was supposed to be anymore. Wasn’t thinking about anything. Then she pulled back just enough to look at him.

    Her eyes searched his face, wide and uncertain and wanting.

    And then she kissed him.

    The world around them faded.

    Garrus had been through plenty of firefights. He had faced mercenaries, terrorists, taken on thresher maws, and even stood toe-to-toe with a krogan warlord once. But none of that had prepared him for this.

    For her.

    For the way she suddenly surged forward, closing the distance between them without hesitation, without a single second of doubt.

    The second her lips met his, everything in him stopped. His breath, his thoughts, the barely restrained chaos in his chest—it all stilled, caught in the impossible reality that this was happening. That she was kissing him.

    Then instinct took over.

    His hands tightened their grip on her before he could even think about it, his talons pressing just slightly into the soft, exposed skin between the straps of her dress. He felt the shudder that ran through her, the way her fingers curled against his chest, the faint, breathless sound she made when he pulled her closer.

    And just like that, he was gone. Overwhelmed by the warmth of her body, the softness of her mouth against his—he hadn’t expected it to feel like this. Hadn’t realized how right it would feel to hold her like this, to finally give in to everything he had been trying to ignore.

    Because this was the woman who had become his closest friend, the woman who made him laugh, who challenged him, who trusted him implicitly. The woman who had always been at the center of his thoughts even when he hadn’t let himself admit why.

    And now? Now there was no pretending. No running.

    His hands tightened on her back, and he kissed her like he’d been starving for it. Because maybe he had.

    She responded instantly, pressing into him, her fingers sliding up to curl against the plates at the back of his neck. The sheer intimacy of it nearly undid him.

    He needed her closer.

    His grip shifted, hands sliding lower, pulling her against him, and spirits help him, she fit perfectly. Her body was still impossibly warm, and she tilted her head just slightly, deepening the kiss—and that was it.

    A low growl rumbled in his chest before he could stop it—something raw, entirely unrestrained. He barely caught himself before pressing her back against the nearest wall.

    He forced himself to stop. Pulled back just slightly—enough to breathe, to think. He leaned his forehead against hers. Both of them were breathing hard, neither moving away.

    What the hell had they just done?

    His heart was hammering against his ribs, his body still aching to close the space between them again, but he forced himself to stay still, to focus. Because this was Jane.

    And he had no idea if this was something she would regret in the morning.

    He could still feel her hands against him, gripping the edges of his cowl like she wasn’t ready to let go yet. But she wasn’t saying anything.

    And that silence? It terrified him.

    He swallowed, his voice lower than usual when he finally spoke. “Jane…”

    He felt her exhale against him, the warmth of it brushing against his skin before she finally lifted her head enough to meet his eyes. He had never seen her look like this before.

    Her pupils were blown wide, her lips just slightly parted, her breath still uneven, and for the first time in his life, he couldn’t read her.

    Couldn’t tell what she was thinking.


    Shepard

    For a moment, the world had stopped. The only thing that existed was the heat of his hands, the weight of his body against hers, the way he kissed her like he had been starving for it.

    And she wanted it. All of it. She wanted him.

    But then he stopped.

    Not completely—he was still close, forehead against hers, breath still uneven—but he wasn’t moving. Wasn’t pulling her in the way he had just seconds ago.

    Her stomach twisted.

    No.

    She had miscalculated. Pushed too far. The realization hit like a gunshot to the chest. She had acted without thinking, lost in the moment, lost in him. And now? Now she could see the hesitation creeping into his eyes.

    Shit.

    She swallowed hard, her hands slipping away from his cowl, putting distance where she hadn’t wanted any before. The warmth of his body was still pressed against her, but she felt it now—the uncertainty, the doubt.

    It hurt.

    She forced herself to step back, her chest tightening. This was a mistake. She should have known better. Should have—

    “I’m sorry,” she said quickly, voice barely above a whisper.

    She turned to go, needing distance, needing to breathe.

    But she didn’t make it two steps before he grabbed her wrist. “Sorry for what?”

    His voice was rough, confused, like he had no idea what she was talking about.

    Shepard exhaled sharply, shaking her head. “I shouldn’t have done that. Shouldn’t have…pushed you.”

    That’s what had happened, right? She’d been reckless, impulsive, put him in an impossible situation.

    Garrus had told her before he wasn’t into humans.

    She had just chosen to forget that when his arms were around her, when his hands pressed against her back.

    His grip on her tightened slightly, just enough to make her look at him.

    His gaze searched hers, the blue of his eyes sharp and too damn piercing, like he was trying to figure out what had just gone through her mind.

    Then, softer, he shook his head. “Jane, you didn’t push me.”

    She froze.

    Something in his voice—honest, raw—sent a slow, aching relief through her chest.

    Her lips parted, uncertain. But before she could say anything, he stepped closer, pulling her hands back to him, not letting her slip away.

    “You didn’t push me,” he repeated, his voice lower now, like he was grounding himself in the words. Then quieter, almost to himself: “Spirits, I wish you had sooner.”

    Her breath hitched. “But….you said—”

    “I know.” He interrupted, sighing.

    His hands slid down, fingers curling against her hips, holding her like he needed her to understand, to believe him.

    “Jane, I didn’t go home with my date because I couldn’t stop thinking about you,” he admitted, voice rough, words pressing right into her ribs. “I kissed her and all I could see was you.”

    Shepard’s entire body stilled.

    He exhaled, jaw clenching like he was fighting through the last of whatever had been holding him back. Then he let it go.

    “I want this,” he said, eyes darkening. “I want you.”

    She made a sound—soft, breathless, somewhere between a gasp and a laugh of relief. Then, before she could think, she was moving, hands grabbing at him, pulling him back in.

    Garrus met her halfway. This time, he didn’t stop.

    His hands tightened on her hips, pulling her flush against him as his mouth met hers again. The heat between them surged—demanding, reckless. Her fingers slid up the ridges of his jaw, into the plates at the back of his neck. He growled against her mouth, tilting his head, deepening the kiss, his talons digging into the bare skin of her back where her dress left her open to him.

    And spirits, she wanted to drown in this.

    His hands slid down to her thighs, wrapping around them and lifting her effortlessly, her legs instinctively wrapping around his waist as he moved, pressing her against the nearest wall. She barely noticed, barely cared—his mouth was everywhere, along her jaw, at the edge of her throat, his breath hot against her skin. She tilted her head, giving him more access, shivering when his teeth grazed her pulse point.

    Her head was spinning, but not enough. Not yet.

    His hands were strong, certain—one gripping her thigh, the other cradling the side of her face, holding her steady as he kissed her like he wasn’t ever going to stop.

    And then—

    Her omni-tool chirped. Loud. Incessant.

    No. No, no, no, no…

    She ignored it. She wasn’t stopping. Not now.

    Garrus groaned in frustration, pressing his forehead to hers as he caught his breath.

    The omni-tool chirped again.

    Garrus growled. “I swear, I’m going to kill Joker.”

    Shepard sighed, forehead still resting against his. “That’s not Joker.”

    She didn’t move—still held against the wall, still wrapped around him.

    The third chirp finally displayed the incoming transmission.

    Udina.

    Garrus saw the name the same time she did.

    “…You have got to be kidding me,” she muttered.

    Garrus let out a slow breath, muttering what sounded like curses in at least three different languages before finally saying, “Answer it.”

    Shepard groaned, dropping her head against his shoulder before finally, reluctantly, tapping her omni-tool. She tried to steady herself, but she was still breathless.

    Udina’s voice cut through immediately. “Shepard. Good, you’re awake.”

    Garrus smirked against her ear. “Awake… That’s one word for it.”

    Shepard glared at him, clearing her throat before answering, “It’s the middle of the night, Ambassador.”

    “Then I trust you don’t have more pressing plans.”

    Garrus snorted, gripping her thighs tighter.

    She kicked his leg lightly in response, then sighed. “Of course not, Ambassador. What can I do for you?”

    “The Council has requested your presence. Something urgent. Come to the Embassy immediately.”

    Shepard gritted her teeth. “Of course. I’m on my way.”

    The transmission cut out, leaving only silence between them.

    Shepard sighed, then finally looked back at Garrus. Still completely wrapped up in him, his hands around her thighs, his body pressed against hers.

    Then, suddenly he grinned, nuzzling her neck. “And this,” he murmured, voice low, “is why my last two dates failed.”

    Shepard blinked. Then, before she could stop it, she laughed, really laughed, the tension melting for just a second.

    “Wait, you’re blaming me for your failed dates?” she asked, amused.

    Garrus shrugged, completely unapologetic. “Absolutely.”

    She shook her head, grinning.

    Their hands lingered. Neither moved away.

    Then, finally, Garrus exhaled, pressing one last kiss to her forehead before reluctantly setting her back on her feet.

    “Come on,” he said, his voice still rough, still laced with something undeniable.

    “Let’s go find out what the Council wants.”


    Shepard

    The air between them was lighter than it should have been, considering the absolute chaos and confusion the last hour had been.

    But maybe that was just them.

    “…it would be good for her to… relax…”

    She chuckled thinking back to dinner. Almost.

    Shepard exhaled, adjusting her jacket over her shoulders, still acutely aware of the lingering heat of his hands on her skin. The city lights stretched long shadows over the walkways, the glow of the nebula buzzing softly with life.

    And here they were—hand in hand, walking like nothing had changed, like everything hadn’t just changed.

    “Should I even ask what’s going through that devious mind of yours, Vakarian?” she teased, giving his fingers a slight squeeze.

    Garrus huffed out something close to a laugh, tilting his head toward her. “Oh, you really don’t want to know.”

    She smirked, bumping her shoulder lightly against his. “That bad, huh?”

    His mandibles twitched, the way they always did when he was pretending to be exasperated with her. “Let’s just say that my plans for tonight were wildly different than how things actually played out.”

    Shepard arched a brow, feigning innocence. “Oh? You mean getting half-undressed against a wall and being interrupted by a call from Udina wasn’t your ideal evening?”

    Garrus made a sound in the back of his throat, something between a groan and a growl. “You know that’s not what I meant.”

    “Oh…you mean you weren’t planning to get undressed with me?” She teased.

    Garrus groaned, dragging a hand down his face. “Most infuriating woman…”

    She chuckled, watching his mandibles twitch again. “Well, I’m dying to hear what’s on your mind then.”

    He exhaled sharply, shaking his head. “Honestly?”

    She nodded, grinning.

    He glanced at her, something unreadable flickering in his expression before he finally spoke. “The night of the concert. I—” He exhaled, his grip on her hand tightening slightly. “I thought you were leaving with Sean.”

    Shepard blinked. That was not what she expected him to say.

    She slowed her steps, turning to look at him fully. “Wait. You actually thought—” She laughed, shaking her head. “Garrus, Sean and I haven’t been anything for over a decade.”

    His mandibles flared slightly, and there was something almost sheepish about the way he rolled his shoulders. “Yeah, well. You weren’t exactly discouraging the rumors and photo ops.”

    Shepard chuckled. “I tag along occasionally when I happen to be around, so that he doesn’t arrive alone. Rumors surround Sean, I don’t pay attention to them. And for that matter, I’m pretty sure there are more rumors and bets going around about us right now than about Sean and me.”

    Garrus snorted, his grip on her hand still firm, still steady. “Fair point.”

    She glanced at him, something softer settling into her expression. “Besides… I left with you that night.”

    That made him pause. Just for a second. His mandibles flickered, like he was processing something he’d known but hadn’t quite let himself think about.

    “I know,” he said quietly. “That was definitely confusing but also—” He exhaled. “Comforting.”

    Shepard tilted her head, watching him. “Confusing how?”

    Garrus shook his head, like he was still trying to figure out how to explain it. “You were there with Sean. You looked—” He stopped himself, mandibles twitching. “You looked incredible. And I kept telling myself it didn’t matter because you were there with him. Then suddenly you were alone, then you asked me to dance. And then you asked if I wanted to get out of there.”

    She felt her chest tighten at the rawness in his voice.

    “I thought you were with Seris,” she admitted softly.

    Garrus huffed out a breath. “I was. Technically.”

    Shepard winced slightly. “I’m sorry I interrupted that, by the way.”

    He turned to look at her fully, something almost amused flickering in his eyes. “Jane, you have nothing to apologize for. Trust me.”

    She arched a brow. “You sure? Because I’m pretty sure she wanted to make good on her threat to arrest me after I ruined her night.”

    That made him laugh—genuinely. “Yeah, her messages the next day were more…pointed than usual. But that wasn’t your fault.” His expression softened. “Is that why you hadn’t told me how you felt? Because of Seris?”

    She was quiet for a long moment. “No, not really. It was because of what you said. About not being attracted to humans.”

    He froze, then exhaled “Right…that.” Garrus let out a slow breath, shaking his head. “Consciously? I never have been. But that night—” He paused, like he was choosing his words carefully. “That night, I realized I was falling for you. And I didn’t know what to do with that. Because I didn’t think we were a possibility. And I wasn’t about to risk our friendship for some… horrible interspecies-awkwardness thing.”

    Shepard blinked. Then, despite herself, she laughed.

    “What?” Garrus asked, mandibles flicking in confusion.

    “interspecies-awkwardness thing?” she asked, grinning. “You realize it’s not that awkward?”

    He groaned, but there was affection in it. “I do now.”

    She watched him for a long moment, the ease of his presence settling something deep in her chest.

    They were them. Even now. Even after everything.

    The thought made her smile.

    And suddenly, their interrupted night wasn’t so bad. She was certain this wouldn’t be the last chance she’d have to continue what they started.


    Shepard

    Shepard felt the shift immediately.

    The walk to the embassy had been light, easy, the tension from earlier slipping into something familiar—something theirs. But the second she stepped into the room and saw Anderson and Udina speaking with the Council, reality settled back into place.

    This was it. This was business.

    She exchanged a glance with Garrus—he nodded slightly, already settling into the same mindset. Whatever this was, it was important.

    “Commander Shepard, good, you’re here,” Udina said, impatience laced through his voice as he glanced over at Garrus.

    “Ambassador. Captain.” She nodded toward both of them before turning to the holographic projection of the Council.

    Tevos was the first to speak. “Commander Shepard, we’ve received information that may be critical to your mission against Saren.”

    Shepard straightened, her pulse kicking up slightly. She glanced at Garrus again before focusing. “I’ll take all the help I can get.”

    Valern leaned forward, his tone measured but urgent. “We’ve received an urgent message from one of our infiltration regiments in the Traverse.”

    Shepard crossed her arms, brow furrowing. “I’m listening.”

    There was a pause. A beat too long.

    Dramatic effect? Or are they stalling?

    Valern finally continued. “We currently have several infiltration units scattered throughout the border regions of Citadel space. This particular unit was gathering intel on Saren.”

    Shepard’s jaw clenched slightly. “What did they find?”

    Another pause. Another hesitation.

    “Unfortunately, the message we received was little more than static,” Valern admitted. “The infiltration team must be in a situation where they can’t establish proper interstellar communications.”

    Shepard exhaled through her nose, feeling the weight of it. A mission-critical transmission. Scrambled. But the fact that it had been sent meant something.

    She knew, deep in her gut, that this was it. They were getting closer.

    “The message was sent on a priority channel,” Valern continued. “Whatever they were trying to tell us, we know it was important.”

    “Considering your interest in Saren, we thought you might want to investigate,” Tevos added, voice smooth and diplomatic. “Find out what happened to our team. The signal originated from the planet Virmire.”

    Shepard’s fingers twitched slightly at her sides before she nodded. “I’ll look into it.”

    “The Council prefers not to become involved in the specifics of Spectre activities,” Tevos continued, in that same detached, calculated tone. “We only want you to be aware of all your options—including Virmire.”

    Shepard barely resisted the urge to roll her eyes. No matter what she did, no matter what she said, the Council always seemed to find a way to subtly remind her of how little faith they had in her.

    But she didn’t take the bait. Not this time.

    “Good luck, Commander Shepard,” Tevos said, inclining her head. “We will keep you advised if we learn anything else.”

    With that, the transmission cut out.

    Shepard turned to Garrus, already moving. “We have a lead. Get a hold of Joker, have him get everyone back to the Normandy by 0900.”

    “You got it, Shepard,” Garrus said, already tapping his omni-tool as he strode out of the room.

    Udina barely let a breath pass before he cut in, his expression severe. “Don’t let us down, Shepard. This needs to be flawless. And Commander, if you run into any more rachni queens, try not to release them this time.”

    She met his gaze evenly, not bothering to dignify the comment with a response. Instead, she just watched as he turned and stalked off.

    Anderson, however, lingered.

    There was something knowing in his expression as he glanced in the direction Garrus had gone. Then he smirked slightly. “Seems like Garrus has adapted well to being part of the Normandy crew.”

    Shepard rolled her eyes. “He’s a good second. I know I can rely on him. The crew relies on him.”

    Anderson made a thoughtful sound. “Hmm. Of course.”

    She narrowed her eyes slightly, but before she could question him, he clapped a hand on her shoulder.

    “Good luck, Shepard,” he said, voice warm but firm. “Stay safe.”

    With that, he turned and walked away, leaving her standing there, feeling the weight of everything that had just happened.

    She exhaled slowly, shaking off the moment before turning on her heel.

    She had a turian to find.


    Garrus

    The Citadel stretched before them, bathed in the glow of nebula. The streets were quieter now, the usual bustle of the Wards tapering into something slower, softer.

    But Shepard was quiet.

    Not in a distant way. Not like she was pulling away. But like her mind was running ahead of them both, already calculating the next step, already trying to anticipate what was coming.

    Garrus had spent enough time at her side to recognize it. The shift in her posture, the subtle furrow of her brow. The way her fingers tapped against her thigh, the same rhythm she always fell into when she was thinking.

    The weight of Virmire was already settling over her. Over both of them.

    Garrus watched her for a moment, debating whether to say anything. Whether to leave her to her thoughts or—

    “You know this changes things, right?” He hadn’t meant to say it quite like that. Hadn’t meant to make it sound so final. But there it was. Hanging between them, heavy and undeniable.

    Shepard’s steps slowed just slightly. Then she looked at him. And for the first time since the Embassy, he saw it.

    She’s worried.

    Not about the mission. Not about Virmire. But about this. About them.

    The realization hit him harder than he expected.

    She had always been certain. Always so sure of herself, of everything she did. But now? Now, there was something unspoken in the way she looked at him, in the way her lips parted just slightly before she hesitated—like she wasn’t sure if she should say whatever had just crossed her mind.

    And Garrus hated that uncertainty.

    He exhaled, rolling his shoulders slightly, trying to ease the tension he hadn’t even realized was creeping into his own body.

    “Jane,” he said, softer now. “You know I’m with you. No matter what happens.”

    She blinked, just once. Then she nodded, the barest hint of relief flickering behind her eyes.

    “I know,” she murmured.

    They kept walking, neither in a hurry to reach their separate destinations, but both knowing they had to. But before they knew it, they were standing at the place where their paths split.

    She had to head back to her grandmother’s apartment. He needed to return to his own. This night wasn’t going to move forward—not with everything waiting for them in the morning.

    They both knew it.

    She had to pack. They had to be on the Normandy earlier than expected. Virmire was waiting.

    Garrus let out a slow breath, rolling his shoulders. “I’ll see you in the morning.”

    She nodded, shifting her weight, something flickering behind her eyes.

    He turned, walking away, but before he could go too far Jane’s voice stopped him.

    “Garrus.”

    He barely had time to register the urgency in her voice before she was moving.

    She closed the distance between them too fast, throwing her arms around him. Her hands sliding up to his fringe, pulling him down toward her.

    She kissed him.

    And spirits help him, he melted into it.

    She was warm. Solid. Everything he didn’t realize he had been waiting for.

    Her lips moved against his with certainty, with intent, with purpose. It wasn’t hesitant, wasn’t rushed, it was deliberate.

    Because she wasn’t just kissing him to see if this was real. She wasn’t second-guessing. She wasn’t wondering if this had been a mistake.

    No. This was confirmation.

    This was her telling him that everything that happened tonight?

    She meant it.

    When she finally pulled back, her breath was warm against his lips, her hands teasing his neck like she wasn’t quite ready to let go yet.

    She smirked, just slightly, just enough to soften the edges of the moment. “See you in the morning.”

    Then she turned, walking away before he could even begin to process her absence. He just stood there, watching her go, his hand coming up to touch his mouth as if he could still feel her lips against his.

    Spirits help him.

    Morning couldn’t come fast enough.

  • Chapter 20

    Shepard

    Just like before, Garrus walked with her from the docks, steps falling into an easy rhythm beside hers. He always did—right up to the point where their paths split.

    “I’ll let you know if I find anything. But… Jane?” He tilted his head, brow plate quirking until she met his eyes. “Take some time to relax. Even you can’t keep going forever.”

    She huffed a soft laugh. “I could say the same about you, Garrus.”

    He shook his head and turned away, voice already fading with distance. “I’ll see you around, pyjak.”

    That made her laugh. He always knew how to land the final blow.

    But maybe he was right. Her shoulders ached with the weight of dead ends. And worrying wasn’t getting them any closer to a lead. Until they heard something concrete, all she could do was wait… and try not to pace a trench into the deck.

    When her parents suggested dinner that night, she didn’t hesitate. It had been a long time since the three of them were in the same place at the same time. She let herself fall into it—just for a while.

    Her mother had picked the restaurant, of course. Some sleek, overdecorated place in the upper wards where everything shimmered under soft lighting. Hannah always wanted to try somewhere new when she was on shore leave. Meanwhile, if it was up to her and her father, they would have found themselves in some little hole in the wall somewhere in the lower wards.

    But they both went along with it. Her mom didn’t ask for much. And if she was being honest… she didn’t mind getting dressed up once in a while.

    When she opened the closet, her eyes landed on the blue dress. The one she’d bought on a whim and never worn. More expensive than it had any right to be… but it had been love at first sight.

    Tonight’s as good a night as any, she thought, reaching for it.

    She pulled her brown leather jacket over her shoulders to dress it down, slipped on the boots that made her feel tall and grounded, and tied her hair up in a ponytail.

    Not overdone. Not too much. Just… enough.

    When they arrived at the restaurant, she and Selvek exchanged a knowing glance but said nothing. Then, without warning, her mother’s expression lit up as she waved toward someone.

    Shepard followed her gaze—and froze.

    Garrus.

    He was leaning against the bar, drink in hand. The soft glow of the restaurant’s lighting caught the sharp angles of his plating, tracing the lines of his face. He looked relaxed, posture easy… but the slight twitch of his mandibles gave him away.

    Then she saw the woman sitting beside him.

    Oh.

    Something settled in her stomach, heavy and unwanted. It wasn’t quite jealousy. Not exactly. It was the quiet, bitter realization that it would never be her sitting there with him like that.

    She had known, logically, that he was probably still trying to date. Of course he is.

    It made sense. The mission was stressful, dangerous—he needed an outlet. And there weren’t any options on the Normandy… not ones he was interested in, anyway.

    Her mother, completely unaware of the derailment in her thoughts, smiled brighter and waved him over again.

    Shepard barely resisted the urge to sink through the floor.

    “Garrus!” Hannah called, warm and casual.

    He turned, eyes scanning the restaurant until they landed on them. Shepard watched recognition flicker across his face—surprise first, then something unreadable—before his mandibles flared slightly and he started toward them.

    He didn’t have a choice. Hannah had already invited him over.

    Selvek, beside her, said nothing. But she felt his gaze flick her way. Sharp. Measuring.

    Garrus reached them in seconds, his posture still slightly unsure, but his voice was steady.

    “Staff Lieutenant, sir.” He gave both of her parents a respectful nod before turning to her. “Jane.”

    She lifted her chin, forced the edges of a smile into place. “Garrus.”

    Hannah, blissfully unaware of the sudden tension, gave him a knowing look. “Please, it’s just Hannah. Are you here alone? If you are, you should join us.”

    And just like that, Shepard watched as Garrus probably regretted every decision he had made today. At least the choice of restaurant.

    His mandibles twitched, shifting slightly as he hesitated.

    “…No,” he admitted, shifting awkwardly. “I’m on a date.”

    She felt it then. The sting. Quick, sharp, and gone before it could settle. So fleeting she almost didn’t recognize it before she was already forcing it down.

    She smothered it instantly. “Mom, my crew already spends enough time dealing with me. I don’t think they need to see more of me while they’re on shore leave.”

    Her voice was even, laced with the kind of mild embarrassment that only parents could inflict.

    Garrus hesitated again, like he’d caught something in her expression. But before he could say anything else, Hannah nodded in understanding.

    “Well, I won’t keep you,” her mother said, smiling. “Maybe next time we can finally catch you, in person, when you’re free.”

    Garrus cleared his throat and gave a short nod. “Yeah. Maybe next time.”

    “Enjoy your night, Garrus.” Shepard added casually.

    Then, just like that, he turned and walked back toward the bar. She didn’t watch him go. Didn’t let herself. She didn’t want to watch his date’s reaction. Watch as she probably put her hands all over him.

    Instead, she turned back to her parents, pushing the entire moment away. Her father was still looking at her. He didn’t say anything, didn’t call attention to the fact that he had noticed.

    But he had. He always did, and she could already feel the scrutinizing gaze. He knew. But she just pretended not to notice.

    Instead, she exhaled, rolling her shoulders. “Come on,” she said, gesturing toward the host stand. “Let’s eat.”

    And, with far more effort than it should have taken, she walked forward, leaving the moment behind her.


    Garrus

    The glass in his hand felt heavier than it should have. Though he wasn’t sure why.

    He’d been in this exact situation before. The Citadel. A bar. A woman leaning in beside him, smiling like she already knew how the night would end. It was familiar. Routine.

    And yet, something felt off. He should’ve been relaxed—this was supposed to be easy. That was the entire point. Blow off steam. Shut everything else out.

    His date was talking, and he was nodding when he should, answering when expected. But none of it was landing.

    His mind was elsewhere. On her.

    He’d been fine until Hannah Shepard waved him over. Until he turned around and saw Jane standing there. In that dress.

    And now? Now it was burned into his mind. The way the soft, blue fabric shifted when she moved—shorter in front and flowing low behind her. Strappy boots that made her legs look like a damn weapon. The way the leather bodice wrapped around her, structured and unapologetic beneath the edge of her jacket. Casual. Lethal. Effortless.

    She didn’t just wear it. She was it. A study in contradictions. Just like the night of the concert.

    And now he was sitting here, pretending to listen, while all he could hear was her voice.

    “Enjoy your night, Garrus.”

    Perfectly casual. Perfectly controlled. But… there had been something.

    A flicker of something.

    Something in her eyes, in the way she had looked at him before covering it up so seamlessly that he almost believed he imagined it. Almost.

    His mandibles twitched, jaw tightening.

    Beside him, his date shifted closer, fingers brushing against the plating of his forearm. “So… who was your friend?”

    He blinked. It took him a second to realize she meant Jane.

    “Oh.” He exhaled, rolling his shoulders in a weak attempt to ground himself. “That… was Jane.”

    No. That wasn’t right. Not for her.

    “Commander Jane Shepard,” he corrected.

    His date smirked, head tilted. “The Spectre? You know the first human Spectre?”

    Her tone was light. Almost dismissive. It made something inside him bristle.

    “I… yeah. I serve under her.” His voice came out lower, quieter. His thoughts weren’t here.

    They were with her. The sound of her voice. The line of her collarbone, the way the fabric dipped low in the back, just below the jacket.

    He shouldn’t be thinking about this. He needed to focus. She was his Commander. His best friend. She was human.

    And he didn’t—didn’t what, exactly? Didn’t have a fetish for humans? His jaw clenched.

    His date leaned in closer, voice dropping. “So… your place or mine?”

    There was a pause. Long enough that even she noticed. He forced a breath. “Let’s go back to your place.”

    She smiled, clearly satisfied, and flagged the bartender. They paid the tab and left, stepping into the night.

    As the door closed behind them, it should’ve been easy. His date was attractive. Confident. Interested. She didn’t make him guess. And for a few minutes, he let himself believe that was enough.

    She leaned in. He let her. Their mandibles brushed, and her mouth traced lower—down his neck.

    It should’ve worked.

    But the moment his eyes closed?

    Jane.

    Spirits, not now.

    She shouldn’t be in his head. Not here. Not like this. But there she was. The way she smiled at him that night at the ramen place, the way she threw her arms around him in the comm room. The way she looked tonight. Like she didn’t know what she was doing to him. Or maybe she did. Maybe that was the problem.

    His body tensed. His date noticed. She pulled back, brow furrowed. “Something wrong?”

    You’re not her.

    He stepped back. Too fast. His mandibles twitched, and he already knew it was over. Because in that moment, it wasn’t confusion anymore. It wasn’t some vague attraction. Some hypothetical curiosity. This wasn’t about her being human.

    It was Jane. And it always had been.

    I don’t have a fetish for humans. Those had been his words to her. He almost laughed. He’d tried to believe it. It hadn’t been true then either.

    “I’m sorry,” he said, voice low. “This isn’t going to work out.”

    Her eyes narrowed. “Are you serious?”

    He nodded. “Yeah. I am.”

    “Well,” she said, annoyed, resigned, “at least you figured it out now. I think you can see yourself out.”

    And just like that, she walked away. No dramatics. Just the sound of the door closing behind her.

    Garrus stood there in the silence. The apartment was too warm. Too still. Too…wrong. He exhaled hard, rolling the tension out of his shoulders. He had to move. Had to walk this off before his thoughts took him somewhere he wasn’t ready to go.


    Shepard

    Shepard tried to focus on dinner with her parents, but it wasn’t going as well as she’d hoped. She was going through the motions—responding, laughing, engaging. But Garrus was on a date. Just back there, half a room away, by the bar.

    “Garrus seems nice,” Hannah’s voice pulled her out of her thoughts, “He certainly seems to be taking care of you.”

    “Mom…”

    “Hannah, leave it.” Selvek interjected.

    “What? “I’m just saying we should have him over for dinner. We only got to talk to him when he told us about the rachni,” Hannah added.

    “I’m pretty sure my crew doesn’t need to be spending time with me or my parents while on shore leave.” Shepard’s tone was sharper than she intended.

    “You know, that handsome young marine at the bar has been staring at you for quite a while…” Hannah’s words trailed off.

    Shepard ordered another drink. She just needed to leave this place. She didn’t want to turn around. She certainly didn’t want some ‘handsome young marine’.

    “Hannah.” Selvek warned.

    “What? I’m just saying she’s on shore leave and it would be good for her to… relax…” Hannah said, letting the insinuation hang in the air.

    “What could possibly go wrong with Commander Jane Shepard, N7 operative, first human Spectre, sleeping with some random handsome young Alliance marine while on shore leave…” Her tone was more frustrated than she intended.

    She took a deep breath, then another sip of her drink, trying to ease her tone back down.

    “Spirits help me…” She buried her face in her hands for a moment before looking back at her mother. “This is what I should remember the next time someone asks what it was like to grow up the way I did. My turian father managed to teach my human mother how to have no boundaries about my love life.”

    “So you love him?” Selvek asked knowingly.

    All color drained from her face as she shot a glare at her father. “Dad!”

    Hannah and Selvek exchanged a glance. “Oh…Garrus? I see now… He is quite handsome… The blue markings play beautifully with the color of his plates…”

    Shepard groaned, exasperated. “Alright, I love you both, thank you for dinner, but I think I’m done now. I’ll see you back at home,” she said, getting up and leaning across the table to kiss each of them on the cheek before leaving the restaurant.


    Garrus

    Garrus had been walking for nearly an hour. He wasn’t sure where he was going. He just needed to move, to breathe. His apartment had been too warm, the walls too close, his own thoughts too loud.

    His mandibles twitched as he exhaled, rubbing a hand down his face. He had spent the entire night trying to force himself to feel something for the woman he had left at her apartment. Trying to convince himself that nothing had changed. That he was still him. That nothing about Shepard in that dress, nothing about the way she had looked at him, nothing about the way his stomach had twisted at the words “Enjoy your night, Garrus” had affected him.

    But he couldn’t. Because now? Now he was painfully aware of the truth.

    He didn’t just want her. He needed her.

    It wasn’t just some thought in the back of his mind anymore, something to ignore or push aside. No. Something had fundamentally shifted.

    And then he looked up. His breath hitched.

    She was sitting at a small taco stand tucked into the side streets of the wards, the kind that felt more real than the high-end restaurants in the Presidium or upper wards.

    Her jacket was slung over the stool next to her, leaving her exposed. The tattoo—the crescent moon, the wing, the blade—was visible in the low light, the blue ink standing out against her skin. The one that she had let him drag his talons across.

    It still didn’t cease to amaze him she had.

    The contrast of her outfit shouldn’t have worked, but it did. The soft, flowing fabric of the dress, the hard edges of the leather jacket, the dangerous elegance of the over-the-knee boots—all of it was just… her.

    She was effortlessly beautiful. And this time, for the first time, Garrus truly saw it.

    Not just as something to observe, not as something abstract. He had told himself that he wasn’t attracted to humans but Jane… she was the most beautiful thing he had ever seen.

    He looked around, finding no one else nearby. Was she alone? Why was she alone? She had been with her parents just hours ago and now she was here. Just sitting there as if the rest of the world around her didn’t exist.

    Shepard looked untouchable tonight.

    He watched her for a while. Watched as a human walked up to talk to her. She smiled. But not genuinely. The practiced smile of Commander Shepard being pleasant. Then she simply nodded, waving off the man who had just walked up to her, likely to flirt.

    Why did she turn him down?

    His throat went dry.

    She took a sip of her beer, tapping her fingers idly against the counter, lost in thought. She hadn’t noticed him and for a moment, he just… stood there. Debating.

    This was his last chance to walk away. To keep pretending. But he didn’t. Instead, he took a breath, and finally stepped forward.

    “Fancy meeting you here,” he said, his voice lower than usual.

    Shepard turned, her gaze meeting his, and Garrus felt something in his chest tighten.

    She didn’t look surprised. She just smiled.

    And damn it all, that was it.

    He sat down next to her. He wasn’t hungry, but he didn’t want to leave, so he ordered something—didn’t even think about what it was, just pointed at the menu and let the vendor do the rest. Because this wasn’t about the food.

    This was about her.

    Shepard sat beside him, one elbow resting lazily on the counter, one leg crossed over the other, the dress riding up just enough to show more of her thigh than she probably realized.

    Not that he needed reminding of why his brain had short-circuited earlier. That damn dress had already taken up permanent residence in his memory.

    She didn’t say anything at first, just glanced over as the vendor handed him a plate. Her eyes were sharp but easy, the same way she always looked at him.

    That was the problem.

    Because she didn’t know. Didn’t know what she was doing to him, how that dress had ruined him, how she’d been the only thing in his damn head since he walked away from her at that restaurant. She didn’t know that when he kissed his date, he had thought about her.

    And now? Now he was sitting next to her, pretending he could still be the man he was before tonight.

    She raised a brow, smirking. “Didn’t expect to see you again tonight.”

    Garrus exhaled, forcing himself to sound normal. “Yeah, well. Plans changed.”

    She didn’t question it. Didn’t press. Just took another bite of her taco, easy and comfortable. And that was worse. Because to her, this was nothing. Just another night, just another conversation. She had no idea he was barely holding himself together.

    He took a bite of the food in front of him, chewing slowly, trying to distract himself, but it wasn’t working. Nothing was working. His eyes flicked to her again—her jacket still draped over the stool beside her, her back still bare.

    That tattoo. He had seen it before. Had traced the ink with his fingers. But now? Now, it felt different. Because now, his mind supplied another image entirely. That tattoo, her back arched beneath his hands. Beneath his mouth.

    Spirits. Stop.

    He clenched his jaw, gripping his glass tighter.

    Then, just as he was barely keeping it together, she did something small. Innocuous.

    She wiped a bit of sauce off the corner of his mouth with her thumb, smiling at him. That same smile from the night of the concert.

    It was casual. Perfectly normal. Or it should have been. But it wasn’t. Not to him.

    Garrus went completely still.

    Then he heard it. Her heartbeat quickened. It had been steady before, slow and easy. Now? Now, it wasn’t.

    She noticed. Her hand pulled back too fast. “Sorry.”

    Her voice was different. Just barely. Just enough.

    His heart was hammering because that meant something.

    Her heart had betrayed her.

    For the first time, Garrus realized he wasn’t the only one unraveling. It suddenly all made sense. The night of the concert, the way she rushed him in the comm room.

    “So what happened to your date?” she asked, taking another sip of her beer.

    Garrus nearly choked. “What?”

    Shepard quirked an eyebrow. “Your date, back at the restaurant? Where’d she go?”

    He exhaled. “Didn’t work out.”

    Shepard tilted her head. “Oh?”

    He shrugged, feigning nonchalance. “Wasn’t in the right headspace.”

    She watched him for a moment. Then she smirked and leaned back. “What, Vakarian? And here I thought turians were supposed to be the experts of casual encounters.”

    He shook his head, trying to dislodge the thoughts, but it didn’t seem to work. He leaned in, just slightly, his voice lower than usual. “Alright, Shepard. What do you say we get out of here?”

    She looked up at him, blue lights flickering against her skin, and for a moment, his heart stopped.

    Because she didn’t hesitate.

    She just smiled, finishing the last sip of her beer. “Let’s go.”


    Garrus

    They walked in easy silence, neither of them in a hurry, neither of them needing to say much.

    Shepard had draped her jacket over her shoulders again, but the back of her dress still dipped low, her tattoo peeking through the bottom. Garrus told himself he wasn’t looking. Except he absolutely was.

    He should have been thinking about where they were going. But instead? He was thinking about how her heartbeat had spiked when she touched him.

    About how she hadn’t said no. About how she always said yes to him when she seemed to say no to everyone else. She was here, with him.

    That’s when he spotted it: A combat arcade.

    Sparring rings, VR combat simulations, even an old-fashioned shooting range.

    He smirked, nudging her elbow. “Well, this seems more like your speed.”

    Shepard turned, following his gaze. Then she smiled. “You up for a round, Vakarian?”

    Garrus scoffed, crossing his arms. “In case you forgot, Shepard, you’re still wearing that dress.”

    She lifted an eyebrow. “And?”

    He tilted his head. “And I just don’t want to embarrass you in front of an audience.”

    Shepard laughed, already heading for the entrance. “Guess we’ll find out.”

    Inside, the arcade hummed with activity—the crack of simulated gunfire, the thud of fists against training dummies, the electronic beeps of score tallies. Garrus headed toward the counter to pay for a ring.

    Shepard reached for her credit chit. “I’ve got it.”

    He waved her off. “I can pay for a sparring ring, Jane.”

    “Garrus, I’m a Spectre. I probably make more than you.”

    “Probably?” He quirked a brow plate. “Try definitely. Doesn’t mean I can’t pay.”

    She smirked, but there was something in her eyes—like she was testing something. “You know, if I let you pay, someone might get the wrong idea.”

    He paused. “What idea?”

    “That this is a date.”

    The words landed harder than they should have. He forced his mandibles into something resembling amusement, kept his voice light. “Pretty sure sparring doesn’t count as a date, Jane.”

    “Guess it depends who you ask.” She shrugged, smiling, but her heartbeat—spirits, her heartbeat had kicked up again.

    He just paid. Didn’t trust himself to say anything else.

    A date?

    Was this a date? Did she want it to be?

    And if it was…Get it together, Vakarian. She was joking…right?

    Shepard made her way over to the ring, already taking off her boots. The move made her just slightly shorter, more grounded—but no less stunning.

    A few people had started to notice. Whispers. Sideways glances. Someone muttering, “Is that Shepard?”

    She either didn’t notice or didn’t care.

    She cracked her neck, rolling her shoulders. “I can take you in a dress, Garrus. Question is, do you think you can take me?”

    His mandibles twitched. This was a bad idea. A very, very bad idea. And yet? He stepped into the ring anyway.

    She grinned, settling into a ready stance.

    From the moment the match started, Garrus knew he was in trouble. She was fast—ducking, weaving, sidestepping him like she was born for this. The dress didn’t slow her down. If anything, she seemed faster. Or maybe he was just that distracted.

    She wasn’t just fighting. She was playing with him.

    And spirits, he wanted to let her.

    But he wasn’t about to make it easy.

    She came in low, and he blocked. She pivoted fast, but he countered. She moved to sweep his legs, but he sidestepped.

    And yet the entire time, all he could think about was how good she looked doing it. That distraction cost him.

    It wasn’t much. Just a fraction of a second too slow. And that’s all she needed.

    He hit the mat hard. The wind knocked from his lungs as she pinned him, her knee pressed against his ribs, her hands braced against his chest.

    There was a smattering of applause from the growing crowd, some people cheered. Someone whooped.

    Garrus barely registered it.

    She was so close. Her breath just slightly uneven, her pupils blown.

    His entire world narrowed to this moment.

    He swallowed. “Alright, Jane,” he murmured. “You win.”

    She didn’t move immediately. She just stayed there. Watching him. Then her lips curved into a slow, knowing smile.

    And now? All thoughts that weren’t about her, about the way she would feel in his arms, were gone.

    She finally let him up, offering her hand. He took it.

    He should have left it at that. Should have walked away.

    But before he could stop himself, the words left his mouth. “Want to grab a drink? My place?”

    She hesitated for a second, then smiled. “Always.”

    Spirits help him. He had no idea where this was going, but he couldn’t walk away. Not now.

  • Chapter 16

    Shepard

    The second time Shepard woke up, it wasn’t to warmth, but to the absence of it.

    She blinked herself into consciousness, frowning slightly as her fingers flexed against the throw blanket that had been draped over her. The couch was still as comfortable as it had been last night, and the space beside her was still warm—but empty.

    Garrus was gone.

    She sat up slowly, brushing her hair out of her face. She wasn’t used to waking up alone in someone else’s space. Then again, this wasn’t just someone. And besides, it wasn’t like they’d—No. Don’t even think about that.

    Her thoughts were still catching up when the door slid open, and the scent hit her first—fresh coffee, something warm, something good. Then came the familiar sound of Garrus’ boots against the floor, followed by his voice, casual, like he hadn’t just left her alone in his apartment while he ran errands.

    “Thought you’d still be out,” he said, setting a bag down on the counter. “Figured I’d grab breakfast.”

    Shepard stretched, rolling her shoulders. “Didn’t even realize you left.”

    Garrus smirked. “I’m surprised.”

    She scoffed, tossing the blanket off as she stood. “You left me on your couch, not in a warzone. Not that surprising.”

    He huffed in amusement, pulling out a pair of coffee cups from the bag. “Figured I owed you real coffee. You drink enough of that Alliance-grade shit, I’m starting to worry it’s altered your DNA.”

    Shepard rolled her eyes but took the offered cup anyway, inhaling deeply as she leaned against the counter. “What would I do without you?”

    Garrus chuckled as he pulled out whatever food he’d grabbed. Shepard could already tell it smelled incredible, but before she could ask what it was, her omni-tool pinged. She glanced at the sender. Sean.

    SEAN [10:54]: You alive?
    JANE [10:55]: I think so. How was your company?

    Garrus noticed the way she was staring at her omni-tool. “Something wrong?”

    She smirked, shaking her head. “Sean.”

    Garrus made a noise in the back of his throat that could have been anything, but she didn’t miss the way his mandibles flicked. Her omni-tool lit up again.

    SEAN [10:57]: Eh. You know how it is. Actually, from the rumors I’m hearing, your night was far more interesting than mine.

    Shepard raised a brow. “Huh.”

    Garrus, already focused on his food, glanced over. “Huh, what?”

    Shepard didn’t answer right away, just tapped out a reply.

    JANE [10:59]: Lunch today?

    She didn’t know what rumors he was hearing, but she sure as hell wanted to find out. Garrus was still watching her, waiting. She locked her omni-tool and shrugged, turning back to the coffee instead. “Nothing.”

    For a second, she thought he might call her on it, might press for more, but he didn’t. Instead, he just exhaled through his nose and slid a small takeout container toward her. “You’re gonna want this before the coffee.”

    She raised a brow but took it, popping the lid. Warm. Fluffy. Perfectly cooked eggs with just the right amount of seasoning.

    Shepard smirked. “You keep this up, Garrus, and I’m going to start expecting breakfast after every night out…Well first I might schedule more shore leave…”

    Garrus huffed a quiet laugh, shaking his head as he picked up his own drink. “Yeah, yeah. Just eat.”

    She did. And then, without thinking about it too much, she grabbed the throw blanket again and pulled it over her shoulders, sinking back into the couch. She had places to be today, but right now? She was exactly where she wanted to be.

    Her omni-tool pinged again. Shepard glanced at the screen, half-expecting some follow-up about where to meet Sean for lunch. Instead—

    SEAN [11:03]: Sure. I’ve always been curious if turians are any good in bed.

    Shepard choked on her coffee. Literally.

    A sharp inhale, a cough, then a half-sputtered attempt to not die as Garrus turned his head, immediately alarmed. “You okay?”

    She waved him off, coughing and swallowing, finally getting enough air back in her lungs. “Fine.”

    Garrus narrowed his eyes, clearly not convinced. “You don’t sound fine.”

    Shepard exhaled through her nose, locking the damn omni-tool before he could see the message. “Coffee went down wrong.” That was technically true.

    Garrus hummed, skeptical but letting it go. Meanwhile, Shepard ran through at least five different scenarios in her head—all of which involved interrogating someone.

    She knew what he was doing. Sean didn’t ask things just to ask. He didn’t bring this up out of nowhere. He must have heard something. Her omni-tool pinged again.

    SEAN [11:06]: When I got back to the club, your crew was settling bets and placing new ones. That’s what I get for leaving early, huh?

    Spirits… What the hell is the crew saying? Shepard groaned, dragging a hand down her face. Great. Just great.

    Garrus tilted his head, still watching her. “You sure you’re—”

    “I’m fine, Garrus.” A beat of silence. Then he smirked. “You’re lying.”

    Shepard exhaled sharply. “Shut up and eat your breakfast, Vakarian.”

    For now, she’d deal with Sean over lunch.


    Garrus

    The ward had settled into something quieter. The liveliness of the concert, the party, was long behind him, but Garrus was still trying to make sense of it all. Make sense of what the hell had happened the night before.

    She had chosen him. That much he knew. And yet, as he made his way through the market, scanning through different stalls, his mind kept circling back to what had happened that morning.

    Sean.

    Shepard nearly choking on her coffee after getting that message. The way her expression had flickered—only for a second—before she brushed it off. She said it was nothing. But Shepard never said nothing when it actually was nothing.

    He exhaled sharply through his nose, forcing his thoughts back into something more tangible. He had things to do. Stock up on supplies, grab another bottle of brandy, maybe find a few more things before they shipped out tomorrow.

    That’s why he was here. Not because he was wondering if he’d see her again before they departed. Not because he was still trying to rationalize why she’d chosen him last night.

    Spirits, get it together, Vakarian.

    His eyes scanned the shelves, searching out the same brandy he always got when something caught his attention—a bottle of human whiskey. BH-230 Dark Rye.

    Without thinking, he picked it up, turning it over in his hands, weighing the thought in his mind. It wasn’t like she had asked him to get it. Hell, it wasn’t even like she’d expect it. But she would drink it.

    He scoffed to himself, shaking his head as he carried both bottles to the counter. Just being practical, he told himself. She’s been drinking my brandy—only fair.

    If that was a lie, he wasn’t going to think about it too hard.

    After paying, he stepped back onto the Citadel streets, the crowd around him fluid and familiar. It felt like he had spent a lifetime here, but now? It didn’t feel the same.

    Because Shepard wasn’t here. She was off somewhere, having lunch with Sean.

    His mandibles twitched, his grip tightening on the bag just slightly. She had chosen him last night, but Sean hadn’t been there when she did. So maybe it didn’t mean anything after all.

    Besides, I’m exactly where I want to be. Her words echoed in his mind, settling his doubts more than he realized. She had already told him she and Sean weren’t together. Hadn’t been for a long time. Why was he still thinking about it? Even if she was, what difference did it make?

    Damn it…Seris… He sighed, pulling up his omni-tool, scrolling to Seris’ name.

    GARRUS [12:28]: Sorry about last night. I looked for you before I left but couldn’t find you.

    That was a lie… He hadn’t looked for her. Truthfully, he had completely forgotten about her until just now. Hadn’t meant to.

    A few minutes passed. Then—

    SERIS [12:30]: Wow. Didn’t expect an apology. So I’m guessing it wasn’t just the drinks, then?

    Garrus frowned, his mandibles flicking.

    GARRUS [12:31]: What’s that supposed to mean?

    SERIS [12:33]: Please. I saw how you looked at her. The entire club did. Never thought you’d be one to have a thing for a human.

    His stomach twisted. What was she talking about?

    GARRUS [12:36]: It’s not like that.

    SERIS [12:37]: Mm. Sure. You keep telling yourself that, Vakarian.

    He didn’t respond, just closed his omni-tool and exhaled. Seris was wrong. She had to be. Because Shepard was just his friend. And he didn’t have a fetish for humans.

    So why does it matter?


    Shepard

    The café Sean had picked was the kind of place that looked effortlessly expensive—sleek metallic finishes, wide floor-to-ceiling windows overlooking the Presidium, the kind of muted, atmospheric music that made you feel like you were supposed to be having important conversations.

    Shepard had rolled her eyes the second she walked in.

    “Trying to impress me, Belmore?” she’d asked, settling into her seat across from him.

    Sean just grinned. “I always impress you, Sparky.”

    She laughed, but she couldn’t deny the food was good.

    They were halfway through lunch, plates half-finished between them, when Sean finally leaned back in his chair, drumming his fingers against his glass.

    “So,” he started, dragging the word out, “are we gonna talk about it, or are you just gonna pretend I don’t know?”

    Shepard didn’t even look up. “I have no idea what you’re talking about.”

    Sean laughed. “Right, because I didn’t spend the morning hearing about all the rumors flying around the Citadel right now.”

    Shepard exhaled slowly, stabbing at a piece of food on her plate. “I’m almost afraid to ask.”

    Sean smirked. “Well, for starters, the moment I got back to the club last night, your crew was still placing bets.”

    Shepard groaned, running a hand down her face. “Of course they were.”

    “Oh, but that’s not the best part.” Sean leaned in, eyes gleaming with amusement. “I heard some particularly colorful theories about what happened after you left.”

    Shepard took a slow sip of her drink. “Let me guess. That I went home with you?”

    Sean scoffed. “Sparky, I didn’t even make the list.”

    That made her pause. She raised an eyebrow. “Excuse me?”

    “Oh yeah.” Sean grinned. “Apparently, I was out the second you walked out of that club with him.”

    Shepard went still. She knew exactly who he meant, but she asked anyway. “Who?”

    Sean rolled his eyes. “Don’t play dumb, Sparky. The turian. Vakarian.”

    Shepard exhaled sharply, shaking her head. “It’s nothing.”

    Sean blinked. Then he actually laughed—loud, sharp, entirely amused. “Oh, no way,” he grinned, shaking his head. “You really are lying to yourself.”

    Shepard scowled. “Sean.”

    “No, no, this is adorable.” Sean leaned forward, propping his chin on one hand. “You really think no one noticed?”

    She rolled her eyes. “Noticed what? That I danced with him? That we got food? We’re friends, Sean.”

    Sean smirked. “Friends who left together.”

    “We leave together all the time. Spirits, you and I eat together, sometimes travel together, I go to events with you and we don’t sleep together anymore.”

    “But we’re not talking about us. Besides, most people do assume you and I sleep together on and off.” Sean quipped.

    “We didn’t sleep together,” she stated, firm.

    Sean huffed a laugh. “That’s not the part I’m questioning, Sparky.”

    She glared at him.

    Sean just shook his head, still grinning. “You know, I’ve seen you with a lot of people over the years. But last night? That was different.”

    “It wasn’t,” Shepard insisted.

    “Right,” Sean said, dragging the word out. “And what does he think?”

    Shepard huffed. “Garrus doesn’t think anything. He’s not into humans.”

    Sean snorted. “Bullshit.”

    Shepard’s head snapped up, narrowing her eyes. “Excuse me?”

    Sean tilted his head, amused. “He either lied to you, or you’re lying to yourself, Sparky.”

    She shook her head. “No. He told me. Directly. We talked about it.”

    “And he said what, exactly?” Sean pressed, watching her carefully.

    She hesitated. “He… he said he doesn’t have a fetish for humans.”

    Sean raised an eyebrow. “A fetish? Not that he doesn’t find you attractive?”

    Shepard opened her mouth. Then closed it.

    Sean grinned. “Oh, this is delicious,” he said, sitting back, stretching lazily. “So, let me get this straight. You’re telling me that that turian, the one who couldn’t stop watching you last night, the one who literally chose you over his date—”

    Shepard stiffened. “That’s not—”

    Sean kept going. “—the one who left with you, got food with you, carried you home because you couldn’t walk in those stupidly hot death traps you call shoes—and yes, people saw that too.”

    She glared. “Sean—”

    “—you’re telling me he doesn’t want you?”

    Shepard exhaled slowly through her nose, jaw tight.

    Sean just shook his head, grinning. “You really are blind.”

    She sighed, leaning back, rubbing at her temples. “Sean.”

    He raised his hands in surrender. “Hey, I’m just saying, if you really believe that, maybe you should ask him again.”

    Shepard scoffed. “Yeah, because that wouldn’t be a weird conversation.”

    Sean chuckled. “What’s weirder, Sparky? Asking him now—or figuring it out too late?”

    She didn’t answer.

    She wasn’t sure she could.


    Garrus

    There was no sunset on the Citadel, no fading sky—only the slow shift of the city’s neon pulse. Daytime storefronts dimmed, their signs flickering off one by one, while the moody glow of clubs, bars, and casinos surged to life in their place. The Wards had their own rhythm, a quiet transition from one life to another, and Garrus had been watching it unfold, his thoughts elsewhere, when his omni-tool buzzed.

    JANE [19:42]: You home?

    His mandibles twitched. Yeah, he was home.

    He waited exactly two minutes before answering. Just enough to not seem like he had been staring at his omni-tool.

    GARRUS [19:44]: Yeah.

    Ten minutes later, she knocked.

    She walked in like she belonged there, looking like herself again. Except this time, he knew things would never be the same.

    Gone was the smokey-eyed supermodel from last night, the woman who had stolen every damn breath from his lungs before he even realized what was happening. Now she was back in her usual clothes—black joggers, a fitted white tank, and her N7 hoodie, sleeves pushed up to her elbows. Her hair pulled back into a messy ponytail, a few strands falling loose around her face. No layers of jewelry, no heels, no stage lights—just Jane.

    And yet… he couldn’t unsee the woman who walked into that club and turned every single head.

    He tried to push the thought away as she stepped inside, exhaling through her nose as she dropped a bottle of top-shelf turian brandy onto his table.

    He raised a brow plate. “Figured I owed you a decent bottle after all your generosity,” she said, smirking.

    Garrus huffed. She didn’t have to do that. But he wasn’t going to argue, either.

    Instead, he grabbed two glasses—because that was what they did now. He poured her drink, just like before. And she poured his. Unspoken. Understood.

    They clinked glasses, and she took a slow sip, watching him.

    And that’s when she said it. “By the way, you may hear some rumors.” Her voice was soft, hesitant.

    Garrus exhaled sharply through his nose. He had been waiting for this. “Oh?” He leaned back, letting his mandibles twitch in amusement. “That bad, huh?”

    After seeing the crew’s faces the night before, he had expected it. But to his surprise, she didn’t laugh it off. She didn’t joke, didn’t smirk, didn’t even seem mildly amused. Instead, she looked guilty—like she had done something wrong. Like she was actually apologizing to him.

    Shepard exhaled, shifting the glass in her hands. “Depends on your definition of bad.”

    Garrus’s brow furrowed. She wasn’t playing this up. She was actually worried about what people were saying.

    He tilted his head. “Alright, I’ll bite. What are people saying?”

    Shepard hesitated, and that wasn’t like her. Finally, she set her glass down, not quite meeting his eyes. “I’m used to rumors about me and Sean. People expect that—rockstar’s ex-girlfriend, whatever. But this…” She exhaled sharply. “This is different.”

    Garrus watched her carefully, mandibles going still.

    “Apparently,” she continued, voice tight, “the rumors are that I either seduced my turian subordinate, or that you’ve got a thing for humans and I was… convenient.” She finally looked at him, and the guilt in her expression was unmistakable. “Either way, it makes you look bad…. I…”

    She closed her eyes for a moment, took a breath, then forced herself to meet his gaze again. “I guess…I’m used to that too, in a way. What they’ve always said about my father raising me. That this is what happens when you blur those lines.”

    Her jaw tightened. “But…my father was my father. Not many turians, or humans, who would cross him. My grandmother…well same. But you? You’re just a C-Sec officer under my command and…”

    Her words trailed off, the implication obvious, but it was as if she couldn’t quite say it.

    Garrus stared at her for a long moment, processing.

    She was worried. Not about her own reputation—she could weather that storm. She was worried about his. About what this would do to him in the turian community, with his family, to his career, to how people saw him.

    And that guilt—that weight she was carrying—it hit him harder than any rumor ever could.

    He almost choked on the next sip of his drink, not from the implications, but from the realization that she thought this was her fault. That she thought she had somehow damaged him.

    Shepard’s expression flickered. “Yeah,” she said, voice almost too controlled. “That’s about what I expected.”

    Garrus set his glass down, shaking his head. “Wait, wait, wait—you mean to tell me I spent one night not in the cargo bay, and suddenly I have stories to tell?”

    She let out a small, strained chuckle, but the worry didn’t leave her eyes. She was still carrying it, still feeling responsible for putting him in this position.

    And that was what did it. That was what made something settle deep in his chest. She should never feel bad for making his life complicated. After everything she had done for him, for her crew, for this mission—after last night, after she had chosen him—she had nothing to apologize for.

    He grinned. “Oh, this is fantastic,” he said, mandibles flicking with amusement. “Does this mean I get bragging rights now?”

    Shepard blinked. For just a fraction of a second, her expression flickered—not discomfort or annoyance, but something else. Something like relief.

    She recovered quickly, laughing as she picked her glass back up. “You better hope the Council doesn’t hear that. They already think I’m too much of a wild card.”

    Garrus smirked. “Well, now I definitely have to play along.”

    She rolled her eyes, but she didn’t argue. And that was what finally got to him—because Jane Shepard never let things slide. The Jane he knew would have shut this down outright. But instead, she was letting it happen.

    And some part of him knew this meant something to her, too.

    He exhaled, finishing off his drink before pushing off the counter. “Come on,” he said.

    She looked at him, questioning. “Where…?”

    “Let’s go find some dinner.”

    Shepard blinked. “You want to be seen in public with me after that? You know that’ll just make it worse. People will probably say we spent all day in bed together.”

    He grinned, tilting his head. “Jane, if people are watching, might as well give them something to talk about, right?”

    She let out a slow laugh, shaking her head, but she got up.

    And just like that, he proved it didn’t matter.

    He was going to dinner with Jane Shepard regardless of who was watching or what they wanted to say.


    Shepard

    The last morning of shore leave always had a distinct energy—a quiet transition from relaxation back to duty. Crew members filtered in, some moving with the ease of routine, others clearly dragging after two days of overindulgence.

    Shepard watched them as she leaned against a stack of cargo crates, arms crossed, posture relaxed but mind already shifting gears. Ashley looked like she was functioning on pure spite and coffee. Kaidan moved carefully, like sudden movements might kill him. Even Tali seemed slower than usual, her usual energetic bounce noticeably absent.

    The Normandy loomed ahead, docked and waiting, its sleek silhouette familiar against the artificial glow of the Citadel’s upper wards.

    She should board. She would board. But for now, she just… watched.

    She caught sight of Garrus as he stepped off the elevator, his gaze finding hers immediately. He came to stand next to her, leaning against the crates in the same easy way he always did, settling in beside her without a word.

    For a long moment, neither of them spoke.

    Shepard tilted her head slightly toward the crew. “Think they partied two nights in a row?”

    Garrus huffed. “Oh, absolutely.”

    She smirked. “Well, at least I didn’t have to chase them down at 0600, I’ll call it a win.”

    His mandibles flicked in amusement. “Generous of you.”

    “I have my moments.”

    They fell back into comfortable silence, watching the ship together.

    Out of the corner of her eye, Shepard caught the occasional glance from the crew as they passed—subtle, but there. Quiet acknowledgment, knowing smirks, a few hushed whispers.

    Then she spotted Wrex. He was standing near the Normandy’s airlock, arms crossed, shifting through a pile of credit chits. Distributing some. Collecting others.

    She narrowed her eyes slightly. He was settling bets.

    The krogan let out that low, knowing chuckle of his, inspecting his winnings before casting an unmistakably pleased glance in her and Garrus’ direction.

    Shepard shook her head, sighing. “Unbelievable.”

    Garrus glanced at her, then followed her gaze. The moment he spotted Wrex, his mandibles twitched, and a breath of laughter escaped him. “Well. At least someone made a profit off shore leave.”

    They lingered a moment longer, watching as the last of the crew filed into the Normandy, Wrex following after them with one final glance over his shoulder, still grinning.

    Shepard pushed off the crates. “C’mon, Vakarian. Let’s get back to it.”

    Garrus fell into step beside her, the two of them boarding together, stepping back into the ship like it hadn’t been two days since they last stood here.

    As they entered the bridge, Joker was already at his station, his usual lopsided smirk already in place. He barely turned his head before calling out over his shoulder—

    “See, Commander? I told you shore leave was a good idea.” He paused, just long enough to make it pointed. “Looks like it worked out pretty well for you.”

    Shepard felt Garrus go still beside her for half a second.

    She kept her expression neutral, but she could feel the heat creeping up the back of her neck. “Set a course for Noveria, Joker.”

    “Aye, aye, Commander,” Joker said, and she could hear the grin in his voice.

    The Normandy’s engines rumbled to life beneath them, and just like that—shore leave was over.

    The mission awaited.

    And whatever the hell had happened over the last two days?

    That wasn’t going away anytime soon.

  • Chapter 15

    Shepard

    Sean had long ago disappeared, swallowed by the night and the willing company of multiple admirers, exactly as expected. Shepard had laughed when she saw it happen—doubling down on that rockstar lifestyle, huh, Belmore?—but that was hours ago. The party was still going, the music still pounding, the bass pulsing through her, but she wasn’t distracted enough.

    Not enough to stop thinking about him. About Garrus. About the fact that she had seen him with Seris. About the fact that Seris would probably be leaving with him tonight.

    Shepard scowled, tilting her drink back. And why the hell should that bother me? It didn’t make sense. It wasn’t like she expected Garrus to sit on the sidelines. He had every right to be here, to bring someone.

    To do whatever he damn well pleases.

    And yet.

    She exhaled sharply through her nose, jaw tight. He deserves better. That was it, wasn’t it? That was why it got under her skin.

    Seris was beautiful, confident, carried herself with a sharp edge of amusement that suggested she was used to getting what she wanted. And what she wanted tonight was Garrus. Shepard could see it clear as day.

    She wasn’t sure why she hated that.

    “Jane, stop being an idiot,” she muttered under her breath, setting her drink down with too much force.

    She needed to move. Needed to focus on anything else.

    Tali and Liara had been lingering near the dance floor, both more at ease now than earlier in the night. When Shepard stepped toward them, Tali didn’t hesitate, grabbing her hands and pulling her further in, twirling her in a way that made Shepard laugh despite herself. It was easy, light, fun—the kind of carefree moment they rarely got to have.

    She leaned into the music, let it carry her, let it blur the edges of everything she normally held too tightly. Sweat clung to her skin, her breath quickened, and for once, she didn’t care who was watching.

    Until she did.

    Her movements slowed as something pulled at the edges of her awareness. A shift in the atmosphere, a weight she could feel even before she found the source. She turned, scanning the room—searching without fully knowing why.

    And then she saw him.

    Garrus.

    He was standing near the bar, arms crossed, his sharp blue eyes locked onto her. And he was alone.

    Her pulse stumbled for a beat. Where’s Seris?

    But before she could process that, before she could even think about why that mattered, the weight of his gaze settled into her bones.

    That flicker of warmth hit her again—unexpected, unshakable.

    He looked different like this. The usual tension in his stance had eased, the rigid discipline that so often held him together now dialed down. He was relaxed, watching her in a way that made something coil deep in her stomach.

    How long had he been standing there?

    She shook her head to herself. Long enough.

    Fine. If he wanted to sit back and watch, that was his problem. But she wasn’t letting him off that easy. She turned toward him, making her way through the crowd with easy confidence, her movements deliberate now.

    Then she saw her.

    Seris.

    Sleek, poised, comfortable in a way that made Shepard’s stomach twist. She had returned. Standing close to Garrus again. The kind of woman who already knew she had his attention. The kind of woman who had been in his bed before.

    Shepard slowed.

    Garrus turned toward Seris, handing her a drink.

    Something in Shepard’s chest tightened.

    It was stupid. Irrational. He’s Garrus. Her friend. Her best friend. Her sniper, the one person she trusted more than anyone. And yet she felt like the air had been knocked out of her.

    He should be with Seris. He deserved to relax, to have fun, to be with someone who wasn’t her for once.

    She swallowed, already turning back toward the dance floor.

    No.

    She hesitated for only a breath, then lifted her chin and kept walking toward him.

    Seris was mid-sentence, mandibles tilted in the kind of knowing smile Shepard had seen before.

    Shepard slid into Garrus’ space without hesitation.

    “Hey,” she said, voice warm, inviting.

    Garrus turned toward her, and everything shifted. His posture, his focus, his expression—all of it turned to her.

    Seris faltered.

    Shepard felt her own pulse quicken, but not from the music., but not from the music. It was reckless, maybe even selfish. But it also felt right.

    She reached for his hand. “Dance with me.”

    For a moment, Garrus just looked at her.

    Then—

    He took her hand.

    And just like that, he chose her.


    Garrus

    The club had shifted again. The concert was long over, and now the music had settled into something heavier, something deep and pulsing, pressing against Garrus’ chest like a second heartbeat. The energy was different now—more fluid, more intimate. People weren’t just dancing anymore. They were moving in ways that spoke to something else entirely.

    He wasn’t paying much attention.

    He had been drinking, keeping conversation with Seris, his focus half on the club and half on the drink in his hand. Or at least, that was what he told himself.

    But the truth? The truth was that he was looking for Shepard.

    Not obviously. Not in a way anyone would notice, not even Seris—but his attention kept pulling in her direction, scanning the crowd, checking in a way that felt too automatic.

    Because something wasn’t adding up.

    Sean Belmore was nowhere to be seen.

    Garrus had expected to see them together all night. That was what he had resigned himself to, what he had accepted. But Sean wasn’t with her. Hadn’t been for a while now.

    So where the hell was he?

    Garrus’ mandibles twitched, his grip tightening slightly around his glass. Had something happened? Had he left her? Was he off doing some kind of interview, making an appearance? He tried to tell himself it didn’t matter.

    Shepard wasn’t alone—Tali and Liara were with her, laughing, moving together in a way that suggested the drinks had kicked in just enough to loosen them all up. And Shepard—

    His stomach twisted.

    She was still wearing that damn outfit. Because why wouldn’t she be. The one that had every single person in the club turning their heads when she walked by. The one that still felt wrong and incredibly right at the same time.

    The low-cut top, the layered necklaces catching the neon lights, the sleek black leather pants hugging every muscle in her legs. He could still hear the way she had joked earlier—*Can’t have his ‘girlfriend’ being anything less than a supermodel in front of the cameras.”

    But Sean wasn’t here. So who was she looking good for? Before he could think too much about that question, Shepard turned and her eyes found him.

    Garrus stiffened.

    She began walking toward him. Through the crowd, through the shifting, pulsing lights, moving with a kind of easy confidence that made something unsteady coil in his chest.

    And, spirits help him, he couldn’t stop watching her.

    Completely, entirely. The way the lights caught in her eyes, the way the sweat on her skin glowed in the neon haze. She wasn’t dancing anymore, wasn’t looking for anyone else.

    And then, Seris returned.

    Garrus turned, just briefly, handing her the drink he had grabbed for her, catching the slight curl of amusement at the edges of her mandibles. “Thanks,” she said, fingers brushing against his as she took it. “Starting to think you got lost.”

    He gave a half-chuckle, still half-aware of Shepard somewhere nearby. “Not my first time in a club, Seris.”

    Seris smirked, taking a sip. “Could’ve fooled me.”

    Before he could answer, before he could even think about what the hell she meant by that—Shepard was right there. Standing next to him.

    He barely even registered Seris anymore.

    “Hey,” Shepard said, her voice warm, pulling him in.

    Garrus turned and everything shifted.

    She was looking at him, directly, intently, like no one else in the room mattered.

    Seris shifted, her mandibles flicking. “I—”

    Shepard didn’t look at her. Didn’t hesitate.

    She reached for his hand. “Dance with me.”

    It wasn’t a question.

    For a moment, he just looked at her.

    This close, the music wasn’t the loudest thing in the club. She was. Her heartbeat was suddenly all he could hear.

    Her skin was warm, her breath shallow but steady. Her lips curved into something softer than a smirk, and this close, her eyes weren’t just green—they were endless.

    She didn’t break eye contact.

    And in that moment, everything in his mind should have been telling him to think. To hesitate. To consider that he was here with Seris. Consider that Shepard had spent all night with Sean. Consider why the hell this was happening.

    But none of that mattered.

    Because in that moment, as his fingers closed around hers, his doubts faded.

    And just like that, he chose her.


    Shepard

    The music thrummed through the club, the bassline reverberating through Shepard’s chest. It wasn’t just the drinks, or the heat of too many bodies moving under the neon haze—it was this.

    Garrus.

    They moved in sync, easy and unthinking, like falling into cover together or moving as one in a firefight. She hadn’t expected him to be good at this—not really—but he’d caught her rhythm within seconds. She should’ve known. He always kept up with her, no matter the battlefield.

    His hands rested on her hips, light but present. Solid. Steady. And his focus was entirely on her, watching her in a way that made something curl warm and low in her chest. His mandibles flicked occasionally—some unconscious movement he probably wasn’t even aware of.

    She liked watching for those tells. More than she should.

    The song shifted into something slower, heavier, and Shepard didn’t pull away. Neither did he.

    She slid closer instead, closing the space between them until there was barely any left. Not enough to be scandalous, but enough that she could feel the warmth radiating off him, enough that when she tilted her head back to look up at him, his face was right there.

    Close enough to count the small scars along his jaw plates. Close enough to see the way his eyes tracked her movements, sharp and focused in a way that had nothing to do with tactical assessment.

    Her pulse jumped.

    Just dancing. We’re just dancing.

    Except it didn’t feel like just dancing.

    His hand shifted slightly at her waist—not pulling, not demanding, just… there. Present. Like he was reminding himself she was real.

    She knew the crew had noticed.

    Joker was perched at the bar, his face split into an incredulous grin, nudging Tali so hard she nearly stumbled. The quarian’s hands shot up to her mask, whispering frantically as they both watched. Wrex, sitting at the edge of the room with a drink, looked entirely unimpressed—until he started counting credits, apparently collecting winnings from a bet Shepard definitely didn’t want to know about. Ashley, nearby, took a long drink and looked anywhere else.

    On the dance floor, not far from them, Kaidan and Liara swayed together—though their attention kept drifting toward Shepard and Garrus. Kaidan said something that made Liara laugh softly, a small smile playing at her lips.

    She didn’t care.

    She told herself it didn’t matter. Told herself they were just two friends dancing, letting loose after some hard missions and an unknown path ahead. That’s all this was.

    For once, she didn’t think about what came next, didn’t calculate angles or consider consequences. She just wanted to stay in this moment, let the music carry her, and let Garrus keep his hands right where they were.

    The song faded into another, and another. They didn’t stop.

    At some point, she became vaguely aware that Seris was gone. Some part of her had expected Seris to cut in at any moment. But she hadn’t. She hadn’t seen her leave, but then again, she hadn’t been paying attention to anything except Garrus.

    But when Garrus’ thumb brushed absently against her hip—barely a movement, probably unconscious—her breath caught.

    And when she looked up and found him already looking down at her, something passed between them. Something unspoken that she wasn’t ready to name.

    “You’re staring,” she said, aiming for teasing but landing somewhere softer.

    Garrus said nothing for a moment. Just held her gaze. Then his hand came up to her face and slowly, carefully, pushed a strand of hair away from her face, tucking it behind her ear. His fingers lingered for just a moment, barely grazing her jaw.

    “So are you,” he murmured back.

    She was.

    She really was.

    Neither of them looked away.

    Around them, the club pulsed on—music, lights, bodies moving in the dark. But in this small space between them, everything had gone quiet.

    Just for a moment.

    Just long enough for her to realize she was in trouble.


    Garrus

    The bass still pulsed through the club, but the world had narrowed to just her.

    Shepard was close, closer than she needed to be, moving with an ease that made it seem like this was something they did all the time. Like she always let his hands rest low on her hips. Like it wasn’t something new, something that had short-circuited his brain the moment she pulled him onto this dance floor.

    She leaned in, her fingers resting light on his arm, voice low beneath the pounding rhythm, her breath warm against his jaw. “Come on, Garrus. Let’s get out of here.”

    His talons dug into her hip before he caught himself.

    This is fine. This is normal. Just Jane being Jane.

    Except the second she pulled back, he saw the crew—saw the way Joker’s mouth had fallen open at the bar, Tali and Liara whispering like conspirators. Even Kaidan had noticed, though his expression was more amused than anything else before he turned back to his conversation with Liara.

    Rumors. There were definitely going to be rumors.

    Not that Shepard looked remotely concerned. She just smirked at him, waiting for an answer like nothing about the last hour had completely wrecked his perception of reality.

    “Yeah,” he said, “Let’s get out of here.”

    And just like that, they left together.

    The club was still pulsing behind them, neon lights flickering against the polished streets of the Citadel, but Garrus barely noticed. His mind was still catching up.

    Shepard had asked him to dance. Had stayed, song after song.

    And now? Now she was walking beside him, as if nothing had changed, as if his whole world hadn’t tilted on its axis.

    “You hungry?” she asked, her voice casual, easy.

    Garrus blinked, focusing back on her. “I could eat… But would I get to see hungover Jane if I say no?”

    She scoffed, elbowing him lightly. “No, you’d just miss out on me buying you dinner.”

    “Fine. Only if I can buy you another drink.” he responded, letting the implication settle around them.

    She rolled her eyes, not even turning to look at him. “Still not drunk enough to sing.” A pause. “There’s a place nearby. Good ramen. Late hours.”

    “You’ve got a ramen spot?” He was already intrigued.

    “Of course I have a ramen spot.” She smirked, and he could tell she was already leading them there—no hesitation, no searching for directions. She knew exactly where she was going.

    Shepard walked beside him, all easy confidence, the same natural grace she carried into every firefight. But now, with the neon lights casting long shadows, something hit him for the first time.

    She was tall.

    He knew that already—Shepard was taller than most human women, her presence always filling whatever space she was in. But right now, walking next to her, it was different.

    She was nearly at his eye level.

    His gaze dropped to her feet, sharp black stiletto heels clicking against the pavement—four inches, at least. Thin. Razor-sharp. Deadly. Like everything else about her.

    How the hell …?

    It wasn’t like he hadn’t noticed them before—he had. But for some reason, right now, it really caught his attention.

    “How do you even walk in those?” The words slipped out before he could stop them.

    Shepard laughed, shaking her head as if he’d asked something ridiculous. “I don’t know. You just… figure it out.”

    “Figure it out?” He gave her an incredulous look. “I think I’d be more likely to break an ankle.”

    “You probably would,” she shot back, smirking. “I don’t suggest you try.”

    He huffed a quiet laugh, shaking his head.

    And suddenly, it clicked.

    This wasn’t Jane trying to be something she wasn’t. The armor, the Alliance uniform, the workout gear, the leather and heels—all of it was her. Different tools for different situations. She moved through the world with the same lethal grace whether she was storming a facility or walking through a club in stilettos.

    She wasn’t pretending. She never had been.

    This was just Jane.


    Garrus

    The batarian behind the counter barely gave them a second look before rattling off a list of dextro-friendly broths, as if he’d seen this exact situation before. As if Shepard bringing a turian here was expected.

    Garrus barely had time to process that before Shepard started ordering, smooth and practiced.

    “Shoyu ramen for me, extra chashu. Gyoza to share. Two sakes—” She glanced at Garrus, gesturing toward him with an easy familiarity. “And whatever my partner here wants.”

    Garrus blinked at the casual title but didn’t comment. Instead, he turned to the batarian. “Shio ramen. Extra spice.”

    The man grunted in approval, moving to prepare their drinks first.

    “Partner?” Garrus muttered.

    She looked back at him, still smiling. “Well, you are my XO, aren’t you? Pretty sure we’re partners in this mission.”

    Right. The mission. Saren.

    Garrus studied her as she leaned against the counter, fingers drumming lightly against the worn surface. There was something settled about her here—something easy, comfortable. She wasn’t just humoring him. She liked this place.

    When the sake was set in front of them a moment later, she didn’t hesitate. She grabbed his dextro bottle first, twisting it open before he could reach for it.

    “You can’t pour your own sake,” she said, matter-of-fact.

    Garrus blinked. “I can’t?”

    “Nope. Not proper manners. Also, bad luck.”

    He gave her a skeptical look. “That a human thing?”

    “More of a people-that-invented-sake thing,” she smirked, nudging the bottle toward him.

    He huffed, mandibles twitching. “So, does that mean I’m supposed to pour yours?”

    “That’s the idea.”

    Garrus shook his head, but he didn’t argue. Instead, he carefully picked up the levo sake and poured her a glass as she poured his.

    It was simple, this little ritual. Unspoken, but understood.

    She lifted her glass, clinking it lightly against his before taking a sip. Then she set it down and looked at him directly, something shifting in her expression—less guarded than usual.

    “So,” Garrus said, the question finally surfacing. “What happened to Sean?”

    Shepard’s lips quirked. “Living the rockstar life.”

    He frowned slightly. “What does that mean?”

    “It means,” she said, gesturing vaguely with her glass, “he left with a group of very willing, very adoring fans. As usual.”

    Garrus stared at her. “And you’re… fine with that?”

    She laughed—genuinely amused. “Garrus, I told you. We’re not together. Haven’t been in a long time. Sean’s…Sean. That’s what he does.” She took another sip. “Besides, I’m exactly where I want to be.”

    The words landed heavier than she probably intended.

    Here. With him.

    Garrus felt something shift in his chest, something he didn’t have a name for yet.

    The ramen and gyoza arrived not long after, steam rising from the bowls, the rich scent of broth filling the small space between them. For a while, there was nothing but the quiet sound of chopsticks and the comfortable silence that came with good food.

    “This is good,” Garrus said after a few bites.

    “Told you.” Shepard smirked, reaching for a gyoza. “You doubted me?”

    Garrus leaned over the appetizer plate — split down the center like a diplomatic treaty — and tapped one of the gyoza with the tip of his talon. “I never doubted. Just… surprised you have a spot.”

    “I’ve got spots everywhere,” she said easily. “You just don’t know about them yet.”

    Yet. The word hung there, implying a future where he would.

    And that, more than anything, was what got to him. They had just spent hours in a club, lost in the noise and heat of it all. But this? Sitting here, eating good food in quiet companionship—this was what Shepard chose. She wanted this. With him.

    The longer they sat, the more Garrus started noticing things he’d never let himself notice before.

    The way she stretched her neck slightly, rolling her shoulders as fatigue crept in. The way she sighed—not in frustration, but in contentment. And her hair.

    He’d never really seen it like this. She always had it up, pinned back into that low bun, stray strands slipping free in battle. But now it was down, and for the first time he could see how long it actually was—falling past her shoulders, catching the warm light of the restaurant.

    She ran her hand through it absently, fingers pushing it away from her face. The motion was smooth, unthinking.

    He must have been staring, because after a moment she turned her head and caught him.

    “What?” Her voice was curious, open—no accusation.

    Garrus hesitated. “Your hair. I’ve never seen it down before.”

    She blinked, then smiled—a little self-conscious, a little pleased. “Yeah, well. Can’t exactly wear it like this on missions.”

    “No,” he agreed. “But it’s… nice.”

    The word felt insufficient, but she didn’t seem to mind. Her smile widened just slightly, and as she turned back to her ramen, he caught the slight hint of blush that crept to her cheeks.

    And Garrus sat there, sake in hand, watching her eat and realizing with absolute certainty that he was in a lot of trouble.


    Garrus

    The warmth of the sake had settled in, smoothing the edges of everything, but Garrus wasn’t sure if that was why he felt so damn comfortable.

    Maybe it was just her.

    She stretched slightly as she pushed her empty bowl away, sighing as though she knew she should leave but didn’t really want to. “I should head back.”

    She said it, but there was no urgency in her voice.

    Garrus leaned back, watching her. They’d been walking, dancing, sitting in this tiny ramen shop for what felt like hours, and yet the idea of parting ways now seemed… strange.

    “My place is closer,” he said. Not an offer. Just a fact.

    She glanced at him, considering, and then gave a small nod. “Alright.”

    And just like that, they left together.

    The streets were quieter now, the Citadel’s lights hanging soft and still. The club’s neon glow had long faded behind them, and for the first time since the evening started, Shepard exhaled, something easing in her shoulders.

    “Hold this for a sec?” she asked, handing her jacket to him so she could free her hands.

    Garrus took it automatically, the fabric warm from her body heat. Then she reached back, gathering her hair into a loose ponytail, and he did something stupidly instinctual—something he’d seen humans do a thousand times but had never done himself.

    Instead of just handing the jacket back, he held it up for her to slip into.

    Shepard didn’t hesitate. She moved as if it was the most natural thing in the world, sliding her arms through the sleeves. And that’s when he saw it—a glimpse of blue ink against her skin, just visible above the exceptionally low cut of her tank top.

    He froze, the motion of settling her jacket pausing as his eyes caught the design. A crescent moon. A wing. A blade. Sharp, deliberate strokes that weren’t careless or impulsive. This meant something.

    “You have a tattoo?” he asked before he could stop himself.

    Shepard glanced over her shoulder, smirking. “Not what you expected?”

    “Didn’t expect anything.” His mandibles twitched, gaze flicking to where the ink had disappeared beneath her collar. “What’s it mean?”

    She shrugged, a little too casual. “It’s related to a story my dad used to tell me. The Knights of the Lunar Veil. Heard of it?”

    Garrus shook his head. He had heard it. He imagined most turian children had at one point or another. But he hadn’t heard it in a very long time, and he was curious to hear her tell it.

    She smiled. “Ok, give me a minute to remember how it goes.”

    Something in her tone told him she knew it by heart, but for whatever reason, she wasn’t ready to tell him just yet.

    “Alright,” he said simply. He didn’t press. But he needed to know.

    They’d only walked another block before Shepard let out a quiet, tired groan and stopped in her tracks. “Hang on,” she muttered, reaching down.

    Before Garrus could ask what she was doing, she grabbed his arm to balance herself and started unbuckling her heels.

    “You’re seriously taking off your shoes?”

    “Garrus, we’ve been walking and dancing for hours,” she said, exasperated but grinning. “My feet are done.”

    He looked down at the utterly impractical stiletto heels in her hand and then at the street ahead of them. “And you’re just gonna walk back barefoot?”

    “Yeah.” She said it like it was the most normal thing in the world.

    Garrus blinked. “Jane, you can’t just—what if there’s glass or—”

    She rolled her eyes. “Nothing’s ever happened before.”

    “That’s not a guarantee it won’t happen now.”

    “I’ll be fine, Garrus.”

    She took exactly two steps before he exhaled sharply, already over this entire situation. “Damn it, Jane—”

    With one swift motion, he scooped her up, one arm under her legs, the other bracing her back, ignoring the startled noise she made. One second she was walking. The next, she was in his arms, and she did not get to argue.

    “Garrus!”

    “You can’t argue if your feet aren’t on the ground,” he said matter-of-factly.

    She laughed—really laughed—head tipping back slightly. He wasn’t sure he’d ever heard her laugh quite like that before. And spirits… he loved it.

    “You’re ridiculous,” she huffed, but she didn’t fight him. She just sighed dramatically and rested her arms around his shoulders, like it wasn’t even a question of whether or not she trusted him to carry her.

    “Fine, you win.”

    He smirked. “I usually do.”

    And with that, he kept walking—Shepard in his arms, her heels dangling from her fingers, her breath warm against his shoulder.

    And maybe, just maybe—he didn’t want the walk to end too soon.


    Garrus

    The door slid shut behind them with a soft hiss, sealing out the world.

    Shepard stepped inside without hesitation, shrugging off her jacket as she walked further in, rolling her shoulders like she was finally letting herself unwind.

    Garrus followed, watching her for a moment before asking, “You want something to drink?”

    She glanced at him, smirking slightly. “Surprise me.”

    He huffed, shaking his head as he grabbed two glasses and a bottle of brandy from the small cabinet near the counter. It wasn’t the fancy stuff—he didn’t exactly keep top-shelf liquor around—but it was good, something with enough warmth to settle them after the night they’d had.

    By the time he turned back with the glasses, she was already perched on the edge of the couch, one leg tucked beneath her.

    “So,” he said, settling in beside her, “Did you remember the story?”

    Shepard paused, swirling the amber liquid in her glass. Then she exhaled through her nose—almost a laugh. “You won’t get the full effect unless you can actually see it.”

    Before he could ask what she meant, she set her glass down, turned her back to him, and in one smooth motion, lifted her tank top over her head.

    Garrus froze.

    For a split second, his entire brain faltered. She wasn’t bare—not exactly. She still had her bra on, the fabric of her shirt draped loosely in front of her, still covering herself—but the ease with which she did it, the complete lack of hesitation, made something tighten in his chest.

    She trusted him. Without question.

    And then his eyes fell to the tattoo.

    The crescent moon, the blade, the wing—etched across her back in bold strokes of deep blue ink. Deliberate. Meaningful. Permanent.

    “My dad used to tell me this story when I was a kid,” she said, voice steady. “The Kingdom of Evernight stood at the edge of the known world, shrouded in twilight. The people there didn’t follow the sun—they followed the moon.”

    Garrus found himself leaning forward slightly, drawn in by the cadence of her voice.

    “When war came—when enemies without honor marched on the kingdom—thirteen warriors swore an oath: If the sun will not rise for us, we shall become the light in the dark. They became the Knights of the Lunar Veil.”

    She paused, and Garrus’ gaze traced the ink on her skin as she spoke—the crescent moon, the wing, the blade.

    “Each knight bore a sigil,” she continued. “The crescent moon, for the light they swore to be when all else was lost. The wing, for the freedom they sacrificed, bound forever to their duty. The blade, for the unyielding steel of their hearts.”

    At some point, without realizing it, his talons drifted forward—light, reverent. He traced the ink slowly, following the sharp lines and soft curves, barely grazing her skin. The movement was instinct. Careful.

    She didn’t stop him. Just kept talking, her voice steady as he followed the curve of the wing where it spread across her back and over her shoulder like something living.

    “The knights turned the tide of war again and again,” she said quietly. “But all legends have their end. The kingdom’s rulers, afraid of the power the knights wielded, bartered peace with the enemy—one that demanded the knights be cast aside. Outlawed. Erased.”

    Garrus’ talons paused at her shoulder blade. He knew this story. Knew how it ended. But hearing it from her, feeling the weight of it beneath his touch—it was different.

    “Rather than submit, the Lunar Knights vanished into legend,” she finished. “Some say they scattered to the far reaches of the world. Others say they faded into the stars, watching over the night. But those who still believe say that when the sky is at its darkest, and the crescent moon hangs high, the knights still ride—protecting those who cannot protect themselves.”

    She leaned her head slightly as his talons traced over her shoulder one last time, and the trust in that simple gesture hit him harder than any bullet ever had.

    When she pulled her shirt back on and turned to face him again, he realized he still hadn’t breathed properly since she started.

    There was a beat of silence.

    “We should probably get some sleep,” she murmured, half-smiling.

    Garrus exhaled a slow, amused breath. “Yeah. Probably.”

    Neither of them moved—not right away. Instead, they kept talking, easing into conversation, letting the warmth of the brandy and the quiet hum of the apartment settle around them.

    And somewhere in the midst of it, exhaustion finally caught up. Neither of them meant to fall asleep, but they did—somewhere between talking and not talking, between shared glances and quiet admissions, they drifted.

    When Garrus woke up later—hours later—she was still there, still next to him on the couch. At some point, they’d shifted, settled, ended up closer than before. Her head rested lightly against his shoulder, her breathing slow and even.

    He didn’t move. Didn’t dare.

    Because for once, he wasn’t alone.

    And Garrus wasn’t sure he ever wanted to be again.


    Shepard

    Shepard stirred, the slow pull of consciousness settling in before she was fully awake.

    The first thing she noticed was warmth—the kind that wasn’t just from the throw blanket draped over her, or the ambient temperature of the room. The second thing she noticed was weight—a presence beside her, solid and steady.

    Her brow furrowed slightly as she blinked herself awake, eyes adjusting to the dim lighting of the apartment.

    And then it clicked.

    Garrus.

    She had fallen asleep on the couch with Garrus. Not just near him. Against him.

    Her head was resting lightly against his shoulder, the faint scent of brandy and something uniquely him lingering in the air. His arm was draped loosely near her—not quite around her, but close. Closer than she ever thought they’d be.

    She didn’t move, didn’t even think about it. Instead, for just a moment, she let herself feel it.

    The night before filtered back in waves—the dancing, the ramen, the story, his talons tracing her tattoo—and suddenly, this didn’t feel strange.

    It felt… right.

    Not dangerously right. Not in a way that made her panic or second-guess every decision. Just… right in a way she didn’t want to disturb.

    She turned her head slightly, just enough to glance up at him, and that’s when she realized—he was still asleep.

    Shepard had only seen Garrus sleep once before, on that night he stayed with her when she broke down over Nihlus. But even then, it had only been for a minute, maybe less. That time, he had stirred almost instantly, like his instincts wouldn’t allow him to rest.

    But now? Now he was still.

    His breathing was slow and even, mandibles relaxed, head tilted just slightly in her direction. He looked… at peace. Relaxed in a way she wasn’t sure she’d ever seen before.

    A small, unexpected warmth pressed at the edges of her thoughts—something steady, something certain. He trusted her enough to sleep. And for some reason, that meant more than she wanted to admit.

    She didn’t dare move. She let herself stay just a few moments longer, let herself feel the way her own breathing naturally synced with his, let herself acknowledge the part of her that didn’t want to get up at all.

    Then, Garrus stirred.

    She felt it first—the shift in his breathing, the way his body instinctively tensed before realizing there was no danger. Then his eyes opened, slow and steady, flickering with recognition as they landed on her.

    Their eyes met. For a second, neither of them spoke.

    They were still close—too close. Close enough that it should have been awkward, close enough that one of them should’ve pulled away by now.

    But neither of them did.

    Shepard could almost see the same thought flickering in his eyes—the quiet realization of how right last night had been, the unspoken understanding that they had become better friends than either of them had realized.

    Finally, Garrus broke the silence.

    “…Morning, Jane.”

    His voice was lower, rough with sleep.

    She smirked, but it was softer than usual. Lazy almost.

    “Morning, Garrus.”

    Neither of them moved, because neither of them wanted to.